| When is it really over?This is one of the mornings after another sleepless night that I
cannot help not ask myself, why didn't I have a good night sleep again?
Then I would just joke myself and answer it with, maybe someone's been
thinking of me all night....hahaha! Jokes are always half-meant, a friend said once. And
maybe...just maybe, behind that joke, there's this wishful thinking that
someone has really been thinking of me. Then the memory of someone from the
past would, again, bounce in my head...disturb my sanity and make my day
half-miserable.
What if he's thinking about me? What if he still loves me? It's
just another imagination, I know. Another day of what if's and
maybe's.
For the nth time, I've told myself that when it's over, it's really
over! There's no sense turning back or even trying to pick up
the pieces again. It's time to move on and face the reality!When it's over, is it really over? When you decide to let go, do you really succeed in letting go? I just heard the latest song of Sugar Ray a while ago. Here's the few lines that caught my attention:When it's over, That's the time I fall in love again...
When it's over, That's the time you're in my heart again...
How can you possibly say it's over when you're still in love
with the person you said you were over with already? I guess it's not
that easy when the chain of the past locks you in the chest of false hopes
and leads you to a place called fantasy with Cinderella and Snow
white as your best friends! The three of you would gather on the hilltop and after a while
three young drop-dead gorgeous princes would come riding on their
horses to join the picnic under a tree.
How pathetic! But, admit it or not, it's true... The hardest part of
losing a loved one is to accept the fact that they're gone and might
never come back again. There are things that will always remind
you of your togetherness...the places you've been, his or her favorite food
you used to cook for him or her, expressions you used to hear from
him or her and songs you've both loved to sing.
These are the memories that'd linger on your mind from time to time.
Because you were both in love before (or so you think), it makes you hope
>>>>>>for another chance. You begin to believe on what others said
that love is lovelier the second time around and the line from Ally
McBeal, "whoever said that 'plenty of fish in the sea' thing is lying.
Sometimes, there's only one...trust me."We would desperately believe that what happens in the movies might
also happen to us one day.
Who didn't like the lines from the movie "Runaway Bride" where Julia Roberts told Richard Gere, "I guarantee that we'll have tough times;I guarantee that in some point, one of us would want to get out; I
also guarantee that if I don't ask you to be mine, I'll regret this for the
rest of my life, 'coz I know in my heart...you're the only one for me."We tend to think that the person who left us will come back one day
and say those words, or just simple words but would promise forever.
Problems may occur every now and then, but we would consider
those things as trials to be conquered in order for the relationship to bloom
and mature.
Oouucchh! Reality just bit me!
More often than not, these romantic movies and mushy love songs only
make us long for something we cannot have...and for someone who cannot
be ours again. It hurts to admit that we are just pretending. All the
while, we already knew the truth but we ignore it. When the damage is
done, there's nothing left to do but cry...to mourn for the bitterness in our
hearts. Then curse anybody who gets in the way.
I'm scared!!!
As long as we still hold on to the past, the chance of meeting someone
new may be a bit far off the field. The fear of trusting and falling in love again may also hinder us to grow and move on. We are hesitant to take the risk, afraid that
we may get hurt again. Because of the negative thoughts stocked in our
brains, we refuse to go out from our self-made world and deprive
ourselves from new opportunities, whether in love affairs or career wise.
Let's face it! Betrayal can be anywhere and anyone can be a victim.The
worst part is when the one we truly, madly and deeply love is the one
who will betray us in the end. Then we are left with nothing but a broken heart and wounded pride. Sad... but true.
Reality check please...
It can happen to anyone but we shouldn't just take things as it comes.
An action must be done. We should take care of ourselves from the
hungry wolves in the jungle. It's just a matter of survival. Stand up
when you fall. It's okay to cry as hard and as long as you want to, just
make sure that when you stop crying, you won't cry for the same reason anymore.
Learn and live.
Love is the most wonderful thing one can offer, so be smart enough to
give the love in your heart to the one who really deserves it. |