madonna143 commented in a discussion called Dying Soon..
1 month ago
This body is truly so frail and temporal. All these struggles I hope to bear until the time comes. Nobody deserves to die like this. I offer all of these pains to the people with the same affliction as I have. May they be in God's grace when their time also comes.

madonna143 commented in a discussion called i am hiv+ and now dying..
1 month ago
It will only strike you when the real challenges come up if you are confined to the hospital and living life minute by minute experiencing total discomfort. It would feel like its forever, the good thing is, I am already having dementia and I dont remember that clearly these early months. One thing I know is that I suffered so much at home and in the hospitals, especially when I was almost brou...

madonna143 commented in a discussion called i am hiv+ and now dying..
1 month ago
I know that God listens to our prayers. I also pray that the other people in this same situation I am now in will be helped by the more fortunate persons in this world. I hope that they can be given access to pain medications at the very least so we can die comfortable as possible.

madonna143 commented in a discussion called i am hiv+ and now dying..
1 month ago
Thank you very much for caring. I just hope that the very least I don't lose my eyesight so I can continue reading all your replies and reply back to all of you here. I am touched with all your kind words and I hope that I can continue all this. God bless you all.

madonna143 commented in a discussion called i am hiv+ and now dying..
1 month ago
Cruel as it really is, I just hope that all of these would be part of my penance for the wrong things I have done in this life. I also offer my pains to all those afflicted with this pandemic and hope that we may die as comfortable as possible and at least have access to pain medications when the worst days come.

madonna143 commented in a discussion called i am hiv+ and now dying..
1 month ago
Thank you very much for your kind words. When you are in this situation, the only thing you can really do is turn to HIM. I am feeling a bit weak today but not yet in too much pain. I have been reading all the posts here up to page five and wanted to thank all of you.

madonna143 commented in a discussion called i am hiv+ and now dying..
1 month ago
I am really frightened and confused. Your cousin was younger than me. I just hope that I will have access to pain medications when my time comes. It is good that in your country there are hospices. Here, there is none. Its either you die at home or if you have money die in the hospital. I hope I could earn more while I am still a bit strong so as not to be too much burden to the people I leave ...

madonna143 commented in a discussion called i am hiv+ and now dying..
1 month ago
I am sorry if I reminded you of your brother. I know that he misses you too wherever he is now. All I can really do is pray and try to hope for the best. Thank you so much for caring. God Bless.

madonna143 commented in a discussion called i am hiv+ and now dying..
1 month ago
I also have been gone for a long time, in fact six years since I last logged in here. I wanted to let others know that this disease millions of us are facing is not as simple as it seems. They say that the anti retrovirals can make your life longer but they don't discuss how we cope with the terrible side effects it brings. We have no choice but to tolerate and take the meds since it is our onl...

madonna143 commented in a discussion called i am hiv+ and now dying..
1 month ago
Dying and looking like skin and bones is just a tip of the iceberg for people living with aids. We we can have so many complications that we could imagine. I am guilty of isolating myself because of my physical appearance now.