Moment of Fear

Canada
May 1, 2007 11:34am CST
I had a moment of utter fear on Friday. It was a nice day out, I was outside puttering around enjoying the springtime. The birds were chirping, the sun was out, my son was playing on his play structure. Nothing was going wrong. In fact it was a great "lazy" day. Then I had a thought, I have no idea where this thought came from but.... why am I here? If I am only to live this life and then die and rot why did my parents even give birth to me? Wasn't that cruel? To show me all of this wonderful life and then I will DIE. Why even bother with life, why struggle when I am only going to die and ROT? Now there are a few things you should know, I am not a depressed sort of person, I have been suicidal back when I was a teenager, but I think all teens have their moments, but for the past five or six years I've been pretty happy go lucky, laid back, happy. I don't even know what made me think of it but ever since I have been going back to it having this emotional dilema. What are your takes on god and religion and why we are here? What happens after we die? What is our purpose? I ahve never been a religious person, I was raised Catholic but had found it lacking, I have researched religion before but have never found anything that left me with anything but questions..... Can anyone help?
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@cancatis (406)
• Brazil
2 May 07
Hey Punky. ^^ Well, as this is a very personal matter, I'll share my experience and then you can take it as an advice, a story or some yaddayadda. =P I was raised Catholic too but when my mom realized it was a bit.. empty, she started to read other things. That got me curious about and since then I'm all into it. It was when I was about eleven or something. I do believe there's no end for life. We're living now and we'll be living forever. "Living" (what we are doing now) is just a lesson, for a bigger "program/course". Our souls need to learn about how life (in its greatness) works and how to live with other people. So we do have our lessons, which I consider to be our livetimes. Once we're here, we start living certain situations that will, if we know how to take them, teach us something, will teach us what we have to learn. If someone doesnt believe in a "spiritual side" of life, it really becomes the be born-eat-grow-reproduce-die-rot thing. But as I've seen on your post, I guess you're not an atheist. So... if God (or some divine being) has put you down here... it wouldnt be a random event. You're here for something AND it should feel strange if you DID know why you were here. Cause then, you simply would go and do it, right? So as we take our turns trying to find out what the reason is, we keep on learning everything else. We learn how to live with other people, what's the best way to handle situations, how to react to something unexpected, we're learning things all the time. So even if someone's here thinking they arent doing nothing, he is learning. Well, I know I got a little carried away. Let me know if I helped you there. ^^
• Canada
4 May 07
I would like to think that "living" is just a step in some journey that we or our sould or spirits are making.... ThanX for the post. I'm glad you got carried away you are always such a thoughtful person!
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@cancatis (406)
• Brazil
4 May 07
I like your posts here and I think it's nice to spend some time replying such an interesting topic you've made. ^^
@cokyjazz (429)
• Australia
2 May 07
Hi, Look,don't worry most of us come to a point in our lives when we take a look from the outside and wonder why the heck we are here.It would be great if our creator or whatever would hijack the tv stations with an announcement that answers everything! Unfortunately that will never happen.We have to search ourselves for answers and hope we are right or at least that there is something after this. I'm not religious but i do believe that there is a kind of heaven or hell here on earth..all about consequense really..commit cruel acts or other bad things and bad consequenses will come eventually.Same for good deeds,good things will follow even though it can take an awfully long time. Even if all we do at the end is rot,i have comfort in knowing i will be remembered for being a good wife,mother and person in general. Only my opinion but i hope it helps.
• Canada
3 May 07
Wow! Thank you. It was a very nice post and I do truly appreciate that. I could feel the heartfelt sincerety in your post. thank you!
@kumar27 (129)
• India
2 May 07
your fear arises from loneliness this loneliness is not for any othr friend but u. you r the friend in u who is the part of god himself......read mathew 7/6. both the chaper carefully u will get your answer .
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• United States
2 May 07
Amen kumar! Jesus Christ is the only way to true peace and joy!
@deeeky (3669)
• Edinburgh, Scotland
1 May 07
You are a wonderfull person and have a gift that is precious to us all. If we all have a positive mental attitude in life and think of all the good things around us and look for the good in all then that will get us through this wonderfull world that we live in. Negative thoughts do not belong here and only the good will prevail. We all have a purpose in life and to share that goodness all around us. Why think negative when there is so much goodness all around us. Life is to short and we have to make good in everthing we do. We may have not had the choice to be born but we do have the choice to live and our mind will always be here with us as we are part of the universe and all it's power available to us. Have a nice life from Deeeky.
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@Darkwing (21590)
1 May 07
I think you're still trying to find the path that is right for you. This could be any one of a number of traditions or religions and you are the only one who can find it. Ok... I could tell you my beliefs, but they probably wouldn't be what you're looking for, and I wouldn't want to put them upon you, only to confuse you more. You are confused enough at the moment, but you will find your own way, without anybody's lead. You will know when you stumble across your inner beliefs. Maybe the first thing you should do is to search your inner self, and balance. You need to rid yourself of the negative thoughts. Life is a beautiful gift whichever way you look at it, and you should treasure every moment. Read around a bit about different traditions and religions, to see which suits you, personally. I'm Seax-Wica, but I started out as Wicca. It's just that Wicca itself wasn't all I was looking for, so I adapted to incorporate Anglo Saxon beliefs. I am now at peace with myself that I have found the right path for me and am enjoying my journey. You will get there too... you'll find what you want and need to believe all wrapped up in one, and your journey will become the most pleasant thing you have ever encountered. Brightest Blessings my friend.
• Philippines
2 May 07
Hey forget about my first response. I was worried you might feel bad about that. I'm Catholic too, why don't you read Purpose Driven Life? It did work for others, I'm suggesting this on others account.
@shalako (19)
• United States
2 May 07
I too was raised catholic and was just fine with it, till I went through a divorce, and basically felt the scorn of the diocese..lol... Religion is such a personal thing that, All I can do is offer my take on it. I am the sort of person that doesn't ask why, but more often why not. Some people think that we are just a strang chance happening in the universe that there was this big bang and whoosh here we are.. I choose to believe that God created us, for what purpose, well that's another story. I think you have to ride it out to find out the answers you want. I have dealt with alot of diversity in my life from different things, sickness, injury, lost loved ones, divorce. But I have always been able to see my way through it. I don't think you need a church to have God. I find myself more often than not talking to him, when I'm having problems..I don't think it really matters if there is a god or not, it's the idea of hope that keeps us going, and i choose to believe. Some people say why believe in something you have no proof of, regardless of how it makes you feel, I say why not. I don't know what is going to happen after I die, but I know that right now...looking at my little boy that there has to be a God to have made something sooooo perfect...