Giving Thanks.

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"He took the knife from her and put it down out of her reach, then sat down and wrapped his arms around her as she sobbed, unable to offer any words to make things better, but desperate to convey as much love as he could to her ..." That was me a year ago. My depression was extremely bad and I was a danger to myself should I have been left alone. My partner was struggling to come to terms with how bad my depression was, and also he was worried too about how we'd manage financially with him staying home to make sure I didn't kill myself. He stayed home for 10 days, till he was certain I was okay to be left alone. That was my darkest period so far. I've only ever had those suicidal thoughts occasionally, and nowadays things are much better. There are times where I'm still down, and although I don't take anti depressants, I researched other ways and means of getting through the dark times. I finally settled on aromatherapy as a natural means, and also, more recently, pet therapy. However, the one thing that's helped me more than any other this year? Mylot. My new friends to be specific. Sharing the tough times with others who have been there before, and reading their kind words has helped immensely. Sharing jokes and laughter as a means of making me smile, offering tips and advice to others who need it as a way of making me feel good. Every single one of you have helped enormously in combating the dark periods that come from time to time with depression. I'll do housework, and think about a discussion I read the night before, and the corners of my mouth twitch and begin to curl upwards in a smile. Nobody I've ever known have had that power over me before. Thank you to every single one of you. Thanks to you, I look forward to every new day, instead of wanting to hide myself away in bed and let life pass me by. You could have no idea how grateful I am for having discovered Mylot, and the many wonderful people I've shared time here with. I have my life back finally.