Oh, so THIS is what a "heavy heart" feels like!

United States
July 18, 2007 11:23am CST
I've read the phrase before, and I've had my share of pain in this life, but I never fully understood how very literal this description is... until today. We got the pathology results yesterday, and it's as bad as it could possibly be. Glioblastoma multiforme, type IV, is the most deadly of the common types of brain tumor, and my poor, poor a-SIL has it. We're devastated. We're going to fight, and fight like hell, but right now, we're just devastated. There's an additional element of malpractice on the part of the surgeon, but I'll write about that in another discussion. The prognosis is poor, 1 to 6 months. She can't participate in the best research protocol, because we don't have the right size tissue samples for the type of stains they need. We're taking her out of this abysmal, sh1tty so-called health care system in Delaware and going to Jefferson University Hospital in Philadelphia, where they have a brand new unit that specializes in brain cancers. Brain cancer - what an innocuous-looking phrase for such a deadly thing! I'll keep you posted, as always. I doubt I'll be doing much else on myLot for a bit, I've been trying to post some good responses to things, but my heavy heart is making my fingers too heavy to type. My a-SIL's name is Dot, and she is very grateful for all the prayers and good wishes ny friends here have been sending her way. I am, too. Do me a favor - go hug someone you love. Life's too short not to show your loved ones how much you love them!
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@gloria777 (1678)
• India
19 Jul 07
I have no words of comfort. But pray to god to give you enough courage to deal the situation.
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@sid556 (31018)
• United States
18 Jul 07
I am so sorry. You are going thru so very much. Yes stories such as yours do help us to appreciate all those that we love all the more. Keep your spirit up so you can help her with hers.
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@ladyluna (7004)
• United States
19 Jul 07
Hello Gardengrrl, I'm so saddened to hear this news. I've been hoping and praying that the word would come back as benign. It's no wonder why your heart is so heavy. I will continue to keep you and your loved ones in my thoughts & prayers. Hopefully the Philadelphia facility can help Dot. Sending a big hug your way! And, thanks for taking the time to remind us all about how important it is to let our loved one's know how much we care.
@Tanya8 (1734)
• Canada
19 Jul 07
I'm so, so sorry to hear that, Gardengrrl. I've been wondering how things were going, and I'm so sad for you and your loved ones. I'm glad to hear that Dot will be getting better care.
• United States
19 Jul 07
What a horrible thing! Cancer can be so unforgiving. I wish you guys peace. I will be hugging my daughter in the next few seconds!
@crickethear (1420)
• United States
18 Jul 07
I am so sorry. It is devasting to get news like that. My heart and prayers are with you. Many hugs to you.
@RosieS57 (892)
• United States
18 Jul 07
I didn't know this ran in families. If it indeed does I've got 17 years left, because my father had 3 days past 3 months after it being diagnosed for him to pass on at age 67. Please have all her family really talk over and decide where the line is between fighting the cancer and inflicting torture. The line can be hard to determine sometimes -- that's why all of you need to sit down and say where it is in advance. It may be hard to consider right now but this type of brain cancer makes it so the person isn't aware of the dying process, like an Alzheimer's sufferer. By that time too much is gone for them to be aware and in a way that is a blessing. Take care of YOU and know that the dying process is a part of life, too. Please discuss Hospice as an option for a humane way to go.
@mummymo (23709)
18 Jul 07
You know what honey part of me is so sad that my kids are gone for the week as my heart is breaking and the tears are flowing for the pain that you , Dot and the other members of the family right now but another part of me is so sad and desolate cos I just want to squeeze them and hug them close! I cannot begin to understand how you feel - all I can do is offer you love , support and prayers and that I do freely sweetie! Never give up - I know you will fight and I pray for your strenght! xxx