I am losing hope with this life..may God take me with his loving home:(

Philippines
August 7, 2007 6:41am CST
my friends i am losing hope onmy life..for 23 years of living i lived miserable..all things that is happening is strking me to death..i cannot face another tomorrow to believe that i am living in this world full of people who are trying to ruin me..trying to hurt me..i have enough of this life and may God take me home with him..:(
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@wotfpatty (2065)
• United States
7 Aug 07
Wow, that is just the saddest thing I have read in a long time. If you truly feel this way, you need to get help. You're 23 years old. You have years of wonderful life ahead of you. You may see only darkness now but I guarantee you that the darkness will lift and the sunshine will come pouring through. I have been through oh so much and, at times, felt somewhat similar but the reality is, as hurt as I was and as sad as I was, I still wanted to be here - just not hurting anymore. I sense that you do too. You just want the hurt to stop. I don't know anything about you, haven't read your posts, don't know if you are on antidepressants, but you really need to tell someone other than us how you are feeling. You don't have to live in misery. You can feel good and you can be happy. You just have to find the help out there. Tomorrow may be the start of all good things. You need to be there to see. There is very little, I, a stranger, can say to you but to please not give up hope and find someone to talk to and tell your troubles to. There is always, always hope. Never forget that. I wouldn't be here today if there wasn't. Hugs from someone who was once nearly where you are now.
• Philippines
8 Aug 07
a stanger you may seem but i will always consider you a friend from now on..if tomorrow maybe difficult and wold be so much hard for me..maybe its really time for me to go..i pity myself for having all this troubles..troubles that i may not control of striking me..troubles that wont make me sleep and troubles that had caused me so much that i dont deserve..life is not so good for me..but instead i chose to be good to others..goodness that led me to heart aches and sufferings..goodness that made me miserable.
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@sid556 (30960)
• United States
8 Aug 07
This post really surprises me. I am glad that you reached out tho. I have read and responded to many of your posts. they are always thoughtful and kind. Please...tell us more of why you are feeling this bad about things.
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@sid556 (30960)
• United States
8 Aug 07
ps...you are much stronger than you think...after going back and refreshing myself on your story...do you have any idea how much strengh you have just to get thru each day? Y ou do have the strength to remove yourself from this situation.
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• Philippines
8 Aug 07
i really wish i can be more strong and get out of this mess..it could be that i can be strong or i could fail i this journey.
@raenie (705)
• Philippines
8 Aug 07
I guess that God knows that you are one VERY strong person & can take whatever trial occurs in your life...so prove Him right...always remember the story of Job. Yes, life does seem to be cruel to us sometimes but I guess in these times, it really is helpful to look at the small stuff (or what seems to be small stuff) that make life worth living...be it that you are not sick, that you're still able to walk, that you can still smile (you have a great smile btw-if that's your pic in your profile ^_^), that you are still ALIVE. Just imagine of how there are scores of people in impoverished countries are living same fates as you are & are still choosing to live despite of it all. You have a purpose in life & I'm sure that with a soul as great as yours, you can do more. God bless you & may your brother's soul rest in peace (My only brother passed away 3 years ago & I know how difficult it can be) Stay strong!
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@anjoks (2080)
• Philippines
7 Aug 07
Hey, dont say that please!! Dont lose hope. You are not the only person in this world living like that. Thousands more out there have worse problem than yours. I, too have tons and tons of problems but with god's help, i am able to survive and coping up with everday stress. You are too young my dear. Lots and lots of great things in store for you. Problems aren's setbacks but are lessons to be learned and experience for us to be a better person and brave. We're here for u. Take care and please dont think of that anymore. Its giving me the creeps really. (",)
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• Philippines
8 Aug 07
i belong to those people who had the worsest life ever! i was stocked up in this painful life..i don't think i can carry on with full strength anymore..i got weaker and weaker through the days i cannot go on another day anymore..i lost a daughter then comes i lost my dearest younger brother..my family is a mess and now i get beat with a man whom i cared for, whom i gave shelter and fed him and gave him money for his vises..yes i took care of a serpent in my house..a brother to consider with..an eldest brother i am so patient regardless of what attitude he has..and now he is out there to kill me and threatened me..i don't wanna wake up for another tomorrow having the same pain again..i had enough
@anjoks (2080)
• Philippines
8 Aug 07
Hey, just done reading your other post and checked your profile too and i didnt know that u-r a pinoy. . I totally cant say a thing here my friend. So many things that i dont know what good advice and enlightenment i can give you more. I'll be praying for you and ur family's safety and just please hang on tight. Rest assured that nothing bad will happen again. Be brave please. Take care. (",)
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• Philippines
8 Aug 07
yes i am a pinay, prayers can be so much of a help..please do pray for me, for us for things to get better.
@blackbriar (9076)
• United States
8 Aug 07
The good Lord is testing you, angel. He will bring you Home when your life here on earth is fulfilled, not before. You have the strength and will to live and you have done all you could to help your family. Now is the time to step back and let them handle their own problems. Pack up and leave w/o looking back. My prayers are with you to find the peace you have been looking for.
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• United States
8 Aug 07
amen!!
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• United States
18 Oct 07
Thank you for the BR, angel. Hope everything is well with you.
• Philippines
8 Aug 07
my friend, i am leaving as soon as i can..i wanna forget about this things..much as possible i wanna leave the country for good and leave all the pain and suffering i dealt with here..i wanna forget everything and start a better life with less worries.may the Good Lord be with me always
• Philippines
7 Aug 07
ei.. mind if i ask you why?
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@sid556 (30960)
• United States
8 Aug 07
Oh now I am remembering your story...sorry hon...i am terrible with names. You have way too much on your shoulders that doesnt belong there for someone as young as you. You are in a very bad situation. You need someone close to you to help protect you.
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@sid556 (30960)
• United States
12 Aug 07
I don't know w hat to say....HUGS. Even that is dumb. I'm a stranger to you . You need real hugs.
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• Philippines
8 Aug 07
sid556, no one would like to be my back.no one close to me..its me against the whole world..me who had done nothing but to be good to my family and other people..sometimes i think i wanna be bad enough for maybe things will get better..
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@aj2006 (1534)
• Philippines
8 Aug 07
You know what, I remember my very self upon reading your discussion, I was like you five years ago..very young but mature in and out, problems left and right, broken, empty.... and, I wanted to quit .. but I am glad I never did. Life is really to short and its our choice to make it more fruitful and make it longer... Be brave and GOD will never abandon you, He is there, you just can't feel it because you are thinking negatively... please, hold on.. Five years ago I am misarable, but now I am full of JOY... if I choose to quit, I will never ever had the chance to answer this post of yours and the smiling baby in my avatar will never see this world... yes, I am saying that giving up is not the best thing to do... Have FAITH! that's all you need.. :) God Bless you!
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• Philippines
15 Aug 07
Do not feel bad. It is not you who only suffer. We are many on this earth who have a big problem. Even I myself on this few days just have a very big problem. This problem even makes my heart sickness. It seems that many people are hating me and they want also my ruin, even my husband. Imagine that? My very own husband wants to ruin my life. Life sometimes sucks. I am also tired but we should never try to end our lives. I still believe that the sun will shine tomorrow. If not tomorrow, I will still hope for another day untill it will remember me and will make me happy. There are many reasons and things in life that is worth living for in this world! We have a mission here. Don't loose your faith. Many people today who are ill and whose life are already few still hope for more. Why do we with more life wants to make it less? We must make our life happy. I know if today is not yet bright I believe one day it will come.
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• India
8 Aug 07
Hello Angel i read almost the whole discussion before replying to you and i have to tell please just understand that you cannot live someone's life no matter how much you love them. It will hurt to see your loved ones suffering but you cant take that burden on your young shoulders. Let them make their mistakes and learn from life. Think that everything you have gone through was your lesson in life and move on Angel. I will pray for you a lot iam sure you will find the strength. i know baby you must be feeling its unfair that so much of burden was put on you at such an young age but look at it this way atleast now you are young and strong and you can still turn your life around what if it happened a whole lot years later you might not even have the strength to start afresh. Thats all i can say to you sweety. Only the person who has been there will understand the pain so all this advise may or maynot help you but prayers defnitely help so i will pray for you and send some wondeful thoughts and love towards you. Rise and Shine Angel and remember we might all just be people behind a computer screen but we care and pray for you. Hugs - Ano
• Philippines
15 Aug 07
iv felt that too my friend.. i mean there are times i feel like giving it up to0.. im 20 and i miss my high school life and the like.. i wish i didnt grew up, i just felt likt its more fun being so so young.. without taking any risk, without taking any nothing... its just now that im in college that ive felt all this not so nice stuffs.. which iv NEVER been really then.. its just now that ive expreienced how to be treated not so so nice at all.. ive never been sweard a whole lotta words before.. but yea i goota take it all up.. wrap it up and put it in my bin.. i was also hurt and hurting.. but enough is really not enough.. whether we like it or not we got to face trials.. we have to be strong.. strong in a way that we face troubles and hurting in our lives and not walking away from them.. iv wished God wouldve or shouldve took me anyway its no big deal for the world if it'd lose me.. iv been there and tstill being there., you're not alone my friend.. but what m trying to say to you is just hang on for a lil lovin for yourslf.. remember, life is like a box of chocl8, we never know what we're gonna get.. so maybe just maybe, the next chocl8 of life would be better than the ones we had.. so0n,, lets love ourselves.. our "self" deserves to be loved by our own selves.. =) smile when you're in hurt, sing when you're in hurt, cry when you're in hurting or growl even.. you can dance to0.. look in the mirror and say "i love you to yourself" it'll help.. iv been doing that and it helps.. =) godbless my friend!
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@eprado (1467)
• Philippines
8 Aug 07
That's very sad but don't lose hope my friend, be patient and trust in God sooner or later He'll ease your burdens. As long as we are living there is hope and tomorrows another day. Life's a challenge full of struggles but remember that God's will not give those that we can not surpass through. I'd like to share with you this inspirational song. Keep smiling & God bless. "Lift Up Your Hands" Life is not all that bad, my friend, If you believe in yourself If you believe there's Someone Who walks through life without you You'll never be alone Just learn to reach out, And open your heart Lift up hands to God, And He'll show you the way. And He said, "Cast your burdens upon Me Those who are heavily laden, Come to Me, all of you who are tired Of carrying heavy loads, For the yoke I will give you is easy And My burden is light, Come to Me and I will give you rest." When you feel the world Is tumblin' down on you, And you have no one That you can hold on to, Just face the rising sun And you'll see hope, And there's no need to run Lift up your hands to God, And He'll make you feel all right. And He said, "Cast your burdens upon Me Those who are heavily laden, Come to Me, all of you who are tired Of carrying heavy loads, For the yoke I will give you is easy And My burden is light, Come to Me and I will give you rest."
• Philippines
8 Aug 07
thank you for making me remember this song..somehow i lets me remember God is always around to hold me..
@3lilangels (4639)
• United States
7 Aug 07
we all go thru some really rough times sometime in our lives.some people more than others,but we have to learn and try to cope with our problems,and take one day at a time. i wish that i could take away,the pain thats in your heart,i'd gladly help you ease it,help you make a brand new start.i wish that i could give you a soul thats filled with peace,until your worries cease.i just want you to smile and keep your head up high,and dont negative be positive and things will fall into place.all you need is time,love,and comfort.i'm really sad when i hear things like this,just be strong you will get thru it,trust me.never put your pride aside because of what someone has said or done to you,you dersrve better than that,sometimes we all do.thanks for being my friend,god bless.
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• Philippines
8 Aug 07
i wish i can just cry all this thing and then it will go away..i am tired both body and soul..
@welllife (90)
• China
12 Aug 07
Everyday is new start,you shouldn't lose your aim,you should solve it by yourself
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@ozwombat (56)
• Australia
12 Aug 07
Gday Angel Even in the darkest of the dark times there is always a flicker of light without dark would be no light just as there is night there is day. The pain and hurt you feel are real and seems like the worlds against you but the purest light is what lies within your heart angel despite words or actions against you no one can steal the essence and beauty that resides within you only you can my dear. if would like to add me as a friend you are more than welcome for can feel your inner pain dearly just try as hard as it is to hang in there even on the darkest cloudy days the sun is still there just takes a lotta people to help show us that it is there at times. You are stronger than you realise right now just hold onto the friends you have made dont let go and let them help pull you up out of the hole you feel yourself in. sending healing hugz from the land down under ozwombat-pete :)
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• India
8 Aug 07
Hey.... " Life is very short, Live it to the MAX".... So, no worries all are gonna die one day and dont call your day by yourself. No matter what happens in life, just start to stay relax and enjoy it. May be it's easy for me to say this as your the one who's walking through your hard times, but i too have my own problems. The best way to tackle hard times is to TACKLE and not hiding from it. So be a sport and enjoy.
@zandi458 (28102)
• Malaysia
7 Aug 07
Whatever happens is beneficial. Have a positive attitude to life. Let the past be the past. Make today a good day and tomorrow will take cake of itself. Solve one problem at a time. Accept those that you cannot change. Don't worry be happy and live life to the full. God has given us life to live in this world for a purpose so do not give up as yet for a day will come when we will be with our heavenly father forever. Take care
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@tuffy999 (794)
• Philippines
8 Aug 07
you are still very, there's still a lot of opportunites out there for you. don't give up, life is too good to just throw away. always look at the bright side. there's always tomorrow.
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• South Korea
8 Aug 07
Friend! what ever may be the problem should not push you to this length, with this same broken heart you poured out here, just turn this message as a prayer for God to come for your rescue not to take away your life and He will surely show you the way out of that situation.
• India
8 Aug 07
hey girl dont say that. what you are feeling is rightly felt in times that you are viewing. it is nearness to GOD that makes you say that. and you know what? that is right, one can only trust GOD in life. but i will tell you what. GOD is showing you the truth of life and is only one time this happens and only happens to people who GOD loves. you dont know what is waiting for you. just pass this test and you will be amazed what is waiting. "do you expect to achieve the heaven and the best without being tested" i read it in the Quraan and more and knew how to live. i was an acto in mumbai doing tv serials in good roles, struggled there, went to london, did serials again after returning to mumbai, left it to be at home in calcutta for 3 years, but no body understood, there came a time when i was told not ot eat at home, was called a loser, i am still going through those times, but am strong in my quietness, thanks to my understanding of the book. be quiet, learn . pray. rest. i am praying for you. this will be the most enriching period of your life. you will know that one day. prayers, apple.
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@paxmundi (80)
• Philippines
22 Oct 07
Kababayan! I know life is hard for us these days. I share your pain and troubles. My wife is on the brink of leaving me because she can no longer stand waking up to face another day of hardship so her only solution is to escape and turn her back on responsibilities - her family. You're not the only one with heavy burdens to carry. Don't focus on your burdens my but focus on what needs to be done to turn things for the better. You're not alone in this. I am in this with you. More so, God is!! You just feel so alone because you feel sad but the truth is God is bearing you on His very shoulders at this very moment because He can't bear to see you suffer by yourself. God is with you on this journey. He is the strength that keeps you waking up each morning and seeing you throughout the day. He is the life that sustains you from day to day. Embrace Him. Acknowledge that God is with you, believe, and have faith. "Lilipas din yan kapatid". But if the burden is too much for you let me extend my hand further to help you find your peace. Send me a message if you need someone and let me help.