Since when?

From the Childhood. It is very much part of my life. That is called friendship.

I started getting this about 20 years ago. I was fine before I worked in a highrise office. Now it has been on and off since then. I also suffer from anxiety and panic attacks. I have to go somewhere and I hate going, I hate people looking at me, people who start talking to me and do not stop..I just wanna run..I feel good being alone, but feel horrible being around others.

I do. I was in college, and I can't really remember the circumstances, but I thought " *&^$ it! I'm going to do what I want." Forgive my expression, but that is exactly what I thought. How liberating! Suddenly I was no longer concerned with what everyone else thought about what I read, what I wore, or what I chose to spend my time on. I found people that liked the same things I did, instead of trying to find out what everyone else liked and forcing myself into a mold. Now, when my kids worry about what someone else thinks of them, I just say "forget it". The lesson hasn't sunk in for them yet, but someday it will.