Ever felt like your tired and just don't wanna care anymore?

Philippines
August 14, 2007 5:17pm CST
i do, i just got tired finally..now i don't care anymore..i had lived in long years of caring for my family and just now that i realized i should stop caring because they don't care after all..i was in deep depression this days..yet my sister run away from home just because her bf broke up with him..guess it was her and her excuses..she spends her tuition fee for something else and had not been going to school for two weeks she's already dropped out..now this is her excuse for running away..she texted me and i didn't replied back reason is i just got tired of all this.. you see, some of you my friends who had been on track on what had happen to me lately..i was in deep pain and to think she's been dealing with a small pain compare to mine and now she wanna waste her life for nothing..am i wrong if i get tired of this? am i wrong if i stop caring just for once i should care for myself? am i wrong to think she is so selfish upon this?
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@faith210 (11233)
• Philippines
16 Aug 07
Hi angel_of_charm! I have always been praying for you and your family. You did right to let go for now...let your family learn on their own. And finally, love yourself even more. I hope you will find peace in your heart soon. Take care and God bless.
• Philippines
16 Aug 07
thank you..by the way its my daughter's birthday today..we are going to the cemetery later to light some candles..i finally am stepping back on everything..try to move on and have my own life finally..
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@faith210 (11233)
• Philippines
16 Aug 07
I am glad to know that you're going to move on with detrmination in your heart. I will always be here for you. I am going to say a prayer for your little angel and light a candle for her. Take care and God bless!
@vinzen (1022)
• India
15 Aug 07
Hi, sad to hear about your sister and i can iomagine your state too and i dont think its wrong at all, the way you are feeling now. Yes we are all humans and we also have our saturation point, and once we have reached that, we are bound to let go too, as we cannot take it any longer. Yopu seem to have done a lot for your family in whatever way you thought was best, but not necessarily that they also think and feel the same way about you. They have taken you for granted maybe, that you will always be around , caring for them, no matter what they do or behave with you, so that hurts you more i think. And its nomral too, as different people have different thoughts and think differently too. What your sister felt , was not a feeling she had for your emotions and feelings, so she escaped. But you have always thought about her, so were surprised at her such behaviour and reaction. You feel bad because you care for your sister so much, and dont want her to be hurt, but somehwere down the line , my friend. we all have to let go of others, we cannot help them more than a limit i feel, and maybe shed learn from her mistake and return and realise all this one day. DOnt worry and pray that all goes well for her.
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• Philippines
15 Aug 07
its just now that i realize that i want a life of my own outside them..i just had enough..i don't know if it'll not gonna be too late for her to realize her mistakes..she said she was applying for a waitress on a bar or something..i let her be..anyway that's her life what should i say more for her to make it better if she wont listen..i will just tire my jaw talking about matters that was never been heard.
@vinzen (1022)
• India
16 Aug 07
Hi, thanks for replying, and i think you are doing the right thing by taking a back seat now, though its tough after so many years or caring fore them, but there is a limit to everything i think. I guess the love, concern and caring does not stop, but we stop commenting or interferring more now i think, as our opinions dont seem to matter much, making us seem like fools instead, so i think give things a break and let her choose and decide for herself.
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@EvanHunter (4028)
• United States
16 Aug 07
One of the worst things we can do in life is grow weary of well doing. Myabe you need to try a different approach with her and just outright tell her she needs to get her act together. Ignoring someoen who is in need is worse than telling them what they want to hear and sometimes that worse than telling them what they really need to hear which just might be telling her to get her act together.
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• Philippines
16 Aug 07
all i ever said to her was..she can live her own life now wherein noone will dictate her life..i got so much pain in me life..bitterness i never learn to let go..i cannot handle their pain more like what i was doing before..no i cant i no longer can..
• United States
15 Aug 07
I think we all get tired sometimes. What you're feeling is natural. No one wants to be in a rough situation, but we deal with it as it comes. It's ok to WANT to throw your hands up in the air and say "I'm done, to heck with it all"! It sounds like your sister isn't being very honest with herself about WHY she ran off. Maybe she just hasn't realized the true reason yet. She may be selfish, but just remember that she's probably having some of the same feelings about being tired. You need to set aside some time for yourself every few days if possible, so that you can get a break and come back refreshed so to speak. Good luck to you.
• Indonesia
15 Aug 07
Yeah, like now, lol,,,unfortunately I cant just dont wanna care anymore, coz I have a daughter to care! Dont wanna care for her would be very wrong,..just try to live and enjoy life the best you could. Just remember that there are others who have problems bigger than yours.
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• Philippines
15 Aug 07
i don't think there can be more bigger than what i have to bear right now..my parents separated and left the biggest responsibilities on my shoulder ever..i lost a daughter...came next my dearest brother whom i cared for like my son..now my eldest brother tried to murder me..and now this sister is living her own life without any consideration on what i was dealing with..i can say i was the very unfortunate person in this universe...
@ryanphil01 (4186)
• Philippines
14 Aug 07
My dear friend angel_of_charm, I have gone through the most difficult times in my life. I have been into several depressions and troubles. I cried for so many times because of the 'heavy loads' placed on my shoulders. I have almost given up! Nevertheless, I never ignored Him. I called upon Him and asked Him to help me carry my cross. In fact, I surrendered everything to Him because I know, by myself, I can't bear all these trials and sufferings. And I was uplifted, my sadness and longings turned into happiness and joy. As I experienced it, my friend, there's nothing impossible with God. He will show you the way if only you give Him all your cares and your self to Him. This means you allow Him to take control of your life, believe and trust Him.
• Philippines
15 Aug 07
i guess your right..sometimes i had forgotten about him and just focused on the hurt..i even questioned his credibility..why? why does it always to be me? and of he's really there..why does it feels like he don't see me..i am learning to get back on him again..i will find my way back to his arms again..the God almighty who knows best for all of us..thank you for making me remember him..
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@Ravenladyj (22937)
• United States
14 Aug 07
"am i wrong if i get tired of this? am i wrong if i stop caring just for once i should care for myself? am i wrong to think she is so selfish upon this?" I dont think you are selfish for feeling the way you do at all...to be perfectly honest with you, my stepdaughter is the same damn way - she blew her tuition, her bonds that my husbands mum had got her etc THEN tried to lie to get MORE money from my husband and went as far as to play some really sick games like claiming she was raped for example and so on....she's 26 yrs old almost and I have ZERO tolerance for her...we dont even speak to her anymore because SHE (just like your sister) is selfish, spoiled and immature and thats exactly what it is...childish...You have every right to be fed up and tired of it...BUT that doesnt mean you should let her and her behaviour suck the life out of you and have you become an uncaring person ya know....Pick your battles and just dont let this be one of them...its not worth it..seriously..but that doesnt mean you have to stop caring completely for other ppl....I mean thats a pretty tall order ya know, to just not care about ppl...Maybe you should just be more selective of what type of ppl you give your heart and time to..Does that make sense??
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• Philippines
15 Aug 07
*hush* she texted me and told me that she is applying for a waitress..i don't know where is she heading with her life..but what i just know now..i have a life of my own to take care of..i'm just so tired.
@lucky_witch (2711)
• Philippines
30 Aug 07
Yes, Ive felt that... its like being concern about everything, with the people you love, how to put them in comfortable situation but they dont give a da*n on your efforts. And since they dont see all your sacrifices, and cant see your pain. Sometimes its hard to make them understand. I felt it... and im feeling it now... :(
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• India
15 Aug 07
depression is a part and parcel of life, sometimes we think that our family dosen't care, mostly it depends on culture, in india families have a strong bonding between themselves ( 75% atleast)
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@arcidy (5016)
• United States
14 Aug 07
Sometimes that happens to me like when im done work for the week even though im happy that work is done im just to tired to care to do anything like when my mother tries to tell me stuff I always say eh I dont care just leave me alone lol because most of the time when im tired I just feel like being alone and dont want anyone to disturb me.
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