Am I going to cry every single time???
August 27, 2007 8:00pm CST
Okay, so today was my daughters first day of Kindergarden. I was excited and looking forward to it. I knew she was ready and all excited too. Everyone asked me if I was going to cry. No, I would say with a laugh. I already did that with Pre-school. And I had panic attacks for 2 weeks before that started!! Well, I walk her to her class this morning and she is basically saying.."okay- you can go now." She didn't need me. And that is good because it's probably better that way. So I made it all the way to my van and then started to cry. I realized that she's growing up & it will all go so fast and blah blah blah. I thought I did this crying thing last year. Is this going to happen every year on the first day of school? Oh I hope not!!
28 Aug 07
Hi, it happens with mothers i guess, as we feel more for them somehow, and know them inside out. It has happened to me too and i guess we feel sad and bad leaving them all alone there admist so many unknown people, after they have been with us all through these intial years, and now they are going to tread upon this path, alone. We keep feeling and thinking that - they have to learn to fend for themselves, they have to learn to make friends and be with everyone, the good and the bad, to learn to listen to the teachers, to learn to eat with all the other kids and share things with them. Just the thought, that my kids going to have to do all the above, all on her own now on, makes us cry, as we feel and care for them so much, and we know they are leaving us and going into this world now on. Its happened with me too, the first day of school for my kids. I made up mind not to cry that day at least, as i had been very apprehensive and had been howling the past 2-3 already, but i had made up my mind not to cry that day. And i handed her over to her class teacher. My daughter looked into my eyes, wondering where is mama leaving me and going and wanting to run back to me and remain in my safe, secure arms, and i had to look back and tell her - no - you have to stay here. That did it for me, she cried from one end, and i from the other, though she was far, but i could hear her, and was glad she couldnt see my tears. I knew its for her good, but just the fact, that how would she, as shes so small, manage to take care of herself , and start her new phase in life from today..Those memories still moisten my eyes. But this happens when they are small i think, when they are used to schools and are grown up, then we dont feel as bad. I guess, we all have to go through this phase and explain oursleves - to let go. It happens to each one of us, once when the kids leave us and enter their school lives and learn to be independent, then when they find their jobs and leave home, and finally when they get married and settle down, all different phases, but so important for kids and parents.
• United States
28 Aug 07
I remember when my son Luke (13 years old now) started kindergarten. I put him on the bus, came home and cried my eyes out. It is so hard - you give so much as a parent and then have to let go. My son Matt (19) just moved to Texas. When I went to say goodbye - I cried like I did when Luke went to kindergarten. It never ends.