Have you ever felt this kind of pain?

@paulsy (1264)
Philippines
September 6, 2007 1:59pm CST
Have you ever felt this kind of pain? Pain that will never make you forget. No matter how close you were with someone in your life, you realize that you can't seem to forget the pain this person has inflicted upon you. Each time you remember the words that were uttered, you actually feel yourself blazing with hatred. So much pain within you that it seems to pull you down no matter how hard you try to pick yourself up and move on with your life. I am going through this kind of pain. This person is just around me, and no matter how I avoid the chances of meeting this person, words come around. The mere mention of her name reminds me of those hurting words she left upon me! It's like a wound that never seems to heal. I'm trying so hard to avoid her or to even lay my eyes on her. I'm trying to imagine that she never exists at all, but there she is all the time, with more and more words, comment upon comment and it's driving me crazy!
4 responses
@drannhh (15064)
• United States
6 Sep 07
In a word, no. I would never allow another person to have that kind of power over me. Hatred is an emotion that cripples the person who harbors it much more than the one who may have caused it. You have a choice. You can live you own life, or continually blow in the wind like a lost leaf tumbling from one disappointment to another. That may seem harsh, and I am sorry that you are hurting, but you asked for an opinion, and that is mine.
@drannhh (15064)
• United States
6 Sep 07
Of course, I meant "your own life" not "you own life" but sometimes the fingers fly faster than the brain. So does the heart, eh?
@paulsy (1264)
• Philippines
6 Sep 07
Actually you are right. I always realize that I'm just wasting my emotions by even listening to comments around me. I tell myself, what the heck, this person doesn't make me, then I'm up again. But another comment comes around and AARGh sometimes I just want to go out and tell that person to stop! I think just need to get myself some earplugs so I could be deaf and that way I could stop remembering that anything happened at all!
• Ireland
6 Sep 07
You have to always remember that you are a better person than she is. Let her comment and let her critisize. Be strong and let her think that it doesnt really bother you. Count to ten if you have to and walk away till you've calmed down. She will finally get the message and stop harrassing you, because that is what she is doing. Dont sink to her level be retaliating. You ARE better than she is, and you wil prove it by ignoring her. I am sorry for my harsh words, and I know it is easier said than done, but trust me it will work!!! The next time she is hurtful, do ignore her and you will be proud of yourself for doing it, and after a couple of weeks you will ask yourself "What was I so hurt about?"
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• Philippines
16 Sep 07
Just take it easy. Don't be hard on yourself. Enjoy your life with your kids and hmmmn....your loviedovie. Be deaf and blind when she's around hahaha.
@paulsy (1264)
• Philippines
17 Sep 07
Thanks, mare, I'm sure you know what I'm talking about here. I'm definitely doing my best to follow your advice!
• Philippines
17 Sep 07
yup. it's very hard especially when she's very near. i'm experiencing that too now that i'm here with my mom.
@kean28 (226)
• Philippines
6 Sep 07
i actually understand you..just like now ive been surfering too much coz of him.i can see his face wherever i go and it makes me cry, whenever i see sweet couples in front of me i miss him so bad, how i wish i never met him, im also trying to push myself up but the pain keeps on pulling me down
• Ireland
6 Sep 07
The worst experience of life is feeling. It is not a pleasant experience to go through, and I wish I knew of a way to ease that pain. All I can tell you is to take one day at a time, and it will get better. Keep looking forward, and try not to back. You have a great future ahead of you, and I wish you the best of luck.
@kean28 (226)
• Philippines
8 Sep 07
thnks friend same to you..wish u luck
@kean28 (226)
• Philippines
6 Sep 07
i actually understand what your feeling right now,,im also suffering coz of him,,every place i go i can see his face, i can hear his voice,,all wanted is to be loved and i thought his the right one for me!!but he just give up on me and the worst part is i still love him inspite of all his done to me,, how i wish ive never met him,, i even ask god why,,now i knw why maybe hes writing the best love story for us,, hu knows maybe the right one for you is in front of you,,