i am in love...

@abi1005 (194)
Philippines
October 17, 2007 3:20am CST
someone i know very well wrote this one..you can share your thoughts.. as i pour my thoughts today, i am a mistress..nothing more, nothing less..but so much in love. it pains me like hell whenever i hear someone swears a mistress. be it because i am guilty and nobody knows it..because nobody would understand me..because nobody would ever accept me.. but i am in love and it simply overpower all the insults i get from people who were lucky enough to find someone who can freely marry them. i never intended anything like this to happen. i was once a lady who wished to walk down the aisle with her prince charming but i guess this is life..instead, i found someone who can never walk with me unless of course legal matters are settled. i speak not for you to symphatize with me neither to understand and accept me. but because i wanted you to hear what is inside a mistress. i am just in love. if i have to repeat it a million times, i will because i am. i have loved a man with no set of expectations and no hidden desires. i know my boundaries and it hurts me. but i cannot teach my heart who to love or not..we cannot do it. i may have lots of reasons to say that i should not be condemned or judged but i just cannot tell you so. just like you, i only want to be happy. am i? if you would ask..i am..because i am in love. love, as it goes, conquers all. it indeed conquers all. strong and weak hearts. happy and lonely hearts. broken and unbroken hearts. it conquered me. it conquered my married man. it made our paths crossed. i am trying so hard to be as objective as i can be but my emotion is so intense that i cannot control it. as i end this, i don't know how many violent reactions i would get from all of you for saying that you cannot blame me for being a mistress..i am just so much in love..
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5 responses
@milkfish (375)
• Philippines
17 Oct 07
Hi abi1005! I applaud you courage for being honest of your true feelings. Of course, you are very much entitled to how you feel and to fight for the love that deeply feel for someone. i would like to play deveils' advocate here. being a legally married wife, I would like to tell you what it means for the couple and the family if teh husband has a mistress. First, it destroy the relationship - the husband is unfaithful, violating his vow in the marriage rites. The wife is pain knowing the husband cheated on her. The kids will be badly affected and may result to broken families. In the long run, kids will have dysfunctional families. Illicit affairs of husbannds deprive these kids the right to have a happy family and will have psychological effects in their growth. I do not want this to happen to my kid. If i were you, I will stop that illicit affair. To be in love is a decision, its not just pure emtions. You fall into the trap willingly. The reason why God put our head over our shoulder is because logical reasoning of our brain should rule over emotions of the heart which sometimes lead us astray. You deserve something better. Don't stick with the man who cannot work you down the isle or be there anytime you need him. Will it not break your heart yo see how the couple's life and family are badly affected?
@abi1005 (194)
• Philippines
17 Oct 07
hi there milkfish..i really appreciate your response. i have chosen to treat the author as a third person for some security reasons. :) she might be strong enough to pour out her thoughts but her courage is not enough to face the world. anyways, i can speak for her..:) being a mistress really would mean destroying a family. but what if the man would insist that the girl should not leave him because he is not happy with his wife? what if the man begged the girl to stay because the girl is the only one who loves him truly? what would she do?
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@milkfish (375)
• Philippines
18 Oct 07
In response to you abi1005, if the guy really loves her more than her wife, then I believe that he should setytle first all legal matters concerning his marriage. why stick in a marriage relationship if he is not happy anymore? I gues your friend deserves a guy that can offer her marriage and full commitment, not a partially committed guy.
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@abi1005 (194)
• Philippines
19 Oct 07
hi there milkfish! the guy did want to annul his marriage with the wife to be able to marry the girl. but the thing is, the family of the wife threatened him already. the wife also told him that if they will go separate ways, she will assure him that he will live a miserable life. things like that..
@raijin (10373)
• Philippines
17 Oct 07
I'm not used to seeing someone or knowing them of being brave to let the world know who and what they are, your friend have my respect for that. Since you know where and what you're friend is into, I just wish him/her all the strength they'd need and be prepared of any possible thing that could happen to to them (partner). I know and you know as well that it is not right, but there's nothing we could do but bid them goodluck and hope for the better things to come to them in the future.
@abi1005 (194)
• Philippines
19 Oct 07
yeah..there's nothing that we could do but wish them good luck..she is very much aware of what she had been doing but all she says to me is that we can't blame her for being in love. and i think i have to respect it.
• Kuwait
17 Oct 07
what a brave woman,,,the only question is are you happy?can stand and face the people around you without any doubt abou him?if yes then go for it..GoodLuck..
@abi1005 (194)
• Philippines
19 Oct 07
thanks annettenasser..she is indeed a brave woman. and she is very happy.
• Philippines
3 Feb 08
abi... married men are after with nothing more than physical pleasures... well if they are not then tell them to leave their wife... be careful on the road you are walking in... i mean i believe that you will be the one who will be hurt in the end... are you ready for that? plus the guilt of knowing that your breaking a family apart... believe me i know... my fiance is a divorcee... and even after being a year separated with his ex wife, when his ex wife called me and when i see that their kids are hurting because of what happened... i feel like a mistress... even though he always assured me that he chosen me
@abi1005 (194)
• Philippines
23 May 08
hi there mamakat....sorry for the late response..i was away for awhile... anyways, thanks for dropping by.. with regards with my friend, i believe there are already pursuing some legal actions regarding the marriage..i just hope it will turn out ok. and it's normal for you to feel that way but don't ever blame yourself for what had happened to their marriage. cheer up girl!
• Philippines
13 Nov 07
don't be like that, love is really stubborn to let us fall to someone that was taken, we can't force our heart to fall to somebody if somebody is holding our heart. dont put yoe self down instead do things that will make you happy, but for an infinite happiness ask God for your prince charming maybe somebody is waiting for you. GOD BLESS YOU
@abi1005 (194)
• Philippines
15 Nov 07
hi there..i believe my friend is happy with what is happening in her life right now..and she firmly believes that the guy is her real prince charming.. :) thanks for dropping by..