r.i.p.

United States
December 8, 2007 11:10pm CST
Today we buried my last remaining grandparent. It was a very long hard day. I miss her terribly and although I am hurting because she is gone, I know she is in a better place. She was very sick for a long time and had very week lungs. She put up a long fight right to the end. I know this may sound bad, but I am glad she has passed. Not because I don't love her, because I do. I love her so very much! But because she was in pain and was suffering. I know she is no longer suffering and she is with my grampa now. That brings me some comfort. She was loved by all who knew her and left many friends and family behind. Part of me can't believe she is gone. She taught me how to crochet and how to swim. When I was a child I would go visit her for a week or two at a time. I loved those times in my life and miss them so much! The last thing I said to her was that I love her, that I would always love her. I miss her so much!
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@nengs10 (3188)
• Philippines
13 Dec 07
This is very sad. I remember my only alive grandfather on my mother side who is the only living today. All the rest of my grandparents are already resting in harmony. I wish him happiness and fulfillment.
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• United States
14 Dec 07
Cherish every moment you can with him! Thank you!
@Thoroughrob (11750)
• United States
10 Dec 07
I am so sorry for your loss. She is in a better place. We just went through the same thing with my grandma, in late Oct.. As I was reading this, it just seemed like the same thing I would have written. Peace be with you. and know that she is happy where she is.
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• United States
10 Dec 07
Thank you! She is in a better place.
@rsa101 (13897)
• Quezon City, Philippines
9 Dec 07
I perfectly understand your situation right now. I am impressed that you finally gave in allowing her to be with your grandpa. I am pretty know that she is now a happier where she is right now. She deserves to really rest in peace and somehow we would all be seeing one another one of these days anyway.
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• United States
10 Dec 07
Thank you! I had to let her go. She was in constant pain. She is with my granpa now and no longer hurting. Thank you for your kind words
• United States
9 Dec 07
I feel for your loss and give you this as gain: she knows how much she was loved and will always be so she will watch over you now as you grow and be free till you shall all meet again somewhere . . . sharing the light and happy holidays, Miss Erica Hidvegi, the Enlightenment_Advisor, B.A. Psych/M.A. Transpersonal Studies- Cnslng/Author, Artist, Photographer, Entrepreneur & Freelance extraordinaire
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• United States
10 Dec 07
Thank you! She was loved by all who knew her. I know that one day I will see her again and that makes me smile!
@vmenard (895)
• United States
9 Dec 07
Sorry for your loss. I lost my mother years ago, it's never easy. My husband lost both his parents, which leaves our kids with no grandmothers, and only one grandfather. I know how important grandparents are.
• United States
10 Dec 07
Thank you! She was my last living grandparent. She is very special to me, gone or here. And I will hold my memories of her close to me! Sorry about yours and your husband's loss! Thank you!
@theprogamer (10539)
• United States
9 Dec 07
Sigh... my heart is getting heavy over here Specialangel. I hope your grandparents are doing well in the better place and I'm glad she is finally relieved of her pain. Do not worry, I do not judge your remarks or think them ill. Keep those memories alive and take the time you need to reflect over this. Do not strain yourself too much either. Make time for yourself in this matter.
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• United States
10 Dec 07
Thank you very much! I am glad she is no longer suffering. She did so for far to long and I hated seeing her in pain. Thank you for your kind words!
@tiffiny (872)
• United States
9 Dec 07
I am so sorry for your loss hun. I know that whatever people tell you it's really not going to make you any happier that she's gone but when you find yourself going back into the self pitty mode (which you have every right to do) just keep tellin yourself she's not in pain. That makes it easier.
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• United States
9 Dec 07
Thank you! You are right, words don't seem to help. But I do keep telling myself that she is no longer in pain and she's not suffering anymore. That helps.