Please Don't Think Bad Of Me
By Rozie37
@Rozie37 (15499)
Turkmenistan
January 27, 2008 1:36am CST
Most of my friends know that I am not happy about my older sister and her family moving to Atlanta Georgia. her husband is a jerk coming and going and I just really don't feel good about my sister being so far away from her family.
I did not know how deeply this was affecting me until Friday morning when I had a dream that my sister's oldest daughter called me and told me he was dead. In my dream, both of my good friends were on either side of me. When I jumped up and started praising the Lord that he was dead, which meant they were not leaving.
I love my brother-in-law, but what he has put my sister and the kids through has affected me so deeply that I am wishing he would die. I have known him for about eighteen years. I know that if something should happen to him, I would really feel it. He is very sick at this time he has, heart failure, diabetes, high blood pressure, he smokes, and he has a very bad temper.
I do not really want him to die, I just feel like it is the only way that my sister can finally be free. I know that it is wrong to wish bad things on people and I feel really bad. But, this is my sister, my flesh and blood and there is not a thing that I can do to help her.
I am learning to trust God for my friends and family, but it is so hard. I will have to pray and ask forgiveness for the feelings of wanting him to die.
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@teapotmommommerced (10359)
• United States
27 Jan 08
I can understand you feelings. He is going to take your sister and her family away from you beside from being a real creep.
I hope all is going to be well for your sister when she moves.
@Rozie37 (15499)
• Turkmenistan
28 Jan 08
I know that if she was not leaving with him, it would not bother me so much. I want to be happy for her. There is only me, I could always hop on a pllane and go visit them, but with him there, I do not want to. I would feel as though I were in danger.
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@Shaun72 (15959)
• Palatka, Florida
27 Jan 08
I understand. It is kind of hard not to when he is putting your family through a lot feel this way. At the same time I guess there is a reson for all things. As bad as we wish things were better. I think God has a reason for all things. Or at least I was raised in a church that thought this way. Don't feel bad. It is only human nature to feel this way for your family.
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@Polly1 (12645)
• United States
27 Jan 08
I do understand how you could have this kind of dream. You are scared for your sister. You can't control your dreams. I don't think bad of you, you are human and want to protect your sister. If this was my sister I would be very concerned too. I have a sister who lives far away too, she has a JERK for a husband too. I worry about her. All we can do is say our prayers and be there for our sisters when they want to talk. They are grown women and we can't control their lives.
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@CatsandDogs (13963)
• United States
27 Jan 08
Rozie sweetie, your feelings are all normal. Right or not, they're all normal feelings however though, since you reconize them to be wrong, it's a good thing that you've asked God to forgive you for He has already because He knows what's in your heart and that's all that matters.
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