depression really sucks

United States
February 20, 2008 12:25am CST
just now, i'm starting to try to come back to the world of the living..it's like for the past month or more i've been spinning out of control, caught up in some nightmare of bad karma all kicking in at once, so i can't stand and fight life like i used to be able to do. too many things hit me at once, my health just deteriorated all at once and then my finances just knocked me down and have got me in a strangle hold, and i'm barely keeping my head above water. i barely get through work, having to go in sick day after day, week after week, and it doesn't seem to end, and i'm very ashamed to say, my prayer before i fall asleep is not to wake up the next day because it's been so unbearable. is anyone going through this or been through it?
7 responses
@Zorrogirl (1502)
• South Africa
20 Feb 08
i have been there more than you know. my health is also going down the drain. got diabetes, getting fatter, have head aches all day and all the rest. i dreaded going to work everyday. doc gave me prozak and after 6 months most of the problems in my head got better. hang in there friend. get yourself to a doctor and get your new life started. it is possible.
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• United States
20 Feb 08
dear zorrogirl..thankyou for talking to me, you made my night so much easier, that you are there..that is the real sweetness in life that amidst everything hard in life there are those like yourself that bring the hope back in to other's lives, may you always be blessed for your kindness, stanzi
@Zorrogirl (1502)
• South Africa
20 Feb 08
it was just strange that my finances went downward after my health. seems like everything that can go wrong, did. i still have frequant lapses into depression but i can pull myself back together much easier nowadays. i hope you find your true happy self soon. life is too short to live like this. there is help available.
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• United States
20 Feb 08
thank you zorrogirl..stanzi
@fobiness (60)
• Philippines
20 Feb 08
it slows down personality growth and speeds up the aging process. really sucks, i know... hope we all feel better soon! i don't know how long i can hold on to that so-called promise of a better tomorrow, though.
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• United States
20 Feb 08
dear fobiness, please continue to keep in touch with all of us, it does make it easier to share pain and i worry about your better tomorrows also, as i can relate to your circumstances knowing how difficult life can get. take care, with love, stanzi
• Philippines
21 Feb 08
thank you stanzi for your concern. ;) anyways, things that are beyond me... what better things to do with them than to accept them? i shud get a happy pill
@wolfie34 (26771)
• United Kingdom
20 Feb 08
I was diagnozed with clinical depression in 2003 and it's been a 5 year battle against it, it didn't help being in an abusive relationship at the time which exacerbated the situation, it was like being on a rollercoaster that I couldn't get off! One day I'd be ok, the next day I would plummet to the black depths of despair, I wanted to go to sleep and never wake up, and when I got up the next morning it was an effort I just wanted to get under the covers. I hated life so much and had no energy, no love for life and couldn't summon up the strength to do anything. I would be moody, snappy, irritable, lethargic and I was at all time low. Winter months were the worst for me because of SAD, winter blues. I am through the worst now but I am still fighting to keep the depression demons from the door.
• United States
21 Feb 08
dear wolfie..thank you for your thoughts, and to know that you have gotten through the worst now is good to know, i have to remember that change is something that will come, that despair will lift. i am thankful for your kindness to me, with love, stanzi
@jal1948 (1359)
• India
20 Feb 08
dear friend , such situations are not uncommon , but the situation you are going through , no two experiences of two different people can ever be the same.some have a better coping mecanism then others and Ifeel you are coping quite fine dont do any thing drastic just hold on, things are bound to get better. you have us as your friends, we care for your well being, whenever you are feeling low just talk to us Im praying your situation improves soon god bless you
• United States
21 Feb 08
dear jal..thank you for your insight, and that God has blessed me with your friendship means so much to me. may you receive many blessings for your kindness..stanzi
@subha12 (18441)
• India
20 Feb 08
yes, it really sucks. at this point of time i am depressed with so many things in life. I think this way of life will kill me. first and foremost the day after tomorrow father's biopsy report is due. I am so much scared and tensed. in the same time office is forcing me to travel to capetown which i am not interested.
• United States
20 Feb 08
dear subha..thank you for caring and i hope everything will be alright with your father's biopsy report, may God bless you both and be near you when you are in capetown..stanzi
• India
21 Feb 08
i know depression really sucks! but if you want to get out of this depression!! close your eyes!go to flashback and see wonderful moments happened with you! enjoy! live a happy life!
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• United States
22 Feb 08
dear dude..thank you for sharing that with me, it is a good meditation, and thanks for your kindness to me, stanzi
• United States
20 Feb 08
Yeah life can really bring you down, but it can always get better!! Try therapy, it always seems to work for me. I am actually going through some very tough times right now and I know I am going back. It's great to get an outside opinion on things and they can help you find a new perspective on life. Also try to remember to find someone you are comfortable with! Don't be afraid to change doctors. I am going back to my previous therapist because she always treated me with respect and kindness. If you can, try something new to take your mind off things, like a hobby. I like crocheting as a means of relaxing me and I feel so much better when I complete a project because of that sense of accomplishment I get. Even reading a book from your favorite author could bring a smile, and you can try getting a used copy for cheap off amazon! Don't worry, things can always get better!! Please take care
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• United States
20 Feb 08
dear angelkitten, thank you for your kindness and support and being an angel for me..stanzi