i just wanna kill myself today :(

@rhane7315 (5649)
Philippines
April 28, 2008 12:13pm CST
i think i'm most unlucky human in the world because of what happened today. i feel so depressed, upset and humiliated. there's nothing i can do right now, aside from talking to my bf, i'm just crying while i'm typing this. i feel like i've been treated like an animal the way my eldest brother and my mother treated me today. don't ask me to tell you the story it was a very long story for me to tell you.
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@goergineo (1498)
• Jordan
28 Apr 08
tomorrow is gonna be a better day dear. do not worry or even think about. this is called life. I have been there many times and you know what life goes on. but, my advice to you is to learn a lesson from this. ask your self why did it happen at the first time. try to analyze it. then, in the next time I am sure you will avoid it and make your life far better.
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@rhane7315 (5649)
• Philippines
2 May 08
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@teison2 (5921)
• Norway
28 Apr 08
If you are this depressed I urge you to seek help. I do not know where you live or what help offers are available there. Can you call a hotline? Or go see the emergency room. Get help. I wish you the best and hope you find help
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@rhane7315 (5649)
• Philippines
28 Apr 08
thanks for the concern. if you've just lived here in our country i could've come in your house right now. thanks for those suggestions i really appreciated it
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@teison2 (5921)
• Norway
28 Apr 08
I wish I did. Hope there is someone that you can talk to now. Hugs
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@rhane7315 (5649)
• Philippines
29 Apr 08
thanks for making me feel better
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• United States
28 Apr 08
Well since your not going to tell us all I am going to tell you is that you shouldn't kill yourself because then we'll miss you. :( Talk to your bf and don't worry about anything. We all have those days when people just talk down to us and bring us down. Don't let it get to you and go take a rest and then treat yourself to something. I wish you all the best and let us know how your doing later on.
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• United States
28 Apr 08
Wow. Well i think that you need to go to your bf. Chill down and see what happens. Stay as far away from them as possible. Good luck with this hun.
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@rhane7315 (5649)
• Philippines
28 Apr 08
thanks for the concern. i'll update you guys as soon as i feel okay. well i'm gonna give you a little summary of what they did to me. after arguing with my brother, he shouted me at my ear telling me that i'm a son of a b!tch and after we argue for how many minutes, my mother came into the scene then we argue also then she kicked me on my knees for how many times, pulled my hair for many times, bang my head in the near table on where was computer was (i know she has done it unintentional), and if she bangs it real hard, i'm sure that i lost my left eye right now and i ask if her if she wanted me to become blind then she told me that she didn't it.
@rhane7315 (5649)
• Philippines
28 Apr 08
thanks for making me feel better dear. i'm happy that there are so many nice people here in mylot
@yogeshdhusa (2236)
• India
28 Apr 08
hey dear, Stop crying and call your bf, you will fell better and dont think of doing any thing wrong, sucide is not the solution for any thing in this world. be brave and face the situation. If you are not able to talk to any one, should i call you? Or go and talk to your BF NOW..!!
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• India
28 Apr 08
That good other wise i was on mylot FAQ( how to find phone number of mylotters?) I was going to call you.. I have been in this situation, now if you still feel that your heart is heavy / feel the pain and want to share, we all are here to support you any time - 24/7. If you want to cry - cry but dont keep any thing in your heart(any pain)and if you dont cry or share - it will be buried deep in your heart and someday it will explode. So Share with us or with your BF. LIFE IS TOO SHORT, SO LIVE AND ENJOY every MOMENT OF IT. :)
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@rhane7315 (5649)
• Philippines
29 Apr 08
thanks. i feel much better now love you guys
@rhane7315 (5649)
• Philippines
28 Apr 08
thanks i already talked to my bf. right now, i'm kinda having some mixed emotions - laughing while crying. laughing because he doesn't wanna hear or see me cry and crying because i can still feel the pain that has have been happened
• Regina, Saskatchewan
28 Apr 08
Wrap your arms around yourself rhane, here we go.........(((((((((((((((((RHANE)))))))))))))))))) big hugs for you. I felt horrible when I got up this morning. Verging on tears just thinking about what the soon to be ex was going to say when I told him some news I had from his bank. But then I came to mylot, posted a couple of silly discussions, and now I'm smiling. Your friends are here for you, offering you support and hugs. Spend some time here and I do so hope you feel better soon. Family just sucks sometimes, don't it?
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• Regina, Saskatchewan
28 Apr 08
You're welcome sweets. Now go find some of my other silly discussions I've posted and you'll be laughing before you know it and feeling even better! I'm really funny you know - in fact they say I'm certifiable! LOL
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@rhane7315 (5649)
• Philippines
29 Apr 08
i feel better now
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@rhane7315 (5649)
• Philippines
28 Apr 08
yeah i agree and they always sucks for me, especially those 2 persons that i mentioned. i don't have any problems with our family aside from those 2. thanks for the big hug and for making me smile :) i do appreciate it
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• Australia
29 Apr 08
It's sad when your family treats you horribly and so, I'm sorry that this happened to you. Do you live with them? If you do, maybe it's time to move out. If you don't live with them, if I were you I would just cut them out of my life. If they're causing you such stress, why bother right now with them. Take a break and see how things go. My prayers are with you. Keep talking to your BF, it's always easier to talk about it rather than keep it inside...
• Australia
3 May 08
I'm so glad you're feeling better! That makes me so happy
@rhane7315 (5649)
• Philippines
2 May 08
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@rhane7315 (5649)
• Philippines
3 May 08
thanks for your concern. i appreciated it
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@subha12 (18441)
• India
29 Apr 08
i do not know what the reasons are, but it must be something bad. look dear, we have bad share of things on life. but all these are not good all the times. do not take decision in hours of rage. Just be focussed on life and prove them wrong.
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@rhane7315 (5649)
• Philippines
2 May 08
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• Philippines
2 May 08
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@dig_it (27)
• India
9 May 08
Try not to fret...just remember that this too shall pass
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@rhane7315 (5649)
• Philippines
9 May 08
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@sid556 (30960)
• United States
29 Apr 08
I am sorry you had such a rotton day! I don't know what to say, not knowing what happened but it sounds like one of those horrific family situations. I hope things are feeling better for you by tomorrow. time heals all wounds and wounds all heals....remember that...it is a true quote by michealangelo.
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@sid556 (30960)
• United States
2 May 08
Im sorry that I bothered to post here. thanx for wasting my time.
@rhane7315 (5649)
• Philippines
2 May 08
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@zed_k4 (17589)
• Singapore
29 Apr 08
I'm so sorry that something bad has happened in your domestic affairs with your family. I too suffered depression sometimes due to fights and all that and the best that I could tell you is to forget about killing yourself, please, sweetie. Do not ever think of taking your life away, for your life is definitely very precious. If you are really in need of a listening ear, I think there are lots of us here (your friends) who will be willing to listen to your problems and give some kind of a solution. Or you can just pour your heart out and get it over and done with. Trust me, the feeling would most likely be different. I suggest you take the weekend and drive away to somewhere quiet and just chill out your mind. Take a friend, if you must and talk to him or her. But the best elixir would be to go alone. Like myself, I go riding alone to far places just to distress myself. Please don't be sad and take care of yourself yeah.
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@zed_k4 (17589)
• Singapore
8 May 08
Alright, I'm reading it now...
@rhane7315 (5649)
• Philippines
2 May 08
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@heidibur (310)
• United States
29 Apr 08
It saddens me to hear that you want to kill yourself.... Trust me I have been there. my husband told me before that its a permanant solution to a temporary. just think about it and every thing will look differant. good luck., hope to hear from you soon.
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@heidibur (310)
• United States
29 Apr 08
oops..... what I mjent to say is that it is a ... " Permanant solution to a temporary probem. "
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@rhane7315 (5649)
• Philippines
2 May 08
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• United States
3 May 08
Hey rhane! Well I know something like that hurts, trust me! My family treats my son and I different. The best thing to do is just keep your head up! Maybe in sometime you can talk to them both about it and let them know how you feel and that you never want to be treated like that again.
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@rhane7315 (5649)
• Philippines
3 May 08
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@teka44 (3420)
• Brazil
28 Apr 08
Hi rhane. Sorry to know that. I know you have big problems with they, but think this way: one day you can go out your house and have your own home and don't need to see their faces anymore. You are bigger than all this things they do with you. You will be happy and they not because they are stingy persons. Keep cool
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@rhane7315 (5649)
• Philippines
28 Apr 08
thanks for keeping my spirit up my friend. i do wish and hope that i could finish my studies ASAP so that i can find a place of my own and live my own life to the fullest
@rhane7315 (5649)
• Philippines
2 May 08
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• India
8 May 08
I am very sorry about you. I know how you feel now. But be optimistic. Positive things will happen to you. You have your bf to talk about all these things. Haven't you. In such situation a good friend can do a lot. Try to be happy and don't think about the bad thing that happened.
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@rhane7315 (5649)
• Philippines
9 May 08
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@dierdre (2207)
• Philippines
1 May 08
well, to make you feel better, why dont you just sleep? if you have to let out all your emotions, do so, cry it all out.it helps. then you go to sleep. that's what i do when im stressed or depressed.then you wont feel as bad as you did when you wake up.
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• Philippines
2 May 08
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@gemini_rose (16264)
29 Apr 08
Those are very strong words for such a young girl. I cannot say much to you, because I do not know what has happened to you to make you feel so strongly, but whatever it is has wounded you deeply, but please keep talking to your boyfriend because I want to know that those words are just words and talking about it to people who do love you will help you greatly. Take care hun. xx
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@rhane7315 (5649)
• Philippines
2 May 08
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• India
2 May 08
sorry to hear that dear, however it is difficult for anyone to give you any supprt if you do not wish to share what happened to you. anyway please dont be so upset all of us go through these things in life, andi am sure you are strong enough to get through it.take care
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@rhane7315 (5649)
• Philippines
3 May 08
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@julyteen (13252)
• Davao, Philippines
1 May 08
don't do that you have no right to kill yourself. instead enjoy your life don't allow the problems ruin your life now. i have a problem also it seem that it won't last. sometimes i felt so depressed but this not the solution to kill myself. Remember: in every problem there is a solution.
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@rhane7315 (5649)
• Philippines
2 May 08
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• Philippines
29 Apr 08
Theres alot of people who are unfortunate and unlucky than you, they are struggling to live (people in africa).Eventhough their situation is worser than us, they still thank god everyday for the gift of life the Lord give them.
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@rhane7315 (5649)
• Philippines
2 May 08
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@figjam00 (1445)
• India
1 May 08
Sad to hear that. I think you should calm down. I think you should take this situattion in a proper manner. You said that your mother and your brother treated you like an animal but there might be some reason for that. They may have their problems. But I know they love you. These kind of things happen everyday I think you just forget it as a bad dream and move on.
@rhane7315 (5649)
• Philippines
2 May 08
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