Jason lay there like he was sleeping...
By raydene
@raydene (9871)
United States
April 30, 2008 10:02pm CST
Today at the wake I had to hold Jason's
hand and kiss his cold cheek to know
he was gone.. Amazing as it sounds he
lay there in his coffin looking so alive.
Not a thing looked out of place and I kept
thinking he would sit up at any second
and laugh at us for being startled! How
can someone that shot himself to death
look so good? It was so hard to see him so
alive looking and know he is really gone.
Our sweet boy gone....
There was so much good in Jason...
so much to life for.....
What a waste.....But I know
that God chooses who stays and who goes
and although I do not understand it at all
I have to trust that this is as it is
supposed to be and thank God for the many wonderful
times we had with him.
So Thank You God for letting us have him
for 28 years.
Thanks in advance for your responses.
Tomorrow is the funeral and then I will try
to ease back here.
I am so thankful for each and everyone of you friends.
xxxxx
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15 responses
@icyorchid (2564)
• United States
2 May 08
My thoughts and prayers are with you and the famiily 
I am so sorry you are going through this.
I am so sorry you are going through this.1 person likes this
@carolscash (9492)
• United States
9 May 08
You are right to keep your faith and strength in God. He is the one who knows why these things happen and why he takes the good ones.
I believe that Jason was right with God when he took this terrible step although he seen this as the only way out of things that were bothering him.
God bless you and your family!!
@mentalmum (82)
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9 May 08
Hello Raydene,
i have just joined mylot and have read this.. im so sorry for your loss and just wanted you to know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers... (((hugs)))
@weemam (13372)
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1 May 08
I feel so much for you all sweetheart , Ross was 28 last week the same age as Jason and I don't know how I would cope without him , I am so pleased that you are all such a close and loving family and you can all help each other grieve , God Bless you all pal , you have been through so much lately xxxx
@weemam (13372)
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1 May 08
I feel so much for you all sweetheart , Ross was 28 last week the same age as Jason and I don't know how I would cope without him , I am so pleased that you are all such a close and loving family and you can all help each other grieve , God Bless you all apl , you have been through so much lately xxxx
@Polly1 (12645)
• United States
1 May 08
My Sweet Raydene, you sure have been going thru alot. I am so glad that you have all of us to help you thru it. I think about your cousin Wanda and her husband, I just cannot imagine being in their shoes. How horrifing for all of you. Like you said we don't understand why but God chooses who stays and who goes and when it happens. You have a good attitude, being thankful and grateful for the years you did have with him. I think about Jason and the pain he must of been having for him to do something like this. My continued thoughts and prayers are with you and the family. Take care and I will be thinking of you tomorrow.
@whiteheather39 (24403)
• United States
1 May 08
I really feel your pain but please can you stop with this topic .Every morning my day starts with opening my email notifications and every day my whole day is shot as I get depressed just with the first few words of your discussions. Can you not let Jason rest in peace. I can only send my condolences one time. I do not know what to even try to say in respone to the same topic over and over again..
@mummymo (23706)
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1 May 08
I know what you mean by looking alive Mom and I suppose that is cos he is at peace now - he has no pain, no stress and that probably reflects in the way he looked! I think you are right to Thank God for the 28 years he was here rather than blaming him for taking Jason too soon! xxx
@enola1692 (3323)
• United States
1 May 08
I am so sorry to hear about your loss you will be in my thoughts just try to rember to take care of yourself I know it will be hard at this time
@bdugas (3578)
• United States
1 May 08
i saw on your Myspace where there was a book to sign and the obituary, I read it and signed the book for the family, although I did not know them, I think they can use prayers and thoughts from all over, I know tomorrow will be a rough day for you and the parents, and know that we are all with you in this and our prayers go out to you and them.
