Worst depression in years!

United States
May 13, 2008 1:13pm CST
I don't know what's come over me, I mean, I know the mood swings are unpredictable, but this is horrible. I really need to know how to pull myself out of this awful depression I'm in. I just want to curl up in a ball and cry. The worst part is, I'm a telemarketer by profession, how on earth can I do my job when I'm on the verge of tears all day?!? If you have any advice or suggestions, I'd love to hear them. I don't mean to unload on here, but I don't think anybody around me quite understands what's going on and, if anybody else has bipolar, I'm sure they know what it's like. None of my usual tricks are working and the anti-depressant I'm on doesn't seem to do the trick, so I would love some input from somebody else who has been through this. I would love to try something that is NOT a medication. There are too many side effects and they are worse than the cure usually! Again, I didn't mean to ramble, but sometimes writing it out helps too!
6 responses
@sugarlen (138)
• Philippines
18 May 08
have you ever tried EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique)? my friend taught me this technique and it works!
• United States
18 May 08
I've never heard of it? Can you explain?
@sugarlen (138)
• Philippines
2 Jun 08
Sori I was so busy lately that I never had time to get hold of my computer. Anyway, according to my friend who taught me this technique, the founder of EFT is Engr.Gary Craig from Stanford who is an NLP practitioner. According to him, this is an emotional version of acupuncture without the use of the needles. the exercise taps meridian points to stimulate energy. My friend described the TV ZZZT analogy as discussed by Engr. Craig. He further said that as long as electricity flows, the sound and picture in the television are both clear. However, when there is disruption in electrical flow an electronic zzzt occurs. Just like our body, the electrical systems are vital to our physical health. So when our energy systems become imbalanced, an electrical zzzzt occur inside our bodies. According to Engr. Craig, you have to straighten out this zzzt and the negative emotion goes away. If you want to know more about this I will ask my friend the website of EFT if you are interested.
• United States
2 Jun 08
Actually, I have heard of EFT now that you explained it, never knew what it was called, though. Yeah, if you could get that website that would be great, Thanks!
@SusanLee (1920)
• United States
9 Jun 08
The worst depression I ever had was about three years before my hysterectomy. I was diagnosed with PMDD. I had always suffered from mood swings, in one breath, one heartbeat, I could go from laughing and happy into utter dispair. It got so bad that my moods were swinging all through the day. I remember standing in the shower one time thinking that I finally understood why some people took their own lives. There is no quality of life when your living like that. I would spend as much as three days sitting and not making a sound, I couldn't even talk I was in such a dark place. That's all in the past now thank-God, I hope you find the answers you need and you'll get some peace form this. Depression is depression no matter what gets you there...your just there.
@SusanLee (1920)
• United States
9 Jun 08
My doctor knew the problem was coming from my ovaries. Once they had been removed the problem rectified it's self. Of course I was older, having some other girlie problems and that made me a good candidate for the surgery. I feel for my daughter though, she is starting to go through the same thing, my mother and her mother had trouble too. Only back then they would make you feel like you were just crazy.
2 Jul 08
LOLZ at the idea of "before it was popular"... hehe... now that is called manic depression - I go back 31 years to my diagnosis so I expect I out rank you as a vet!
@Corter (8)
• Australia
18 May 08
I'm sorry to hear things are so horrible right now. I do understand what you are going through. I've been suffering from depression for the past 5 years. I totally get that you just want to curl up in a ball and cry, I've been there lots before. Do you do much exercise? For me this really helped. My doctor recommended at least an hour of high intensity exercise a day, enough to really get you sweating. It increases your level of endorphins and it helps to pick up your mood. That seems like a lot but even if you just start with 30 minutes a day, every little bit will help. Getting up and out to go do it is the hardest part on bad days. I also use a Lite Book for about 40 minutes a day. I'm not sure if your familiar with them. Check out http://www.litebook.com/ I really hope things start to look up :)
• United States
18 May 08
I'll check it out, thanks!
• United States
17 May 08
I feel your pain. I don't think I'm bipolar, but I do have depression and my pills don't always seem to help. I never want to leave my house and I let laundry pile up. It is worse when I am home alone. Getting up every morning and going to work is hard. It doesn't help that I really don't like my job, but I have to pay the bills.
• United States
17 May 08
Oh yeah, I know how that goes! I'm on Celexa and it doesn't seem to help at all. My therapist, or counselor, or whatever they call them now, just says I need to just do it, but you know how that goes! I know how the laundry piles up, so do my dishes and the mess in my bedroom! Sometimes I just have to have somebody tell me to do it before I even realise it isn't done. I even quit my job for that very reason. I know the bills have to be paid, but I decided to try working from home so I don't have to worry about getting up and going to work. Believe it or not, that helped.
• United States
13 May 08
hi, i understand what you must going through. writing does help, though, i guess it just not enough. try to find a new interest that help you keep your mind busy and active with positive thoughts. wish you can overcome this succesfully :)
• United States
13 May 08
Thanks so much for your input. I guess positive thoughts don't enter your mind when you're in a depression until someone hits you over the head, huh?!? Thanks again.
2 Jul 08
better now? You should open up on the newer meds - they basically have zero side effects - like the Lamotrigine I take, check it out. Of course it has limited benefits, but better than nothing.