An Apology To My Friends~~But I Really Need To Do This
By pyewacket
@pyewacket (43903)
United States
May 20, 2008 1:42am CST
Nope....I'm not disappearing or leaving here, but I just plain won't be as active here as I have been. I love, love, love MyLot and I particularly love my friends here and the camaraderie I feel here. I do spend a lot of time here...uh, perhaps too much? As I thoroughly addicted to this place, but I have to admit I've been neglecting something.
As many know I'm involved with a lot of projects, from my photo work, writing an e-book about the whole business of marketing photography...there will probably be another e-book in the making, and of course my article writing. I never actually did article writing until only last year when I finally got my own computer, but had done writing before....fictitious writing that is. I've had a few short stories published, have scores more ideas for more stories, and have about three novel ideas which I've actually started but in spurts.
Since my article writing has been taking a lot of time away from my fictitious writing, I just plain haven't been doing any of my stories...and I know that is what's been missing in my life lately. For those who can't understand...to be honest I think any writer of fiction who suddenly doesn't write their stories will get downright well, moody...I've actually have suffered bouts of depression every time I haven't been writing my stories..okay call me temperamental..the classic moody writer..LOL. Yes, my article writing has somewhat filled the void and at least I'm writing..but it's not the same
Since I do still need to write articles to earn a little extra money, I'm not going to stop that..but I DO, really DO have to get back to writing my fiction. So you may have noticed that I haven't been as active as I've been in the past...I make sure to give replies to responders of my own discussions, but have to confess I haven't been making responses to many of my friend's discussions...not from indifference but due to lack of time...as I am trying to cut down my time here..why?
I made a solemn vow to myself a few days ago, to go back to my fiction writing...after all, those stories won't get written by themselves. I was initially only going to write just a little bit each day, maybe no more than an hour...but what can I say? I've gotten so involved with my current novel that the time really whizzes by and next thing I know it's 1 or 2 in the morning. That's how involved I get.
Yes, I'll still be here..LOL..but just not as much as I used to be.
Oh, and if you're wondering...the current novel I'm writing was one I started last year and was handwritten...and now transferring it into my computer...it's a story from, what else, a cat's point of very and there are many very autobiographical elements to it of my life but written from a cat's "voice"--uh, betcha can't guess the cat's name...hehehee
I also have a sci-fi novel, and yet another novel as well in the works but my cat one is the one I'm currently working on.
So to be a discussion here. Did you ever have to "let go" of one thing or at least not spend so much time like you did, because you needed to buckle down and do something else...something that fulfilled your life?
I once did a poem to describe that creative energy in me...not exactly Yeats, but..
The Muses
I feel dead, empty,
lifeless, depressed,
without it.
Life would have no meaning
for me, without it.
What, prey tell, is it?
My creativity.
It doesn't matter what I
create, for I create
it all....
Art, music, writing.
It doesn't matter if it's
great, good, fair, or bad.
I must create.
Only then do I know I'm
alive.
My creativity is my passion
and desire.
It fills my life and soul
like flames of fire.
©M. Neer
(You can see this poem I wrote at
http://www.editred.com/Uploads/st_18167_The_Muses )
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34 responses
@blackbriar (9076)
• United States
20 May 08
Better get busy on Pyewacket's autobiography or he's gonna get upset. lol Even thou I'm not into writing, I understand your need to do it so get to it, pye. We'll be here when you have time to post. I've been busy myself working outside but have finally gotten thru all the discussions that have been backlogging in my inbox. Took me a week but finally done. It will prolly build back up again but oh well. I'll get to them when I can.
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@pyewacket (43903)
• United States
20 May 08
Shhh...Pyewacket here...Yes, I've been giving my mom a nudge, well more than a nudge...I ask her, hey when are you going to write my story?? When I'm old and grey??? Humph!! So I've been watching her, and I'm so proud she's back to writing her stories--she has about 25 page written already..wow!..She seems so much happier now...and just think she's writing about me!! Yahooo..Hey maybe Tigger will give you a nudge to write a book about him...oops..drat...my mom caught me here..so gotta go
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@blackbriar (9076)
• United States
20 May 08
Wow! Your mom really is in a writing frenzy with 25 pages done already. Glad that she's happier now for that's what one of her loves is..writing..and of course you and Kissy as well.
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@pyewacket (43903)
• United States
20 May 08
Hehe...My mom's fixing dinner, so I get to sneak back here....yup she's doing a lot of writing...she has a lot of the story handwritten for when she started so she's typing it in this puter thing...but she's adding a lot to the story...she sure is funny though...to get the words out just right she talks out loud to herself.....sheesh..
Yup so she is writing the story from my viewpoint...she's going to add Kissy into the story too,...mmm..hey it's my story..is that fair??
Mom just finished another article...but after she eats dinner she's going to start writing in her book again..oopps hear her opening a can of my food...I'm STARVED.
@polachicago (18716)
• United States
20 May 08
You are very talented my friend. You are going the right direction. I am sure all your writing is going to be very popular.
Do what you have to do.
I am not going to be much on Mylot myself due to my extensive work schedule and plans to go back to Europe soon.
I think that year 2008 is very good for all artists.
Stick with your ideas and your instincts.
We are here for you when needed.
HUGS
@polachicago (18716)
• United States
21 May 08
My dogs and my cat are going to stay here.
I wish I can take them with me, but they will get frozen in baggage area. They are going to be fine for a month or so.
They are better in own home than traveling anyway.
My trip is not for pleasure. I am going to go again to take care of my sick mother. She is terminally ill.
She is under palliative care just to reduce her symptoms and pain.
It is very hard time for me Transdisc. The only reason I don't talk much about it is to keep positive energy to work and help my mother in her last days.
I am sleeping a lot and I watch comedies to stay sane.
I don't know when I will go, it depends on her condition.
I was with her over 3 weeks in April.
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@polachicago (18716)
• United States
21 May 08
Yes, this is exactly how I feel.
I am the one who needs to stay positive.
I also ask my friends not to ask me how my mother is doing.
I am happy when people offer pray like you did. This is all she needs for now.
I am with the light and positive energy, darkness is pushed away....
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@pyewacket (43903)
• United States
21 May 08
You're doing the right thing about not talking about all that you're going through right now pola...sort of running with the idea of the whole Law Of Attraction concept...by constantly talking about negative energies going on in one's life only might attract more..so you're right not to. I did that when I was going through a very rough time in 2006....I didn't focus on the negative and even my friends would say "How can you be so calm with all that's going on?" And I was, probably the "calmest" I ever was in my life simply because I knew inwardly getting into a tizzy or worrying wasn't going to help one iota
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@winterose (39887)
• Canada
20 May 08
I certainly know the writer feeling, if I don't write I feel like a part of me is missing. My second book is a novel, called angels watching over me,
I do some poetry too, which will be put on this site, but I am more comfortable with prose. I love personal stories and fiction writer, I guess I am eclectic, I also to some psychology articles as well. If you ever get a chance to follow my stories here on this site you will see the full gamut of my writing, including stream of conscious writing as well.
I wish you luck and success with your book
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@winterose (39887)
• Canada
21 May 08
no because these stories have been floating around the internet for years,
if my stories are taken I have legal recourse with copyright protection which I had to pay for when I got my first book published with publish america
my second book will not appear on this site, maybe an excerpt here and there.
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@pyewacket (43903)
• United States
21 May 08
Exactly winterose...If I'm not writing my fiction I do feel like something is missing...article writing at least keeps the writing flow going but it's just not the same. I did read your first story you posted here and loved it, and do hope to read the others....Even though your work is copyrighted aren't you afraid someone might "lift" it anyway...I know one person here who had an article she wrote on her blog...she later found her article word for word in a magazine
Only reason I ask...I wouldn't mind sharing my stories here either...I would have to really break them up as all my short stories are REAL long..average twenty pages...but I would be cautious about anyone lifting them--some are posted on other sites though and are copyrighted.
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@Katlady2 (9904)
• United States
20 May 08
Great poem hon! Hey....will I get an autographed copy of the "cat novel"? LOL! You just do your thing hon. You have an awesome talent, and it simply cannot be neglected. As for me, I have had to let go of a lot of things lately to concentrate on all of the stuff required for keeping my weight loss successful. One of these days I'll get back to doing it all....I hope! Hugs!
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@pyewacket (43903)
• United States
21 May 08
Why sure you can have an autographed copy..hehe. If I could really buckle down with my writing I would love to see this finished by the end of the year if not sooner..then will be the lovely task of trying to get it published...mmmm...wonder if JK Rowling could give me tips...LOL
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@highflyingxangel (9225)
• United States
20 May 08
I know how you feel. I have a lot of things going on in my life and so many other things that should be going on in my life I should just take a break from the net period to get things done. Not only my article writing, but my fiction writing, my online class, and a job that I really need to be looking for. However, Mylot is how I've been making the bulk of my money lately so I really hate taking breaks here. It's difficult when I know that spending time here will result in money.
I wish you luck with all of your projects!
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@highflyingxangel (9225)
• United States
21 May 08
I think everyone that posts here is busy, we're just too addicted to Mylot to actually do anything about it!
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@faith210 (11224)
• Philippines
20 May 08
Hi pyewacket! Wow, that is such a wonderful thing to do and I hope to see your novel released and published internationally. And it is alright dear friend if you can't be here most of the time but know that you will be missed a lot. I do know the mood swing of an artist because I am married with one! haha.. Good luck and more power to you!
Take Care and God Bless! Happy Mylotting!
@pyewacket (43903)
• United States
20 May 08
Hehe..so you're married to a moody artist too? What kind of creative work does he do? Just goes to show you we creative types are VERY moody if we're not doing our "thing"--LOL...
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@pyewacket (43903)
• United States
22 May 08
I paint and draw myself as well...I used to use oils, but prefer acrylics and watercolor now...at least it dries faster than oils..LOL
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@faith210 (11224)
• Philippines
21 May 08
Hi pyewacket! haha..He paints using different medium such as acrylic, watercolor, oil, even coffee, etc.. He draws portrait, caricature, etc.. He sculpts using different kinds of clay, wood, paper pulp, etc.. At the moment he is a design artist/graphic/digital artist and has found a new love now which is flash animation. He does a lot of art works which amazes me but of course I am his number one fan. haha..Oh, he sings and dance too! haha..
I am really proud of him. However, he is really trying my patience when he gets moody. haha..
I am really proud of him. However, he is really trying my patience when he gets moody. haha..1 person likes this
@SViswan (12051)
• India
20 May 08
lol...glad to know that I won't be the only addict who isn't going to be here as much as before.
I'll be starting work next week and I won't have the time to be here....what with preparing for the next day's work...a toddler and a 7 year old and the housework.
But don't think I'll be totally out of myLot. I'll be here on and off and maybe a little during the weekends.
All the best with your writing and hope staying away from here will give you lots more time to write....that's what's more important...and we know you'll pop in once in a while:)
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@pyewacket (43903)
• United States
21 May 08
Well I do plan to pop here at least a little bit everyday...I just finished another article and submitted to AC...so am spending sometime here now...then off to my novel writing--I seem to write better at night for some reason
@AmbiePam (85426)
• United States
21 May 08
I would love to have a passion like that. I used to love to write, several years ago. It was fun. I don't enjoy it anymore. I don't know why. But I'd love to find something else I enjoyed like I used to enjoy writing. I'm trying to finish the one correspondence course I'm currently taking. I should focus on that because it needs to be finished. It's just one course, but it gets me that much closer to my degree. I'm at a senior level in college, but at the pace I'm going, how I can't afford to take anything else (my parents paid for this one), it will be awhile before that is all finished. Maybe before I hit 30?!
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@AmbiePam (85426)
• United States
22 May 08
It's in Interdisciplinary Studies. It means I take a lot of languages, a lot of psychology, a lot of science, a lot of everything. I've taken all the psychology classes, and theology and philosophy, so I'm trying to concentrate on languages next. Which means three semesters of Spanish.
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@pyewacket (43903)
• United States
22 May 08
Holy moly! That IS a lot of classes...double kudos to you then!!
@pyewacket (43903)
• United States
22 May 08
Well a big kudos that you are trying to finish your degree...I think that's fantastic
What degree are you aiming for????
What degree are you aiming for????1 person likes this
@sarahruthbeth22 (43143)
• United States
22 May 08
Of course you Must write, It is your art. And life without art is meaningless.I will miss you , but what is great about My Lot, old posts never die Or fad away. Whatever you miss, you can find either under the friend who started the post or your interests.so I won't say goodbye. I'll just say talk to you later. ps.Good luck with the writing.
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@sarahruthbeth22 (43143)
• United States
23 May 08
It is flowing . That is great.Keep up the great work and I talk to you later.
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@pyewacket (43903)
• United States
22 May 08
Well I just HAD to pop by here today...going to get back to my novel writing later..already have about thirty pages rattled out...LOL. I caught up with all my handwritten pages I had of my story, so now I just have to continue it..am having fun though with it and it amazes me how much time zips by when I am writing it.
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@someonesmom (5761)
• Canada
20 May 08
Hi pye,
Yes, I have noticed that you haven't been as active here of late, and have wondered why. Thanks for clearing this up. I'll really miss you, but am glad that you're getting down to work on this. Please let us know how it's going, and I hope you'll achieve great success. By the way, I consider you an inspiration, in this area, and I truly admire you, and your work as a professional. A family member referred to me as 'an amateur writer' just recently, and I was flattered, considering where it came from. myLotting has inspired me to want to get going, and achieve my dream of being published. Maybe one of these days I will, but I definitely need to act on this. Does this mean 'the other place' has been put on hold for now? Sorry, I haven't been back there lately. Take care.
Yes, I have noticed that you haven't been as active here of late, and have wondered why. Thanks for clearing this up. I'll really miss you, but am glad that you're getting down to work on this. Please let us know how it's going, and I hope you'll achieve great success. By the way, I consider you an inspiration, in this area, and I truly admire you, and your work as a professional. A family member referred to me as 'an amateur writer' just recently, and I was flattered, considering where it came from. myLotting has inspired me to want to get going, and achieve my dream of being published. Maybe one of these days I will, but I definitely need to act on this. Does this mean 'the other place' has been put on hold for now? Sorry, I haven't been back there lately. Take care.1 person likes this
@someonesmom (5761)
• Canada
21 May 08
Thanks so much for the encouragement. I need to get down to work, and do something about this. By the way, do you still have a copy of 'my poem?' If you do, please feel free to repost it at the other place, and I must drop by there soon. Thanks.
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@pyewacket (43903)
• United States
22 May 08
I have to back track on my emails since I remember you originally sent it to me that way...I save all my emails from my friends...hehee..once I find it I'll post over at the other place
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@pyewacket (43903)
• United States
21 May 08
Well taking a break for now...then will resume my writing...hehe. Aww..thank you for saying that I'm an inspiration...that really makes me feel so good. I hope you follow your dreams to be a published writer as well...would love to see your writing as I remember that poem you wrote...if you want...you can repost it at that other place if you want..and no, I'll be popping by there from time to time too.
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@kat_princess (1470)
• Philippines
27 May 08
Are you saying that you're a writer?Cool!I've written many works but I haven't published them.Can you help me? :)
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@pyewacket (43903)
• United States
28 May 08
What kind of writing do you do anyway? I've had a few short stories published, and a lot of articles published at Associated Content..so give me idea what you write then I might be able to help tell you where to get published
@bbsbeesknees (124)
• United States
23 May 08
I'm kinda starting to go thru this right now. One reason I've barely been active on here at all lately.
I just had a turning-point sort of birthday- the kind where you start wondering where the rest of your life is going to go and realizing that time is indeed very, very precious. I've worked in retail in one form or another for over half my life now. Been in my current job for 10 years. (I work for a local goldsmith.) I like it-I love the customers and they have all taught me so much-but I know it's getting to be time to move on. So I ask myself-if I could make a comfortable, livable income doing anything I want to-what would I choose? I love to write, too- and I'm sure the characters in the stories I left on the back burner aren't too pleased- but I guess what I really want is to be an artist, a designer- a creative entrepreneur. My grandmother recently passed away-3 days before my B-day, actually-and I want to honor her spirit by learning how to do the things she did- crochet, knitting, etc. I want to learn to throw pottery and paint something other than my walls. Design the kind of funky jewelry we don't sell in my store. Design and build my own furniture. Do something with the plethora of herbs I grow in the garden every year. I can't up and quit the bill-paying job as of yet, but I'm using the money I make online to purchase supplies and equipment, and trying to train myself to use my time more wisely-I tend to get really caught up in housework and leave little to no time just for me.
Was it Goethe who said, "Whatever you are, begin it."?
I wish you luck in chasing down and keeping your muses well-fed- and now I'm off to catch up with mine.:)
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@pyewacket (43903)
• United States
28 May 08
I just love your response..LOL. Yes, I think we all reach that point and reflect and wonder if there is something "more" to life and those years are ticking by so fast, and sometimes you wonder if one's life had any real purpose that there has to be more than working to pay bills. I love the idea that you want to do pottery..that is something I would love to do as well. I do paint and draw, but haven't done that in awhile as I've been so busy writing articles and now my novels that have been on the back burner like yours...I think the thing you and I both need are 60 hours in a day to do everything creative that we want to do, don't you think?
@bbsbeesknees (124)
• United States
31 May 08
60 hours a day and the discipline to say the dishes can wait! :)
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@littleowl (7157)
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22 May 08
Hi Pye-thats a shame you won't be on here so much but understand how busy you must be and want to put your energies into the things you love-keep safe-hopefully you'll be on here now and then BB your friend littleowl
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@pyewacket (43903)
• United States
22 May 08
I've been on a marathon article writing thing, but decided to take a break today...but will write more into my story later tonight...so thought I'd pop by here for awhile...can never stay away for too long here...LOL
Been meaning to ask about your avatar..is that a pic of an owl you took?? I love owls
@littleowl (7157)
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22 May 08
Hye Pye-Yes my avatar is of an owl..I have always loved owls too but then was given my spiritual name by a medium and it is littleowl..thats why I put that avatar on here-bright blessings littleowl
@gemini_rose (16264)
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20 May 08
I completely understand what you are saying, the trouble with myLot is that it takes up so much time, it is a cycle that is very hard to get out of. I have only recently started to write, many of my ideas have been wrote in note form but since joining here have had no time to turn the ideas into anything further than ideas.
I recently started submitting to helium, I wanted to write articles and stories, but just lately everytime I write something it turns into a poem!! I have submitted 2 poems, the last one I did yesterday got to number 4 in rankings, that made my day, it also made me realize that I too need to concentrate more on this, just to see if I have the skill to write.
So I think that I will be cutting down on my activity here for a while, but as long as I still see you around then that will be fine!!!
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@pyewacket (43903)
• United States
22 May 08
gemini_rose there's nothing wrong with writing poetry...poetry has never been my forté, but prose...so I deeply admire people who can write poetry
@gemini_rose (16264)
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21 May 08
It is odd that we both lost them at the same age, but I think we have had a few coincidences like that. I have put 2 poems on helium, I was really pleased that one ranked at 4, but unfortunately it soon slipped down, but it gave me confidence.
It is funny because I want to write articles but for some reason I just keep getting loads of poetry going through my head, it is really weird.
I do want to spend more time on it all though and to do that, I need to withdraw from here a bit, I need to come up with a plan!!
@Thoroughrob (11742)
• United States
31 May 08
Good luck with what you are doing. Sometimes you have to juggle things around to get things done. Don't forget where we are.
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@pyewacket (43903)
• United States
31 May 08
Nope haven't forgotten where MyLot is..LOL---just finished writing another article..so taking a break to be here for awhile, then to my novel writing.
@GardenGerty (157546)
• United States
20 May 08
I understand about the need to create, and to be original. I would be very happy to give up a job to begin doing some other things, but would be hard pressed to pay the bills. We will expect you to be in touch in between projects,
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@pyewacket (43903)
• United States
21 May 08
Well I certainly can't give up my article writing as that does help in paying the bills too, so I consider that a "job" in itself. But I just HAD to get back to my fiction writing and now that I have gone back into doing it I do feel so much better..
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@GardenGerty (157546)
• United States
21 May 08
No you certainly cannot give up the articles. You have to do what works for your life. MyLot is not life, it is a hobby, as well as friendships. Go and do what makes you healthy and happy. We will see you from time to time.
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@pyewacket (43903)
• United States
21 May 08
well you just know I HAD to spend just a little time here...going to be back to writing in my novel in about an hour..and write for the next few hours
@Aurone (4755)
• United States
20 May 08
um, yeah. I have been trying to cut down my computer time in order to spend time doing the crafts I enjoy. I have cross stitched for a long time, but now I have gotten into crocheting and I am trying to make a simple afghan. Your discussion reminds that I should do more writing myself, I have been meaning to, but stuff seems to get in the way. Good luck with your novels.
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@pyewacket (43903)
• United States
21 May 08
Yikes...I've hardly been spending anytime with my crafts..yup..do that too...what I need is 60 hours in a day
I'm hoping to enter another one of those Helium contests..they didn't have anything I could really write about for this week's contest
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@scarlet_woman (23465)
• United States
21 May 08
i totally understand :)
you have to put your projects first,y'know.
i'm not a writer,but i'm the same way with my art.sometimes you don't want to stop when you're working on something,i know i do.
@scarlet_woman (23465)
• United States
23 May 08
beware of the keyboard paws
i turned my back one day,and had a collaboration.
but to be honest,what blackums added looked nice,so i left it in.he helped.
i turned my back one day,and had a collaboration.
but to be honest,what blackums added looked nice,so i left it in.he helped.@pyewacket (43903)
• United States
22 May 08
Time does tend to slip away when one is involved with any "art"..I now do most of my novel writing in the evening hours until.......sometimes 2 in the morning...but I am having fun..
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@bellaofchaos (11538)
• United States
22 May 08
Pye,
We completely understand and I hope that you get those creative juices flowing and have fun writing will check your discussions because sometimes I do tend to get caught up in my own LOL So take care and I'll see you around.
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@pyewacket (43903)
• United States
22 May 08
Decided to come back for awhile today, but back to writing my book later...just too darn addicted to this place to stay away for too long.LOL
