Do You Dislike Me Now?

@CatsandDogs (13964)
United States
June 25, 2008 11:00pm CST
I'm so sorry my dear friends for all the bad news. This is not normaly like me. I'm the type of person that is in the shadows and not in the lime light. I don't want to be noticed because of stage fright but it's things like this that brings me out!! This year has truely been a year from hell for me and my family!! I sooo can't wait for next year, 2009!!!! It has to be better than THIS!! It has to be!! I'm trying hard to stay positive but it's really getting me down now. I'm not understanding why my family is getting so beat up like we are!! Please understand, I just need someone to talk to and vent for I'm so at wits end!! PS: I still love YOU!! lol
7 people like this
14 responses
@pyewacket (43962)
• United States
26 Jun 08
Goodness...lol...we all have those times that seem to be a year in hell and with one thing after another after another, like a snowball affect...My year? Hands down 2006 was my "winner" year..and looking back now I really wonder how I survived it..but I did! And you'll survive this year ...as they say, This too shall pass...of course at the time we're going through holy heck we wish it would pass a LOT sooner...LOL
2 people like this
@CatsandDogs (13964)
• United States
26 Jun 08
You must've not seen my latest. Did I say my latest? Yeah I sure did. Girl, when is it going to end? When everything that can go wrong does?? Gee mee moses!! I've had years that were bad but this one seems to take the cake! The last one was 2000. Enough already!! What is God trying to do? Put all the bad things together? Do you know my car is still in need of repairs? Of course, money is the issue thanks to the gas prices and places we've had to go has dried us up to a prune!! Not to mention the vet bill. Geeze!!
2 people like this
@pyewacket (43962)
• United States
26 Jun 08
Well the beginning of last year was a dousy for me too...that's when I suddenly got a notice from SSI to tell me my benefits were to be cut off and that I had an overpayment of $4,910.oo and needed to pay them back...yeah..at the time I had exactly $5.71 to my name!
2 people like this
@CatsandDogs (13964)
• United States
26 Jun 08
Ohhhh yeah, I remember that!! Wow. That had to have put a few white hairs in your head to add to the spinning!! That's incredible!! I'm so glad that you were able to straighten that out. What a dozer is right!! Did you ever get the apartment transferred to your name without the rent going up? AND did you finish your "spring" cleaning? I haven't, mom went down with the stroke and that was the end of that. I did get most of it done but not all of it and hopefully in time I'll still get it done. Time will tell.
2 people like this
@mamacathie (3930)
• United States
26 Jun 08
Sweetie, you just vent all you need to. I am here if you need to PM me or what ever. I will be there to listen to you and to cry with you. Don't give up! I know it seems everything is gong against you but your family will come out even stronger. Have faith in God and keep on keeping on. God bless you!
2 people like this
@CatsandDogs (13964)
• United States
26 Jun 08
I just don't understand this mamacathie. My balloon his just about out of air. It's like having a bruise that keeps getting hit over and over and over again. It's making me sick as well as scared to hear the phone ring or anything else for that matter. Makes me wonder, ok, what's next?
1 person likes this
• United States
26 Jun 08
That is very understandable. I went through a time that every time the phone rang I cringed! I knew it had to be bad news and it usually was. THIS TOO SHALL PASS! It did pass. You will make it through it, I am so sorry that you and your family are having to go through all this and I know if you let all of this , it will make you sick. You don't have to be strong, let us carry you through. We are praying for you and will be here to help you through it all. You are not alone and don't forget that! We all love you and are here for you! God bless!
2 people like this
@CatsandDogs (13964)
• United States
26 Jun 08
Thanks, I know it'll pass but getting there is the hard part. I just wish I had some help with my mom but I don't. I'm on my own except for my elderly dad. I've emailed everyone on my email list and even moms asking for help and only one person responded. Grant you, they're all 4 hours drive away but still, a day or two couldn't hurt anyone so to give me a break and peace of mind knowing that she'll be ok but as it is, my dad has to take over and do it all himself when I'm not there and it's hard on him, more so than me for I'm younger but I have lupus which is, more or less, just as hard for me. And you know, the whole time she was in the hospital, I kept them ALL updated on her progress and at times I was asked for an update because I couldn't get back to them for days at a time and when I had time, I updated them but when I need something, no one is there. Boy, we sure do know who are friends are when we need them, huh? Don't get me wrong, I'm not talking about friends here on mylot because everyone is so much further away but the one's that my parents knew and so on. People are too much into themselves and to hell with everyone else and that's just not right.
2 people like this
@gabs8513 (48803)
• United Kingdom
26 Jun 08
Sweetie you carry on coming here and talk as you do need to get it out I know what you are going through as I have been there many a time myself as you know just recently again I could never dislike you I feel helpless and wish I could be there and help you give you a shoulder to cry on someone to hold onto outside the Family Do not give up keep looking ahead and you will get there I promise you I always have in the end You have my email Sweetie and guess what ............... I LOVE YOU TO
2 people like this
@CatsandDogs (13964)
• United States
26 Jun 08
Awwww gabs!! You're such a doll!! I would hug you silly if I could see you in person!! Thanks for the reassurance for it's so needed right now!! It seems never ending, one thing after another that it seems I'm making all these things up but I assure you that I'm not, it's all real and happening and I just wish it would end so I can see brighter days ahead but right now all I see is this darn black cloud hanging over me and my family and I just wish it would go away.
2 people like this
@gabs8513 (48803)
• United Kingdom
26 Jun 08
Sweetie I know you are not believe me I have been there for many Years and it does get you down and at times you think why am I here? Is this what I have been put on earth for? You want to just throw it all and run somewhere safe but you know you can't One minute you think there is no way out and then a surge of Strength comes through for a few Days till you have drained that Believe me Sweetie I know and if I have got through it for 35 years I know that you can and it will go on like this for a while one thing after another but then it calms down and it does calm down eventually I promise you that so stay strong Big Hugs
2 people like this
@CatsandDogs (13964)
• United States
26 Jun 08
I believe you gabs!! Trust me, I DO believe you!!
1 person likes this
@gemini_rose (16194)
26 Jun 08
I will admit that it is awful the amount of bad things that are happening to you, if this is a test of some sort then you should pass with flying colours. I am not sure that I could have been as strong as you have been through all that has happened. I keep hoping that things get better for you though, and I am sure that they will, just stay as strong as you are because it cannot last forever, it just can't! You are quite welcome to vent whenever you need too xx
2 people like this
@CatsandDogs (13964)
• United States
26 Jun 08
I can't believe it either gemini_rose. It's hard for an outsider to comprehend and to be on the inside of it all is just mind blowing. I agree that it has to get better. It just has to. However, I do wonder now what's next but I'm too afraid to ask it out loud. Thank you for allowing me to vent!! Hugs to you my friend!
@ichigo111 (491)
• Canada
26 Jun 08
Don't worry. I don't mind. I actually like people who are willing to let it out inside of keeping it inside.
2 people like this
@CatsandDogs (13964)
• United States
26 Jun 08
Yeah I agree. One tends to blow up after a while of keeping it inside so talking about it does give a sense of relief. I just wish all this true life nightmares would end and end soon.
1 person likes this
@Thoroughrob (11771)
• United States
26 Jun 08
Don't be sorry!! You need someone to vent to. Sometimes life gives us more than what we can mentally and physically handle all at one time. If you need to talk, don't hesitate to let me know, you have really been put through the ringer. We are really a good release place, as we are not in the middle of it all. Hopefully things will start looking better soon.
2 people like this
@CatsandDogs (13964)
• United States
26 Jun 08
Oh thank you Thoroughrob! That's very much appreciated!! I sure as heck am NOT trying to get attention for it's just not me. I love having friends but I hate being the center of attention... does that make any sense? lol Besides, having all these true life nightmares is no fun. No fun at all.
1 person likes this
@mummymo (23709)
29 Jun 08
How could I ever dislike you? How could anyone dislike you for coming here and talking out the things that any of us would struggle with - we are here to try and provide the friendship and support you so need to get you through this time - just as you would for any of us! Hugs xxx
1 person likes this
@CatsandDogs (13964)
• United States
30 Jun 08
You're so right mummymo! Thanks so much for sticking around and listening to me even though it's mostly bad things with good update a lot of the times but down sides too. You're a real friend!! Hugs to you!!
1 person likes this
@mummymo (23709)
30 Jun 08
Hey sweets thats what friends are for - to help support you when you are struggling and to give a pull up if they can - not just to share the good times! Hugs and prayers with you and your family! xxx
@rsa101 (13337)
• Philippines
27 Jun 08
For it to be better next year you'll need to stay as positive as you can right now. Don't linger in your space right now and start looking for a positive force that may push you away from the things that places where you are right now. The first thing that you do is start thinking your not a victim of circumstances that stopping you from moving on. Remove fear be excited for the things to come and never think of where you are right now. Sometimes its all about fear that hinders you from becoming unhappy.
1 person likes this
@rsa101 (13337)
• Philippines
27 Jun 08
I can understand where you are right now. But I still think that if you continue on thinking that you are a victim then it will continue to linger on you. Try thinking like "I will continue to serve my mother because I love to serve her", I will continue to love my brother whatever his situation right now because I love her". "I love myself that is why I will keep my thoughts as positive as possible and my luck is changing for the better for my loved ones and friends. I know this sounds crazy at the moment but always stay in that space of love I think it will do you good.
1 person likes this
• United States
29 Jun 08
i went into 2008 saying it was gonna be better than 2007 and im still waiting for that to happen!! 2008 has SUCKED so far!!
1 person likes this
@CatsandDogs (13964)
• United States
29 Jun 08
Why don't we join a club and call it the 2008 bashing club? LOL I can't agree more!! 2008 has so sucked and it's been pure hell in a hand basket!! ARG!!
@SomeCowgirl (32273)
• United States
27 Jun 08
I haven't seen any of your rants but I wanted to assure you that it is okay. Everyone needs to vent sometimes, and it's normal to do it to people you don't know as well as people you do. Have a Great day.
1 person likes this
@twallace (2675)
• United States
27 Jun 08
They year is not over yet and it might get better. I know that this year has gone by fast and is almost done. This is the last week of the month. And July is knocking at the door right now. So don't be down about what you have been going through. Things will get better. No matter how bad they are right now they will get better. So smile even when you are down and out smile.
• United States
27 Jun 08
Keep your chin up! I am sure things will turn around for you as you deserve good things to start happening.
1 person likes this
@CatsandDogs (13964)
• United States
27 Jun 08
I hope things turn around too for I've had enough of this, bad happenings. one right after the other! (Like my expression's going to change anything... lol) I'm trying to keep my chin up but I'm hanging on by a thin thin thread!! ARG!!
@Hatley (161759)
• Garden Grove, California
27 Jun 08
catsandDogs we dont dislike you, we know you have been going through some rough times. some times it just seems like it all happens at once, allthe bad things come sliding down on you. so allI can say is I will pray that things get a lot better for you and all your family now. love and best wishes.
1 person likes this
@CatsandDogs (13964)
• United States
27 Jun 08
Well actually it IS raining down on me! lol But I understand your point though, try to stay on the positive side and pray that things get better. I'm trying to but let me tell ya, I'm hanging on by a thin thin thread!
@Bluepatch (2481)
• Trinidad And Tobago
26 Jun 08
Don't let life get to you. I once thought my troubles would never end and then thought my life would always be like this no matter what. It builds up on you as one bad thought leads to another. My friends used to say when things got like that they went out and got drunk. At least then your mind would be so transported into another scenario you couldn't possible think they same way all the time. Break the trend of thought. Loosen up. Go dance the whole night somewhere.
@CatsandDogs (13964)
• United States
27 Jun 08
Well, I'm not a part of the drinking scene for I've grown up and am married so getting drunk and dancing is out of the question however, not so bad a thought though!! LOL