I am wary of using the same clothes that i used when i was in Depression!!

Depression, madness - I have been thruogh it and would never ever want to face it again.
India
July 19, 2008 9:46pm CST
Well, i really dont know wether it was depression or some kind of cleanliness disorder. Cause i had got into the habit of keeping everything very clean, neat and tidy and it should always be in the place it is supposed to be. Leave alone things, i didnt like wearing any jewellery as i thought it was messy and irtating, liked to tie up my hair really tight so that it dosnt fly on my face, didnt like using makeup as that too was a messy affair for me to do!! I didnt even like to wear jean and tops it was only formal shirts and trousers for me, while in that phase. If ever i saw something missing form its place i would hunt it down and put it back to place. So this was the case, i dont know if i was going mad, getting depressed or it was some disorder that got over with with time and friends! And till date if i see the clothes that i wore, i would never even think of getting into it for it gives me a wired feeling of the same things coming back to me once again. has anyone faced something like this before? Does anyone know what it was? If you have faced it, are you scared of using the same things that you used when you were having some kind of disorder?
2 responses
• United States
20 Jul 08
I have done the same thing over guys. When I had broken up with a boyfriend and especially after my divorce, I had to get rid of anything that he bought me or reminded me of him. I couldn't even wear jewelry that was bought for me. We do attach emotions to things so if you need to cleanse yourself of these clothes then you should do it. I am totally OCD I admit it but it is me and I have to be me!
• India
21 Jul 08
yes it is some kind of compulsive disorder, but if it helps us who cares! As far as we are fine with what we do its ok i guess. To b honest i didnt know what i was going through and for wht i was doing such a thing but it just happened and then it went away too!! it was very unlike me to be so orderly and organised but for those few months that was what i was.
@dragon54u (31638)
• United States
20 Jul 08
I tend to avoid things I used during bad periods of my life. They bring back bad memories but at the same time I may need to confront those times. I prefer to have things that aren't connected with those times. I left a $3,000 in Arizona that probably ended up in the landfill because it was connected with my ex-husband (he bought it for me). A silly waste of good furniture but I couldn't bear to have it around! Same with clothing so I understand your aversion. We all want to avoid pain and get as much pleasure as possible. It's no wonder that we avoid things that remind us of bad times!
• India
21 Jul 08
I think what you did was right in some way. Why look at the same things which make us remember of the bad times. Times that are gone, why confrnt them ? let them lie where they lie, why dig a wound that hurt so much. Just leave bad things behind and move on, that is what i do but it can be an act of an escapist. But if you confront the bad times , i think you have a lots of gutts to do so!