I actually stressed out

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Yeah. I know that my relationships is getting better after a meltdown some weeks ago. It's improving, but still I always get the feeling of insecurity in my heart. I can't trust my GF anymore and that's the core of all of these problems. I wasn't trying to seek out her mistakes and brought it up to the surface to start a fight. But we're keep on fighting. I hate to have a fight with her, but I can't help it. I don't think it is a relationship problem. It is more to a life problem where I can't deal with the past and keep looking back. I keep thinking and feeling that she's no longer faithful. I don't know why i can be like that since I used to trust her so much. My heart is broken and I am now stressed out. I cannot sleep at night and if I do, I always get up in the middle of the night with again, those feelings. I said to her that I need to go to a shrink. She said that she scared with whatever happens. I don't want to make this big, but it is big already, and I think I am just too small to handle this alone. She doesn't help... I love her but that's not it. I just can't have my trust on her anymore. Help me!!