I actually stressed out

@klaudine (3652)
Indonesia
July 31, 2008 5:19pm CST
Yeah. I know that my relationships is getting better after a meltdown some weeks ago. It's improving, but still I always get the feeling of insecurity in my heart. I can't trust my GF anymore and that's the core of all of these problems. I wasn't trying to seek out her mistakes and brought it up to the surface to start a fight. But we're keep on fighting. I hate to have a fight with her, but I can't help it. I don't think it is a relationship problem. It is more to a life problem where I can't deal with the past and keep looking back. I keep thinking and feeling that she's no longer faithful. I don't know why i can be like that since I used to trust her so much. My heart is broken and I am now stressed out. I cannot sleep at night and if I do, I always get up in the middle of the night with again, those feelings. I said to her that I need to go to a shrink. She said that she scared with whatever happens. I don't want to make this big, but it is big already, and I think I am just too small to handle this alone. She doesn't help... I love her but that's not it. I just can't have my trust on her anymore. Help me!!
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• United States
31 Jul 08
trust is vital in a relationship and if you don't think that you can trust her that is a major problem. with what you're going through will give you restless nights. maybe you need to take a break and see things with a fresh view. first you need some sleep to think clearly. that's all that i know to tell you. take care.
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@klaudine (3652)
• Indonesia
1 Aug 08
I know that it is very vital. I also said to her that I really want to give her a chance to make up with this thing. I've tried not to bring the past to the surface. I'd rather saying nothing than have to let her think that I've never forgive her. I forgave her, really, i just can't forget what she's done. But you're rite, I need some sleep. I've been awake like zombie lately.
@bamakelly (5194)
• United States
1 Aug 08
It is hard to constantly be fighting in a relationship. It is hard when you lose the trust you once had. It will be hard for things to work out for you if you keep hanging on to the past. I should probably take my own advice. I know you love her but that trust issue will probably be a sticking point for a while. Sometimes there are no good answers but the one that is in your heart. Good Luck.
@klaudine (3652)
• Indonesia
1 Aug 08
Yeah and it seems like i can't do anything else than waiting for teh time the trust grow again. I don't have any idea how to make it fast. I need her help not to make everything worse, but it seems like that both of us are tired of this fighting so both cannot think right and easily get angry. New record 3 days without fighting until today and I am a little bit happy :)