In Loving Memory of my 1st son Ezra

United States
August 2, 2008 9:48pm CST
This is the best but worst experience I have ever experienced. But if I could relive these 4 days I would just to hold him again. I only changed him twice, and that was right after he took his last breath and again when I was dressing him for his casket. He fought hard to live for 4 days but he could only do so much. I think it's even harder to be given the decision to end his life or keep going. But yet, they tell you if you keep him here, your only making him suffer more. So me and the father decided that until he shows he's ready to go then that will be the day. That last day, I knew it was the day for some reason. A mother knows and I knew when I was being transported across the street to the Children's Mercy ICU (from TrumanMedicalCenter) that something was wrong with him even though I just left his side at 7am that morning. (shift change for nurses.ICU open 22 hrs everyday), I still think of him. I still cry. I still love him & can not wait to see him again. I love you son!.. In Loving Memory of Ezra A. Fuimaono McNurlin 10.31.07 - 11.03.07
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@lilaclady (28277)
• Australia
3 Aug 08
I wish - I wish You the best, angel clipart
Oh how sad, another little angel in heaven, I firmly believe this little angel of yours will always be watching over you, and she will never have hurt or pain that we all suffer on this earth...I know how hard it must be for you but she will always be around you I know that....
@lilaclady (28277)
• Australia
3 Aug 08
ooops i see your little angel was a boy, well they make beautiful angels too...
• United States
3 Aug 08
lol@girl its okay.. I know he is watching over me and his family. and i know the good thing about it is, he went straight to the top and he doesn't have to face this cruel world. thank you