Why I haven't been around as much

@guss2000 (2234)
United States
August 11, 2008 1:06pm CST
I don't even know where to start. Last week I went for my first ultrasound, and they found an empty sac--- which could just mean I'm earlier than what they think, or this pregnancy may not be viable. Time will only tell. It sucks not knowing what is going to happen with me. I've been so sad/depressed for days about things. That's sorta why i have been a little MIA the last several days, along with everything else that is going on. I did post about my ultrasound and pregnancy issues in a seperate post, but since then--- more and more has happened to me! On Saturday, I wasn't feeling well at all so I was laying on my son's floor while he was watching cartoons from his crib. He's safe in there and I knew I could try to rest a little bit. Well, I was dozing in and out and as soon as I went back into a doze suddenly I was hit in the eye/face with a Tickle Me Elmo doll. The temple area of my right eye is so SORE and it bled a good bit. The cut is so small though, but hurts like heck! It's bruised a little now. The dumb doll was saying "That tickles" after it was thrown at me. I wanted to rip the stuffing out of that dumb Elmo! It's big hard eyes I guess is what got my temple area. It hurt so bad! Then while dealing with the whole pregnancy thing, and now the eye thing-- I've had this HUGE sore on my armpit for days. I often get small cysts in there, and a few years ago had to get one surgically removed. Most times, they just go away on their own, and they aren't any big deal Well, there has been a BIG one building up in there and I kept waiting for it to go away on it's own. It was not going away, so yesterday I went to the ER for it. THe pain was so bad and I couldn't lift my arm up anymore. It was getting red clear down to my elbow, moving towards my chest and definitely really red in my back-- all from my arm pit! So I had to go get it cut open. OMG that hurt like heck! The needles that they put in first--- hurt the most, and I didn't feel the cut. I'm on pain meds for it now and antibioitcs. I have to go back to the hospital tomorrow to have the packing removed and the bandanges changed. So gross! On top of all of that, I have SUCH a busy week this week with my doc appointments and 3 for my son all on different days. It's going to be busy! Do you ever have weeks that are so crazy busy!?
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@bmorehouse1 (1029)
• United States
11 Aug 08
I think we all have crazy busy weeks like that now and then. I'm sorry to hear about all the stress you are under with all your health issues. I hope it all turns out okay though. Sit down and breathe! Talk to the Lord! He will listen and you will be amazed how much better you will feel. Best wishes!
@guss2000 (2234)
• United States
26 Aug 08
Thank you. The stress hasn't really changed much since I posted that message, but the doctor has given me something for anxiety to help me get through this. I've been praying alot lately, and between that and the meds, I'm starting to feel better. I just hope I can recoop soon since it's exhausting to feel down all of the time.
@bamakelly (5194)
• United States
11 Aug 08
I know that being pregnant and all of the appointments can really make for a crazy schedule. I remember doing all of that myself some years back when I was pregnant. It can be an exciting time but it gives you stress also. You just need to relax a little more. I think that you are having these issues because you might be worrying to much and that leads to some health problems. You don't need any other problems combined with being pregnant. So hang in there and take good care of yourself.
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@guss2000 (2234)
• United States
26 Aug 08
I know I'm a big worry wart. It's awful, and I think I inherited it from my parents. My pregnancy came to an end the other day due to it being a blighted ovum, which was why the hormones weren't rising correctly. I'm thankful to have answers for that now, but sorry that it didn't turn out the way I wanted it. I've been to the hospital 3 times for the miscarriage because I wasn't sure if what I was seeing was normal, and they said I'm okay. My blood pressure however, was up on my last visit so they now have given me some pills for anxiety to help mre relax. I've only been on it for a couple of days, and I honestly do feel a bit better. Maybe things now will start to go back to normal again. Thanks for your concerns.
@bamakelly (5194)
• United States
26 Aug 08
I am very sorry to hear of your situation. I hope you will be well. I can't really find the words to express my sympathy. Take care of yourself.
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• United States
11 Aug 08
Your really not having a good week you poor thing .. keep us posted on how you are doing.. my thoughts and paayers are with you .. As far as elmo goes.. take out his battires for saying that tickles ( I had to chuckle when I read you wanted to ake his stuffing out )
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@guss2000 (2234)
• United States
26 Aug 08
I can't believe how hard that ELmo was! It's a child's toy, so you would think they would have made it softer for them! LOL It's big bulgy eyes I think is what hit me. I still have a slight sore on my temple from that day. Aside from that, I did end up miscarrying my baby this past Tuesday. My hormones weren't rising correctly and at each ultrasound they were only showing an empty sac with no fetus forming. I had what they call a blighted ovum, which does happen to womem from time to time for one reason or another. I believe mine was because I didn't have enough progesterone in my body. I had the same issues with my son, but lucky enough it was caught in time and I was able to take the supplements. With this 2nd pregnancy, I think we caught it too late. My OB and I have actually already talked about what we will do for my next pregnancy so we can ensure that I'm getting what I need from the start. Atleast that is promising. For now though, I'm spending alot of time with my son and boyfriend. They have been helping me cope and get through all of this alot. It's hard, but I'm making it day by day and hanging in there.