I am SO stressed I can't even feel anymore!

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I am SO stress over dealing with all of my kids' mental health issues that I can't even feel anymore. I feel like they have ripped my heart and sole out and never replaced it. I have dealth with a lot of the mental issues of bi-polar for two of my boys, one of them has Explosive Disorder, Anger Disorder, and Conduct Disorder. All four of my boys have either ADD or ADHD. I am dealing with my oldest one getting involved with an evil girl and now he will be going to prison for two years. My youngest middle son is off of his meds and now he was teasing this other boy about his 4-wheeler and the mom pressed charges for theft and he only moved it ten feet, so that is a felony, he is already on probation because of his unruliness behavior. He and the oldest one got into a REALLY REALLY bad fight yesterday when I was not home, and my youngest called 911 because he thought that they were going to kill each other. Well, the 16 year old picked up my 19 year old and slammed him down on the concrete driveway. So, the cops are pressing Domestic Violance Charges on him. He lies SO much that I don't know when he is telling the truth or lying. He stopped taking his meds and he is so out of line and I have had him in counceling, I had him in a respit group, many many times in the hospital for meds adjustments most of his life. I have four teens. I have been through so much with them over SO SO many years. He is my son and I love all of them, but I can't catch a break. Everyday it is SOMETHING, non-stop stress. I know, two are adults but the one still has two more years of high school and wants to make something of his life. The youngest still has hope to settle and not get into trouble. I am going to school him with an online school. Why, why can't I just feel anything besides just exsisting. Like no matter what I have tried for them, all of the help I have tried all over the years. I just feel like I have failed my family. I don't really have a support system either. I just have me. I go to counseling, but because of the new rules that they have there, I can only go 10 times a year! Thanks for letting me vent. I am SO lost in this unexplainable crap. My oldest will be put in prison in 4 to 6 weeks, so I don't have much time left with him either. I just don't know what to do. I feel like crawling into a hole and just go away. I can't please ANYONE, and I am always doing something wrong that causes a arguement between the boys or I am told I am taking sides. I can't say or do anything to make anyone happy or just a little smile. I have failed. Now, my 16 year old, the youngest middle child has run away