Sept 30, 1969 my life changed forever, at 3 months old

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What dates have you held onto that you know, without a doubt that your life changed forever? Would it have been for the better or worse, or as in my case, do you even know? When that day of the year comes around, how do you feel? 39 years ago today, my father was killed by a drunk driver. I was only 3 months old. I have no pictures of me and him together, bcz none were taken. I obviously didn't get the chance to know him as a person, and although they say you can't miss what you never had, there is always "what if." What would life have been like with him, would it have changed the outcome of who I am today, etc. I'll never know the answers to those questions and the many more I didn't name so I don't allow myself to dwell on them, but they are there in the back of my mind, always. For me, today is a worry day. I worry about everyone I love that is not with me, the entire day. I guess I, somehow, think history will repeat itself and I will lose someone. I can't stand it! I'm antsy all day, irritable and have a feeling of overall unease. I even know it's illogical to believe that something horrible is more likely to happen on this one day of the year than any other day, but I can't seem to help myself. Anybody else have a specific day of the year that you lose all sensibilities?