Deprest

United States
October 19, 2008 5:33pm CST
I know that things in life are hard. But as i sit at home and wonder what my life would have been if i didnt go the direction i did i start getting deprest. I have had alot of things go wrong in my life and i have tried to change them. What i have tried to change is now hurting me. For one thing all of my family is so spread out we dont even talk anymore. My sister and i dont talk because she thinks she is better then anyone in her family. When she knows shes not. My brother thinks when he needs something all he has to do is call is older sister and she will fix everything. I am tired of fixing everything for everyone. I try to be a good person, but everytime i do it bites me in my butt. It makes me mad when friends even do this to you. I just wish that they would be friends and not use me for everything. I keep everything built up inside and when i finally release it is not good. Everyone that makes me mad will hurt it and it does not turn out good. So if you have anything you would like to add please do so. I am at the end of my road and i need some advice from others who have been in this situation or a simuliar one. Thank you for taking the time to read this.
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@lilaclady (28240)
• Australia
19 Oct 08
I feel the same sometimes, but I don't have fmaily any more and sometimes i think I would put up with that sort of thing from them just to have them back, but I know how you feel as i have some friends that are a bit like that but i try and look at it in another way...they come to me because ..iam capable of doing, which means in a way they see the positive in me and where would they be without me, I know it doesn't help much but when people come to you like that it is because you are the sort of person who can fix things which means you are making a difference in someone elses life, they need you regardless of the situation, it is because you are the smart strong one...I think we are the special ones in a way...we are the doers in the world and we cope which makes us the strong ones..
• United States
19 Oct 08
Thank you for your response. I know i am here on this earht for some reason and i know it is to help others. But when does it some back, when does the others help you. There are times when i need help and friends just arent there for you. They say they are but when push come to shove they are not there. I have this friend that only wants to do something if it benifits her. I dont think that is fair to me. I dont mind helping her, but when it is time to just hang out.
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@lilaclady (28240)
• Australia
19 Oct 08
Yes I know what you mean...but i believe you are rewarded in some other way just for the fact you are a good person...they need you they may not show their gratitude and that is sad but I would rather be like you than them...
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@Hatley (164485)
• Garden Grove, California
20 Oct 08
look tangled in barbedwire get the chip off your shoulder and try to think positively. maybe your sister just wants to get 'a rise out of you, anyway try to be nice to her, it might shock her into being more of what you would like her to be.So people look to you for help, look to them for help too, and say no when you dont want to do something.Being mad doesnt solve a thing, and you know what a lot of others of us have things a whole lot worse than you and we arent whimperin, we learn to say no, and we tend to try to see some of the good in life.Dont fix everything for everyone say no then ask for some help. and dont expect others to make you happy, you have to do that yourself, it comes from within.If you werent always angrywith everyone they might be a lot nicer to you too. cheer up.