Making amends with ourselves.
December 3, 2008 8:29pm CST
Everyone makes mistakes. It's whhat we do with the results of those mistakes that matter the most. And usually there is one defining moment in our live's (or up to this point in our lives) where we realize the mistake (past or present) and it is the turning point for us. My biggest mistake is not fully believing in myself even though I knew all along deep down I am an intelligent strong person who sees life uniquely enough in order to relate to others. And I always thought I could not write or advance myself career wise because others held me back...and as for personal relationships I never let anyone get past go because I already prepared myself in case I got hurt again thinking others held me back. Now I know I am the only one who's been holding me back. Fear is paralyzing. When someone is afraid to hurt others so much to the point where they think anything they say might hurt someone so they never speak up. And as I think about it...that is probably why when I read Maya Angelou's "Why the Caged Bird Sings" the part of her life where she did not utter a word for almost six years or so because she thought her voice had the power to kill a person....well I guess I thought my voice had the power to hurt others. Now I know better. Now I know my voice is my guide and I promise myself to always stay true to it. As for the personal life...well that will be another discovery in it's own time. Hopefully not too late for my life. So, do you have a really big mistake in terms of your life? When did you realize it? Did you make amends? Or do you just deal with it?