Times when I wished my good old dad was still around

@nixxi76 (3192)
Canada
December 10, 2008 9:59am CST
There are many times when I want to tell my dad something, or have a game of cribbage with him, see him all emotional at Christmas time, teach me things that a daughter needs to know, but especually meet my son. But I will never be able to do that again....... It's been now eleven years since he passed away. Am I ever going to stop feeling the way I do about it? He's missing out on so many things with life. Our family has changed a lot and everyone seems to have just gone their own way but still holding it inside. We were a real family when my dad was alive it seems he kept our family apart. It also feels so strange telling my son about his Grandpa and showing him a picture instead of taking him to my mom's for a visit to show him. How are you handling a death to someone close to you? I'm not doing so good about it right now.
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@Lakota12 (42794)
• United States
11 Dec 08
me either! my hubby passed away 4 years ago and its hard telling grand daughter that the pics are of grand pa pa. He loved CHristmas so we try to keep every thing like it was then except I cant get every one goin gto put up lights out side. Hubby loved to do this. Some times I get so mad that he isnt here to watch grand daughter grow she was 20 days old when he passed away.
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@nixxi76 (3192)
• Canada
12 Dec 08
It can be frustrating at times especually when you need to say something to that loved one that isn't around anymore. Thanks for your comment
@Lakota12 (42794)
• United States
12 Dec 08
I talk to his pic and sometimes I feel like he has gave me an answer
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@nixxi76 (3192)
• Canada
13 Dec 08
Even though my dad is gone, my mom had somewhat of the same experience that you have with your husband. Sometimes she will talk to him (or prey to him) when she needs money. He always helped her pay the bills and other things so that made him a good provider even when he was passed away. When she would pay her property taxes or had big bills and was left short she often said to my dad when he was gone that she needed some help. Probably about a week or within that week she would get a spousal check from Hydro where he worked for 30 years. It was amazing when this happened, it was a sign from him I'm sure just telling her everything was going to be okay.
• United States
13 Dec 08
i do good except on father's day. i see people out with their dad doing special things,and i can't,he's gone. i feel the cancer cheated me of things we should had time for. my dad's been gone 11 years too.
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@nixxi76 (3192)
• Canada
13 Dec 08
When my dad passed away, I asked a friend of mine when does this empty feeling ever go away and they said that it doesn't because I was always going to feel like I had something to say to him or miss him on special times just like christmas and father's day and his birthday and my birthday and my friend was right. They said that it does get a bit easier over time because time is the only thing that can heal me. Thanks for your comment and I'm sorry about your dad too
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• United States
14 Dec 08
thanks:) maybe not easier..but you kind of accept it,if that makes sense.