I had not noticed, that my heart never healed...

United States
December 12, 2008 7:19pm CST
until i started reading the posts under this interest, i never realized that my heart was still broken... in fact, it's been broken for about 10 years now, but i never have paid it much mind... nose to the grindstone and always looking out for others... just lately, i asked myself what i want... and ten years later, i wonder where she is...
4 responses
@donsky14 (5963)
• Philippines
13 Dec 08
Wow, you must really love her. I hope you don't mind me asking...but what happened? Ten years is so long to be still hurting. Hopefully you'd be able to move on, cause having your heart broken is not really a good feeling. I've been there. And it sucks to feel that way.
• United States
13 Dec 08
It is such a long story, and the heart is very heavy. I did see her for a brief moment six years ago, but I was so buried with what was happening around me, I could not voice my feelings. I know I've hurt her... I thought I had moved on, and I went along with my life... but now, actually feeling what I have forgotten, I remember that I truly love her. I don't think it's possible for me to ever stop loving her - I never want to stop loving her. I wonder where she is, what she's doing... I wonder how she feels about me now, has she forgotten me... I tried never dwell on these thoughts, but as each day passed that I will never get back, I being only to think of what this day would have been if she and I were togeather...
@donsky14 (5963)
• Philippines
13 Dec 08
Well I guess there's nothing more to do but move on, since you don't really have any more communication with her. But hey, if you guys are really meant to be...then destiny will find its way. Just don't close your doors for others.
• Philippines
30 Jan 09
me too :) its been 13 years that my heart never healed. i've fallen in love with my bestfriend and though we still communicate with him and we are still the best of friends. he knows about my feelings for him when we were still in high school. and though right now i have a boyfriend but when i talk to him i still feel the pain. we tried to be together but it didn't really work out. i guess we will be the best of friends for the rest of our lives.
@margaux08 (1094)
• Philippines
5 Mar 09
Hi markroderick, YOur situation is so sad... Falling in love with the bestfriend. He may be the one but caanot be the one... I am just glad that you two remained friends no matter what. It's tough, isn't it? Suppressed emotions... feelings you cannot burst... but you know will always haunt you. Just one question though. At night, who is the last person on your mind? YOur boyfriend or your bestfriend? When you wake up, who's the first person you think about?
@margaux08 (1094)
• Philippines
13 Dec 08
she must be your one great love. all of us has one great love in our lifetime. please refer to the discussion i started about the One Great Love. However, I hope this is no reason for you to wallow. Life is good. There are a lot of things it will offer to you... and you in return. Happy mylotting!
• United States
13 Dec 08
I don't know anything about 'One Great Loves' or fates or destinies, I know my heart... and only now after many years of ignoring it... Wallow in love? No, no. I rejoice in these feelings, although they cause me pain... far too long have I been inhuman...
@margaux08 (1094)
• Philippines
5 Mar 09
Hi Sing2Me, 10 years is such a long time. Free your heart to embrace life much easier. I am no doctor of any kind, just some friend who may may kind of relate with what you went through. Experience told me to love myself to love everything around me. I have learned to like myself and not dwell on the past, no matter how my heart was badly beaten back then. She may be the love of your life... but love itself is so powerful that it will lead you to the one who will not make you feel healed...rather... to the one who will let you realize that nothing was broken after all...