A Little Bit About Everything

@CatsandDogs (13964)
United States
January 11, 2009 2:57pm CST
I wasn't sure what subject to put this under, mylot, me, my mother, my inlaws, cats.... Well since it all involves me, I decided to put it under me! lol Ok first thing is this, why am I not getting second responses sent to my email? What I mean is, when I start a discussion and someone responds to it, I get that one and then I'll respond back but if the responder responds a second time, I don't get that one sent to my email so I haven't a clue about it unless I go to my mylot homepage and click on discussions I started and then it shows if I'm the last one who responded or someone else is. If it's someone else then I'm wondering "Why didn't I get that?" ARG!! So if you have responded a second time and I should've responded back and didn't, that is why. I didn't catch it! If you have my email address or even want it, let me know and I will give it to you so you can send me an email letting me know so I can answer you. Just want you all to know, I'm NOT ignoring any of you! Now I want to let you all know that I've been going through a terrible depression and is why I haven't been on here much. Plus being overwhelmed with things that need doing since hubby's mother died in May and now his step dad died on New Years Eve. Hubby got his step dad's truck which is a 2004 Dodge Ram SLT. It's really nice but I'm not comfortable with it because they never liked me. Sheesh, it's a wonder they liked themselves! lol REALLY! In due time I'll get used to it but I won't drive it unless I have to and the reason BETTER be good!! lol Anyway, and worried about Gracie and her heart problem but thanks to many of you, I feel much better in knowing she does have a good chance at living a long and happy life!! Thank you so much for the reassurance!! She is doing really good and I'm so happy for that and hope it continues. But all in all, it did get me down, it was the last straw that broke the camels back, so to speak. I'm trying really hard to get past it but it's hard. Once you get to this point, its hell trying to turn it around but I'm trying!! I AM trying!! Mom is doing ok. She still gets dizzy and has to take her medicine for that and her right hand and arm still hurt her but the doctor thinks it's carpal tunnel syndrome which she'll be tested for on the 26th of this month. I'm very concerned about that because it's a painful procedure and the doctor said he'll be as gentle as he can so that tells me a lot there. It's not going to be a picnic. Just wanted to let you know I'm still here, just not as much as I'd like to be but I'm trying hard to work through this awful depression. It will get better. I don't know when but it WILL get better!! Keeping positive thoughts on it all is the only way I know to work through it and I'm trying hard to keep those positive thoughts! I AM trying!! lol
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14 responses
• United States
11 Jan 09
I do not think I have ever received notification to my own discussion when a comment is made. A "second response" is a comment. The only time I have ever been notified of a comment is when some one makes a comment to my response on someone else's discussion. I am very happy to know that Gracie is doing well. You have been going through some very troublesome times and seemed to have handled them with strength and courage, for that I applaud you and hope happier times are ahead.
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@CatsandDogs (13964)
• United States
13 Jan 09
I used to get a notification when a comment was added back when I had my old user name RealDeal but since I've changed my user name, it quit working. Weird. Maybe if we all sent mylot associates about it, they could fix it.... Thanks for your kind words. I can't say that I'm strong because like anybody else, you deal with what ever life throws at you and that's what I'm doing but it has caught up with me now. I'm trying to "wake me" up again so I can enjoy life like I once did. It may and may not take some time. Thanks so much for your sweet and kind words!
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@leonag (33)
• Canada
11 Jan 09
Well, first of all if you are feeling depressed you should seek professional help and the sooner the better. second maybe you are just feeling overwhelmed with everything going on in your life. It sounds to me like that could be the problem. Just take a little you time. Have a bubble bath, read a book, stop and smell the roses, you get the idea. Hope it all works out for you.
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@ElicBxn (60895)
• United States
11 Jan 09
ya gotta do what ya gotta do to survive it isn't easy when the world seems to want to hit you with bricks, but if you have to retreat to your happy place, where ever that is, even if its sleep, for a bit, then you have to try and do it.
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@CatsandDogs (13964)
• United States
11 Jan 09
That is true but then I have this going on and that going on which makes me feel guilty trying to rest. Last week I had let the dishes pile up in the sink that hubby finally got around to doing them and now I'm trying to get back to my old self and start doing things but my mind doesn't want to but I make myself do what ever that needs doing but it's hard. It's like I have a battle of armies in my head telling me I should do this and that but the other side is saying I don't want to and won't. ARG!!
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@ElicBxn (60895)
• United States
11 Jan 09
Trust me, you are NOT alone!
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@CatsandDogs (13964)
• United States
11 Jan 09
Yeah, you are right, there are so many others who have lost their jobs and their pensions and so on.... that's horrible!! I know my situation isn't nearly as bad as that but still, at one time it was worse. It's just that everything has caught up to me and Gracie situation was the one straw that broke the camels back. I'm just trying to get back to being me again. I just wanted you to know that I'm still around although not as much because of my mentality and I recognize it too which is a good thing because it helps me get myself back like I want to be.
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@EvrWonder (3577)
• Canada
11 Jan 09
Hey Great to see your discussion. No worries. We know you are still with us! Time needs to take is course and you will be back up and running. With your computer keys smokin once again. No worries. We are not going anywhere. I am sorry to hear of all that's been going odwn. You have really been given a lot to deal with. A elderly friend of mine had the carpal tunnel surgery and well, he may be a tough ol guy but it was a cake walk. Healed magnificently in a shirt period of time too. Hope that helps. Unfortunately they only sedated him, which I found a bit distressing. He said he did feel a sharp pain twice but other than that there was no major problem and was done within 45 minutes. As for Gracie, I never heard anything until this post about a heart problem. I must of missed a post or two. I was away after Christmas until just last week. So we know what the problem is now? It sounds like she is going to be ok? Little Gracie, the sweet heart. No doubt you are feeling somewhat down. I think I would be too if I were in your shoes. Lots has gone on that isn't exactly stuff to get you rolling on the floor laughing, is it? I think considering all, you are doing amazing. You are a strong woman. Just do what you have to for you and of course Gracie and your Mom and hubby and we will all be here when you feel you have the time and energy to drop in. Appreciate you dropping a line to give us an update too btw. Good of you. Stay chipper. Not all is lost. We all need to time out once in awhile. Take care of you.
@CatsandDogs (13964)
• United States
13 Jan 09
My Sweet Gracie - She's laying on a pillow which is on top of a drawer. She has to be with me all the time. She's truely special!
Thank you EvrWonder. I don't know about being strong but I do know that one deals with what ever is thrown their way and that's exactly what I've been trying to do but it seems I've taken on too much and it's drained me but I'm the only help my parents have so I find the energy to carry on. My sweet Gracie has a heart condtion and we darn near lost her last week during the weekend. I've started a few discussions about her, if you'd like to take a look. She's been in twice to have her lungs drained of fluid which is a very painful procedure but it had to be done in order for her to live and now she's on medication twice a day for the rest of her life. She's on very borrowed time right now because either her lungs will fill with fluid too fast for me to get her to the hospital or her enlarged heart will burst because of the thinning of the walls. She's my baby girl, my shadow and she's only 4 years old, too young to die but if it's God's plan then who am I to say anything but I sure don't want to lose her. Seeing the picture, you can see where they had to shave her sides to drain the fluid. That's been done twice, one week apart but it's not going to happen anymore.
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@Polly1 (12648)
• United States
11 Jan 09
Keep trying Cats, you know we are here when you need us. You and you family, (that includes your fur babies) are in our thoughts and prayers. Keep the faith and keep pluggin along, things will get better, I know WHEN. The email thing has happened with me too, I have been surprised when I didn't get the notifications neither, oh well, I think we all understand. {{{Hugzz}}}
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@CatsandDogs (13964)
• United States
11 Jan 09
I'm trying to. Trust me, I'm trying hard! Whew! Thank you for your thoughts and prayers, they're very much appreciated! My faith hasn't waivered but I sure did get angry at God though. I asked him why and why won't you stop this and how much does He think I can take? To lighten my load because I can't take any more. I apologized later and He knows how I feel but I do hope he lightens my load. As for the email thing, since I'm not the only one that makes me feel better, weird, huh? lol At least you know I ain't lying! lol Hugs to you too!
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@Thoroughrob (11750)
• United States
11 Jan 09
Keep your head up and relax a bit. We are all here for you and sending positive thoughts your way. I hope things keep getting better. I do hope that after putting your mother through that that you find out the problem and they can help her. Keep us informed. We are thinking about you.
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@CatsandDogs (13964)
• United States
11 Jan 09
I'm trying to believe me, I'm trying to. Thanks Thoroughrob. Hugs!
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@Katlady2 (9920)
• United States
11 Jan 09
And I think you're doing an awesome job of hanging in there hon. I'm glad Gracie is doing good. That's definitely a good sign. I'm still praying for you and sending lots of hugs and positive thoughts your way.
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@hotsummer (10449)
• Philippines
17 Jan 09
well i hope that you are doing well right now. just try to be positive always as you have mentioned and just see the bright side of life. i too am doing this but not easy though but i know it should be the right attitude.
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@MsTickle (24983)
• Australia
13 Jan 09
I think "painful procedure" is a bit over the top. I've been tested for carpal tunnel syndrome. What they do is send a tiny electrical current along one of the nerves in the hand...if there is a problem it shows up. There is an unpleasant sensation when the current is sent and it does hurt but not to any great extent and it stops immediately the current is turned off. The specialist who did me was a bit of a comedian and he had me in stitches so I barely noticed the tiny jolt in my hand.
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@twinklee (895)
• India
12 Jan 09
Hi, For your problem regarding mylot responses, try your hands with the settings! If i come across any related info, i will pass that to you. And Convey my regards to your mom, don't worry every thing will be alright, Do take care of her, and you don't feel down., you have to cheer her up right? And trust on the almighty, he will give a painless surgery. Take care:)
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• Brazil
12 Jan 09
Try to relax. For sure everybody here understands how you must be feeling now. You passed for very difficult situations in a small period of time, it´s normal to be depressed. And I think you are a very strong person to still try to keep positive after all this hurricane in your life. Best of luck to you! Big kiss from Brazil!!!
@GardenGerty (101612)
• United States
12 Jan 09
If anyone gives you a hard time about not being here, then they are no friend of yours at all. I hope that as you are here more, you will feel the caring of people who respond to you and that will help you heal. Sometimes, all you can do is get through it, and it takes time, and talking about it. If the inlaws did not seem to like themselves, then do not feel bad about the truck, they probably did as best as they knew how to do. Just take care of Gracie, and if your mom has chosen to be tested for carpal tunnel, she will get through it. It may at least make her feel like she is taking action, and that is always a relief.
@bfarrier1 (2082)
• United States
13 Jan 09
I am really sorry for all that you are going through right now and I also know that depression is a serious thing so if you havent consulted a doctor please do so.I sometimes dont respond to a response I make because I cant catch up sometimes because I dont spend alot of time here but I do the best I can and it seems like you are as well so dont let that bother you.Good Luck and have a wonderful night.
@Opal26 (17690)
• United States
12 Jan 09
Hey cats! Glad to hear that Gracie is doing better! If the doctor thinks you're Mom has Carpel Tunnel, why is he doing that test? I have had Carpel Tunnel for years, never had the test and they never really did anything for it! I wear the splint/brace! It gets numb, tingly and hurts from time to time, but other than surgery, which I doubt your Mom would want or they would put her through, why are they doing the test? If it is going to be so painful and uncomfortable then what is the reasons? I was just wondering? I'm sure things are going to get better for you. Just keep thinking positive thoughts and hopefully more good news will be on it's way! I will still be praying for you and your family and of course little Gracie!