hwo ever give her body to his boyfriend??

That's something I could never truly enjoy unless I was married, in total love and ready to give everything else to my wife, not just my body. There's so much heartbreak around just giving yourself up, sharing such great intimacy when right after, you try to disconnect yourself from the person. I don't ever want to do that with someone I can only call "girlfriend." I want to do that with the person I'll never stop loving and never stop giving to!