Are you proud of the direction of your life?

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As I'm writing this I'm realizing that I may not make perfect sense. I'm still quite sick and my brain isn't functioning to 100% capacity, but bear with me! Over the past couple of days my husband and I have made some decisions that are drastically going to change our lives for the better. (I'm going to explain this as if nobody has any background information, because some of you don't know all of it!). For 3 years we've been living in a home owned by hubby's parents. It's been a nightmare since day 1. The house is falling apart, it needs loads of work, and we've had plumbing and electrical issues the whole time as well. My in laws don't want to put any money into fixing the house for us, so we're basically forced to deal with these horrible issues. Add to that the fact that they feel as if they can control us just because they own the house. They've been making our lives a living H-E-L-L for years now. We haven't done anything about the situation until now for many reasons. We have horrible credit and figured we wouldn't be approved for any other type of home. We also have to worry about whether pets are allowed at whatever home we get because I will not give up my cats, and we had to worry about whether we could afford the move and the new home. We can't afford much more than we're already paying, and unfortunatly most places want quite a bit for rent. But recently our situation has deteriorated, and it's become imperitive that we move out as quickly as possible. So we've found a smaller, but affordable home that we should be moving into within a few weeks. We're also taking other steps to free ourselves of the in laws. Our vehicle insurance has been under their name for many years, and we're finally getting our own insurance as well. Hubby's car has been in his parents name for over 5 years, and now we're buying him his own vehicle that his parents have no control over! We're also taking steps to fix our credit. We have an appointment next Wednesday to begin the process of filing for bankruptcy. This will wipe out all of our bad credit and we'll be able to start fresh. We've gotten an account at a credit union, which will give us a secured credit card without any fees attatched, so that we can begin to build up our good credit, for probably the first time ever, which we'll do after we've completed the bankruptcy process. So, for the first time in a very long time I finally feel like we're on the right path. Although it appears we're taking some backwards steps (like moving from a large home into a small trailer, and declaring bankruptcy) in actuality we're moving forward by doing these things. For the first time in a long time I'm feeling very hopeful for the future, and feel like in a matter of a couple years, we'll have the life we've always wanted. I don't feel so stuck anymore, there's finally a light at the end of the tunnel. It's still a rather long tunnel, but now I can finally see the light instead of as before I was still looking for even a shimmer! I'm sorry this has gotten so long, and I apologize if it doesn't make a whole lot of sense, or if I've repeated things I've already said in previous discussions. This is just such a wonderful feeling that I just have to share it! Are you happy with the current direction in your life? Has there ever been a time you've felt hopeless and couldn't begin to see the light at the end of the tunnel? Have you made it out of that tunnel yet, or are you still following the light?