Postnatel Depression Go away please ???

New Zealand
April 14, 2009 3:31am CST
Hi there im new to this so please be nice ! , Ive battled with this for nearly 5 years and was wondering if it ever goes away ? , For me having postnatel depresion is like feeling like a complete faliure as a parent and feeling like there is allways something your are doing wrong all the time , Its awful ! , Id give almost anything to feel completly bonded with my oldest child ( Jayden who will be 5 this december ) , I never feel good enough as a mother to him , Yet with my 5 month old son i feel 100% confident , I really feel that this has nothing to do with not having any prevous experience in parenting before my oldest was born ( as i was only 15 ) . I feel guilty most of the time , I have a feeling of sheer dread about spening time doing the things that should come completly natural to me e.g playing on the floor with bricks and cars with him . In saying this i do all the day to day stuff , and i would never neglect my sons needs . I love my oldest with all my heart , But id do anything just to feel like i was doing a good job at raising him Help me !!!!!
2 responses
@Niah1976 (733)
• Philippines
14 Apr 09
Hi my dear!!! I don't think its totally postnatal depression that you are having. It's normal for us moms to feel that we are not the best mother for our kid/s. It's because we want the best for them. So I think that you can do new things with your 5 y.o kid. Like spend more time playing together. Tell him how much you love him. Appreciate him more like when he get good grades in school. Try to make him happier. So don't worry about being a good mom because I know you're such a good one. Just enjoy the time with your kids and forget all your worries. Happy my lotting!!!
• New Zealand
26 Apr 09
Thanks :)
• India
14 Apr 09
I think you should seek help from a proper psychologist. Post natal depression for five years is way too long but I have heard it being natural for many mothers not to bond with their child at all. They mean no harm, they love their children but are never ecstatic on seeing them. And there is of course the guilt pangs that worsen the situation, so medical advise would be best for you
• New Zealand
26 Apr 09
I have had specilised help , all i end up doing is bawling my little eyes out and they tell me its obvious i care and love my son alot Thanks for your resaponse :)