love poem to the child i want ! want! want! to have

you know what last febuary i was carrying the most specially thing that God has given to us.i was very happy that we finally have our first born baby.me and my husband was very excited knowing if our baby was a girl or a boy.then in my 2nd month of pregnancy i experience bleeding i was really worried and sad knowing what will happen to my baby.i called the doctor immediately the doctor said ill just buy this medication to hold on the baby...everything was fine till on my 3rd month of pregnancy i was so nervous cause i experience bleeding again this happened twice already..the next day me and my mom went to a doctor to see if my baby was ok.the doctors said lets do ultrasound to check if your baby is ok.i was so shock looking at the screen of the ultrasound that the baby was not floating already i knew that my baby was gone.the doctor said to me directly that "im sorry your baby was not healthy"...i cried a lot of tears while calling my husband in the cellphone he immediatly rush to the hospital he embrace me tight and cried.i was so lonely that time and having a hard time to recover realizing maybe this baby is not for us.my family was very upset they were very excited too.now im recovering and i am still afraid to have my pregnancy,i had a trauma already on what ive experience.im scared to lose my baby again.....thanks for sharing..

Its really a nice poem... i think your readying to be a mom..but im just wondering why you said you adjusted it a bit to suit your feelings and pain..why can't you have a child so that's why its a pain to u or ur still not married or something..lol..