What are YOUR thoughts on YOUR death? Do you even think on this?

@debrakcarey (19925)
United States
October 16, 2009 11:30pm CST
No one wants to contemplate their demise. I was thinking the other day about death. You see, I work in a nursing home, I see death at least once a month, if not more often. Some of these deaths touch me deeper than others. Don't get me wrong...I believe each and every human being's life and death is precious to the LORD. But in my humanness...there are some resident's death that just get to me....deeply. There are times when I realize that some of these people I care for are only a decade or so ahead of me. Once in awhile, they are the SAME age or YOUNGER than me. So, taking care of them has caused me to contemplate MY OWN death more than people usually do. Recently, a dear little lady in her eighties passed away. She was a difficult subject to administer medications to. She really disliked them! But for some reason, even though she had Alzheimer's and didn't remember me from day to day....she touched my heart. You could tell she'd always been a classy lady. One who said please, thank you and excuse me all the time. She was wheelchair bound, but I could picture her with a elegant carriage and demeanor when she was young and able. She passed away the other day, she had pnuemonia. No warning, no wasting away slowly...she was fine when I gave her her meds one day, gone the next. I was told in a matter of fact way...just, oh, btw...Helen passed away. Immediately, a lump formed in my chest...that didn't go away all evening. Passing by her room was especially hard. Suppertime was agonizing...that is when I had always given her her meds...with ice cream. She would fight me a little...but then when she finally took them...she would always say...'that was sooo GOOOOOD!' I will miss her. Which leads me to my thoughts on MY death. Will I be missed? Will someone, besides my family of course...get a lump in their chest? Will they have fond memories of something I used to do all the time? There are 'good' deaths and 'bad' deaths. By that I mean so go easy and some don't go easy at all. Some go 'fearfully' and some go 'peacefully'. I would hope mine is without fear, and that someone remembers me fondly, and smiles. Do you contemplate these things? What are your thoughts?
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@dawnald (84141)
• Shingle Springs, California
19 Oct 09
My parents' generation is slowly going. Then the in-between generation. Then mine. Scary... No, I don't like thinking about it. Not at all. But if I have to go, I'd rather go like my mom, suddenly in my sleep. And of course I hope that I will be remembered...
@max1950 (2313)
• United States
17 Oct 09
Ive beaten cancer twice so far, last time i lost a kidney and i know someday it's commin back, the way i look at it is that ive done everything i wanted to do except go to tahati have 2 great kids and 5 grandkids and when my time comes im ready.
@debrakcarey (19925)
• United States
17 Oct 09
I admire your fight, I admire your humble expression of readiness. It is one of the few things about this life that is truly impossible to know, and to face it with courage, in my opinion is the mark of a strong person. It is absolutely necessary to come to terms with our own passing...to enjoy what life is really all about. Growth....and that to me is what I want MY passing to be. Growing into the next phase of being.