Have you ever had suicidal thoughts?

United States
October 25, 2009 11:25pm CST
I have had thoughts of suicide before and it was not a good thing. I would have a really bad day and just think about how much happier I would be in heaven. I sometime would think about my life and how bad it was. I relize my life is not as bad as others and actually could be worse. I am glad I did not committ suicide. That would have been very bad and caused alot of grief for my family. I try to think about the positive things in life and appriciate it more. There is no sense in thinking about suicide. It is a pointless think to think about because you gain nothing out of doing it. I am glad to be alive and moving.
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@gnase99 (172)
• Philippines
27 Oct 09
As Long as you live there is Hope why dont you keep a diary of your daily bout's in life so that if your feeling depressed you can look or read back how wonderful life is.
• United States
26 Oct 09
Yes, and from time-to-time I still battle with those thoughts. I think that the one thing keeping me alive is my boyfriend, my cat, my mother, and my grandmother. They are my reason for wanting to live, but at the same time, I always feel like the whole world is out to get me because I don't think like everyone else does. I have insanely unique thoughts, I am also very vocal. I am always fighting for something or someone because of how passionate I am. I think that what keeps me alive is my need to fight for the rights of others, and equality for all, but as we all know life is a power struggle, and equality is like beauty and it is seen in the eyes of the beholder (it is if you think about it, take one good look at Communism, it is a great idea, too bad it will never work because people are too greedy). Okay, so, those of us who feel like giving up have to keep fighting, and keep thinking that life is not all that bad. If we don't do our best to keep things as positive as possible, we will not make it as a species.
@msedge (4011)
• United States
26 Oct 09
I had thought of this before when i was having trouble with my life.I was being humilliated and it hurts me alot.I am glad i had my angel with me.My daughter gave me strength to survive.I was thinking if i'm gone what would happen to her.So i fought,struggle, sacrificed and suffered the pain until finally i recovered.Now my life is full of happiness and blessings together with my family.
• Mexico
26 Oct 09
Hi tucker sheri: I had some of these feelings when i was depressed but it was just a thought. Thank God I have never taken a decition against my life and after you face the problems you'll know the treasure life is and that there are a lot of reasons to keep here working for a better world and for the sake of my soul i won't take this decition.
• Philippines
26 Oct 09
I think I have when I was young. Whenever I feel left out or alone because I'm a loner when I was a kid, hehehe. But now I'm mature enough to think that its not a good thing in my life. I want to be with God when I die. But there are still times that I'll say "what if I'd kill myself to stop this disastrous things that happens in my life nowadays?" But in the end, nah! I'm just joking. Im an optimistic person and I always see the world in a positive view whatever happens.
• Pakistan
26 Oct 09
One Shouldnt get involved with any thing, when u end up not getting it, It may Hurt u alot! So always know Yourself, Know that its all temporary and you will never ever Feel so Down.. remember, you only get to live For once, cherish these Moments..
@syankee525 (6261)
• United States
26 Oct 09
one thing first if you would have commited it you dont go to heaven its a sin. but yeah i had those feelings before after i gotten hurt my whole world just got turned up side down. not being to afford to keep living the life i used too, not being able to buy food or making my bills. i thought if i wasnt around my wife could find another to give her what she desevered. but she made me see we're in it get for better or worst, richer or poorer. plus killing yourself is a punk way out of dealing with life
@rhan04 (307)
• Philippines
26 Oct 09
I had thoughts about it before. But I never really had the courage to do it no matter how unhappy I am. And now, I'm so thankful that I didn't do it. I would have missed a lot of things in my life if I did it. And although there are things that's making my life complicated, I still have more reasons to continue living my life. =)
26 Oct 09
Hi.. wow yeah I have that kind of thoughts usually... I think is really bad, but I think those thoughts came to me when I think that I don't have anything in this life and feel so alone... But well... I suppose that we are in this life for something, and I can't kill myself for such stupids thoughts or feeling bad with me and the others... life is more important than that thoughts