when people don't listen

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Lately, I've come to realize that my parents don't really pay that much attention to what I have to say. It's not because they are mad at me or something, I'm sure they hardly even notice the fact they're not paying attention to me when I speak, it's just something that happens and it makes me suffer a lot. Even now, we were having dinner and I was talking about University when suddenly my mother came up with a simple "does anybody wants salad?" and everybody (including my father, my sister and my grandmother who were sitting at the very same table and being silent while I was talking) started to talk about other stuff. I stood there looking at them, in the hope they'd notice that I had been interrupted and would ask me to finish what I was saying, but no one of them did. It was just as If I were a ghost and I don't get why. I don't know, maybe it's something in my family because even my relatives do it and it's always been like that, I used to notice it when I was a kid and they'd interrupt me while talking, forgetting about me and starting to talk to someone else. For years I felt just as If anything I have to say is worthless, boring and stupid. I'm not saying it's their fault, but it could be one of the many causes why I feel so useless and worthless now. I talked about it to my mother once and she said I should let her know If she ever does it, and I did let her notice, I told her about three days ago but it doesn't seem to work. And yeah I know I'm 30 and by now I shouldn't even care, but it gets frustrating to be talking to someone and noticing that this someone doesn't care AT ALL about what you were saying. I mean, they weren't even listening and weren't interested in the least bit since nobody asked me to go on. I guess that discussing about ham and salad was way more interesting than me babbling about some random problems of abuse by our professors at University. Would it make you angry or what ? maybe I should just accept things the way they are