A love that is started and must have to end...my story...

Philippines
November 9, 2009 9:38pm CST
It's been a year since I haven't share something personal about me. I have ben in love before but I can only weigh on the level of just an infatuation. My story started when I met these five people at work. We were a bunch of young ones who are believers that we can achieve our dreams in the near future. We were new in this one company , we are always together. When I'm with them it seems like the world stops when we are having fun. It seems that these people are my soulmates. To hide their identity let me just give them a different name since I decided to confess something. Of the five person , one of the guy became close to me. He is the picture of a guy who looks difficult to talk with because he is always quiet, but he is kind and caring. He looks snob but not until I knew him. Despite the pretty boy image , he do not admit it, he has a less confidence about his physical appearance. Let me name him James. Then another guy is the source of laughter in the group, let me name him as JOhn. The other cute guy , who is very sensitive and very true to his feelings will be Joey. The youngest of us is Mae(not her true name) , she is shy. She don't want to be left with the guys, it is necessary that I am there when we are all together. As the day walks in our life, we became really really close. James and I, whom are close pal before found our own bestfriends. James found Joey and John, and of course Mae found me. Then the day comes when I really don't have an idea what is happening in our group, Mae seems to be more shy than before. Mae shared with me that Joey is courting her. I am happy for them and even acted as their bridge of communication through text sometimes. One time me and Mae decided to separate from the guys for the meantime, because she told me she have to tell me her biggest problem. Mae told me he likes Joey, but she only like it as a friend. For her the guy that makes her heart beat faster is James. She don't want to ruin the friendship of the two, but she wants to follow her heart. Mae being the shy, ask my help is she have a chance with James. I helped her, I do the observation discreetly. Its difficult to say if James have a feelings too because he is very discreet too. When Mae and James had a chance to talk, I will see James running in the middle to interrupt them.Joey is obviously jealous. Because of that, I adviced her to wait for James if he will like her in the future.I had the feeling that James maybe like her too, but because Joey is his close pal, he is being careful about it. Do you wonder where is my character, well here it is. Yesterday in the office, just this day i begin to observed James do talk a lot, which he seldom do. James is more of a listener than a talker. I also noticed that he always glimpse on wher the table of Mae is. Then I had this weird feeling that I am not happy about it. Everytime we go home, we meet outside the building for a little chat a little, then we go our own way after. But yesterday, I leave Mae alone waiting for me outside. I want her to be alone, I want to see if James will come to her and have a chance to her. I texted Joey and John a wrong message that someone from the other department is looking for them and they have to return to our office for it. So that no Joey will interrupt them. And then it happen, I was hiding in one part of concierge area. James came, he instantly saw Mae alone. He approached her. They talked. I had seen on both eyes , a different happiness. Their eyes are both shinning. their smile is worth a million. Even the way they breathe its just so fast. I had seen on James that he has a feelings for Mae. I concluded that he only hide it. His gesture shows it, even Mae's reaction, she is like giving a positive sign to James. I felt sadness inside. My heart was like crumpled paper dumped into the garbage. I cannot move an inch, even I don't want to see the next move, I can't move and walk away. Then the two decided to walk out and continue the talk until they were gone in my sight. I went home in blue. As I was journeying to my home, a tear was falling and I tried to hide it from the people besides me inside the vehicle. it was really strange to me, how can I be hurt so much but what I saw, when even for the first time I knew it all? I was so dumb and stubborn, I didn't realize that I have a growing feelings for James. When I was home, I received a text message from Mae and she said she really have a good time talking to James and she wish that it will continue. She even include how he love the guy so much. I cried after reading it. I did not reply. I am so sorry for Mae of having this kind of reaction. I later realized we love the same guy. Now I am confused. i don't want to be an obstacle to both of them, but I can't wish them the best. I can't. What i know is that I have a feelings that it is just started but I guess I have to end. Thanks for reading, thanks for the time. Now I know the meaning of love, LOVE HURTS.
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@ratyz5 (7829)
• Philippines
13 May 10
Hmmmm.. I guess you did a sacrifice for that friend of yours to be happy. I admire that. Now,this plot has always been familiar in such situations among a group of friends who eventually develop with each other that intimate bond and others would sometimes take such bonds to greater levels. I hope that I wouldn't be offending anyone with this but, with the story that you have shared, others would comment that you really didn't love James because you just let him be taken by Mae, and you even helped them to be together. If you really liked James, you would've fought for him yet, you knew yourself that James like Mae as well. You also didn't want to break that bond of friendship so you decided to let them be happy with each other. That shows that you love that friendship you had among them and you value it more. Of course, by this time, I would like to assume that you have already gotten over that part of your life and learned from it a great deal. I once believed that love hurts those that tried but weren't blessed but, as my colleague once told us at the 'office,' "love doesn't hurt, people do" which made a lot of sense later on..
• Philippines
13 May 10
Yes I more love the friendship and the friendship is the one I want to treasure. I heard they are dating but still not in relationship. I already move on and I am happy for the two of them now. Yes love doesn't hurt, people do - i believe in that.
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@ratyz5 (7829)
• Philippines
13 May 10
That's why in some cases, its really not a good way to have a relationship among one of the members of a group of friends, unless you are really sure that triangles are really not possible if anything happens. Well, we just move on and time does heal things unless if we really don't want to be healed at all (-_-")
@jaiho2009 (39021)
• Philippines
10 Nov 09
Hello friend, Yes,LOVE HURTS...LOVE SCARS... I don't know what to say but i can feel the way you were feeling right at this moment. I never been in your situation...but i do felt how to be a broken heart. I also once love a man whom i think is the man of my dream and yah,he was once mine...all mine..but it never lasts. At first,it was real hard time...it's so hard to accept the defeat..losing is not my kind of game. But,as time goes by,i realized,life has to move on... And...i found also that...there is still LIFE AFTER HEART BREAK!
• Philippines
10 Nov 09
Yes I know that, I know there is a life after a heartbreak and I am starting to have a new life right now.
@lilaclady (28245)
• Australia
10 Nov 09
Love does hurt....but as you were in a friend type group these things can happen, it is sad but one day you will someone else or maybe singlely become close to one of your friends in that way...I am sure things will work out for you soon, you have a nice heart.
• Philippines
10 Nov 09
I have a nice heart, I don't even know that, thanks for making me realize! Thanks for being there my friend.