In this life

Throughout my life from childhood to now, I never had anybody who really loved me. Of course I felt sad about it every once in a while but last year she told me something that made me understand a little better. She tried to get rid of me when I still inside her. Nothing worked. It seems like I was not suppose to be here. It might sound strange but that part makes since.

follow nothing she says if u were not to b here u would not have made it here,it is no longer in her willing the path u choose,its now between u and the creator of your soul,u r soul just like all of us here,your purpose will b full filled,be not mindfull of our very own if they wish bad against u,u know now how they think of u so now put our focus on and with god only, the creators' love for u will lift u up more than ever if u accept the path of god to guide u all the way,when men women,family,friends,have no love for u,the creator that has created u love remains,forever for u,b not mindfull of little people whom have no understanding of love nor gods' love for all u will one day be loved by them when u rise with gods' love guiding u,love the creator,and u will be set free from all hatred thrown at u by people

I think that is amazing you found someone who adores you. That means you were able to open yourself enough to give someone a try even though you feel no love from your father.