I'm having that craving again...

United States
May 7, 2010 3:36pm CST
...where I just need to let things out. Like talk to someone or start another diary. I guess that's kind of why I signed up for this site. I've noticed a lot that I can't really talk to people about things. Even those closest to me. I feel like there's a constant judgement from everyone. Like, obviously I can't talk to my boyfriend about how I miss my ex best friend who just happens to be my ex boyfriend. Not only because that's just not appropriate to say to the one you're in love with, but also because of all the drama that went down relating to the subject. I can't talk to most of my family about my stress with my boyfriend (or even him either, now that I think about it) because it's either way too personal and uncomfortable or it gets me no where except maybe sometimes a fight/argument. Can't talk to any of them about being stressed out about growing up and getting a job, and life in general, because all they have to say is "That's life. You just have to tough it out." or something similar. Of course, all of these examples have wayyy more details than I'm letting on. And like I said, it's giving me that craving again. I feel like I need to write... Like I need to put pen to paper (because it's so much more fun than pencil, no matter how many times you mess up and regret not being able to erase) and start a diary... something. Maybe I'll write a book. But at the same time, I have a problem where I want to start something and then get bored of it and never go back to it. And also, typing is so much faster. I feel like I can get it all out clearly. And at the same time, I feel like I could go on forever. But I'm not even sure where I'm going with this. It's more about the details. I'll type those up individually, too. I'm gonna have to start documenting these random thoughts I'm having of paragraphs and paragraphs of feelings and questions. Here's where you guys come in, I guess. Thanks? Unless I actually do start this on paper, expect to hear more.
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• India
8 May 10
oh my god. Could you agree with a suggestion? Please. It is very hard to read big paragraphs. Can you please split them to shorter paras, next time. I agree with the emotion spark-part. Now, Mylot is the BEST PLACE for you to share and pour out your feelings. Only, be careful with any HARSH and IMPOLITE words you use. Friends here are a very great lot, and bear with anything though. I DID NOT see any invitation to share what I feel about your cravings, so, reserve till the next post. Please do write an article too, on this subject.