who loves you so much?

I'm not married yet, don't have bf either. But I love my mom so much. I think I'm nothing without her. I stay away from her, in a different city for study but I always miss her. I feel like there is always someone beside me invisibly and taking care of me. Sometimes she comes to me but when it is time for her to go back I can't take it. I feel like theres nobody so helpless like me. I don't know how can I live my life when she wont be here in this world for me. God bless her. She loves me more than I love her. She did lots of sacrifice for me that nobody would do for me. I hope I could be able to love my children like my mom. I want to be like her, I want to be a mother and she is my idol. Love you so much Ma!!!