I wish I could go home for good.

Spain
September 30, 2010 8:51am CST
True material possessions never provide lasting and genuine happiness. More than anything they are calamitous to one's soul. I WISH I COULD GO HOME FOR GOOD. I dream of going home and I really had a dream last night that I'm home and here it goes: "i was filled with an inexplicalbe feeling of elation when i saw my brothers and their wives, sisters and their husbands, my nephews, nieces, relatives and friends. i felt an overwhelming joy when i saw their faces light up for their presents. a mutual feeling of happiness resonated through the house for being together again" God, i didn't know why it has happened like that in my dreams as the only sibling that is there with my parents right now is saadee. he's my eight brother. Paulina the second to the last is in Baza. While all my elder siblings were all migrated to different countries... Now I am waxing this post with tears falling from my eyes.. LOL.... Really I miss THEM ALL!!! If you are working or migrated overseas, do you miss your HOMELAND? DO YOU MISS EVERYTHING? EVERYBODY?
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• Philippines
30 Sep 10
oh! i'm touched. you're homesick. this is one reason why i don't want to migrate when almost everyone i know here in our country wanted to migrate elsewhere. i might be missing my roots. my comfort zone is here and i don't want to go anywhere else but here where i'm staying right now - the place where i was born, where i grew up, where i made lots of friends, where i shared laughters and tears, where i have a good job.... the place i call home. i just couldn't picture myself leaving my homeland and starting a new life all over again in a new country although it spells -- lots of bigger opportunity if i just get out of my comfort zone.
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• Spain
1 Oct 10
Hi Lissele, I have a GF and when we got settled, we'll pursue our plan to migrate too. We're 8 siblings. Im the 6th one and from me till our youngest we used to go home to our parents where they permanently residing in Bengalore, India. My Dad has a dual citizenship but my Mom. I also have two but not called dual citizenship one is where I was born and the other is just like a consideration. I miss everything belongs to my 2 hometowns. I have my anual vacation every december but the happiness I am yearning to see and feel wasn't complete as we weren't complete. There was a time we had a family reunion but that was 11 years ago when I'm still in 10th grade.
• Philippines
1 Oct 10
Good luck to your future plans. Probably you really are destined to be away from your homeland while I'm destined to be contented forever in my homeland :)
• Spain
1 Oct 10
That's what I think too. Thanks Liselle.
@greygoo (798)
• Philippines
1 Oct 10
i'm not super far from my family since we're still in the same country, but i miss home too. i've been living separately since i entered the university and that was around 5 years ago. i see my family during breaks between semesters, i was with them last may actually, but this school is killing me. i'm sooo tired. i slept like 6am today (i was working on requirements, papers and stuff) and woke up at 8am for class.(o_o) and this isn't the first time. i've been sleeping less and less lately. i know it's partly my fault. i procrastinate. there are just so many things to do in school that i can't seem to find time for other things.m(_ _)m i just want to go home...to rest and detoxify. i miss my sister. i miss kicking her lazy butt. hahaXD
• Spain
1 Oct 10
Gre y go Hola. You are lucky as you are taking your formal college education there. Just concentrate your studies and study first before anything else. After 5 or more years of sacrifices, you'll be finishing i know. Bring home your diploma and surely your parents will be happy and proud of you. I have never had my formal college education but i know how hard it is as i have seen how my elder siblings succeed with their studies. 3 among them are medicine related course. and an electrical and mechanical engineers. they all finished their studies. since i'm the black ship among them, i have my own story too. but at least i am not so far behind from them materially. i think i'm still lucky.
@greygoo (798)
• Philippines
3 Oct 10
hi:D hmm... i'm feeling better about school now. i was just s stressed when i wrote that reply; i don't actually hate school nor studying^_^ i'm ok now~ my parents worked really hard so i could go to school, and i swear i'm trying to do my part so that i could give them a good life when they're older.^_^ you don't seem like a black sheep to me, so don't say that;) normal people like me need to follow the standards of society and go to school to find ourselves a living afterwards. while people like you who don't go through that trend, i believe, are you geniuses.;) you are champions of your lives! yey!
• Spain
7 Oct 10
that's good torero torero we'll just keep our motivation levels high.
• Pamplona, Spain
2 Oct 10
Hiya kumar, Yes that sounds very much like you are Homesick alright. It get´s to us all who have had to go far away from their Land and live in another. I got married here and almost every Day there is hardly a time when I don´t miss where I come from. I think that if I mentioned where I came from they probably might not understand why. Well the matter is personal anyway. So that´s why I get tearful sometimes but it soon passes when I think of what they tried to do to me. However I do miss my homeland very much I still have one or two People I can go and see but they are not Family as none of the Family will want to see me either. You dream about yours and I hope that in the near future you can get to see all of your Brothers and Sisters together with your Mom and Dad too. Seems like you are not able to connect with them through the Internet either is that right? That at least would be a consolation for a while. You seem such a loving Family and that is something that is really something. I can see the Holiday over here in Granada was not possible because of your new Job is that right too? Have a great Weekend Kumar
• Spain
7 Oct 10
Hola Sra., I was not prepared for the culture shock I experienced and the challenges when I first come here especially for the culture that is much different from where I came. I came and grown up from a closely knit family and I often have a constant feeling of being out of place and alone which tend to intensify my homesickness and cravings for the comfort of home and familiar faces. We are able to connect through the internet even my distant relation especially there in granada where they spent their leisure time on the net at times. Hearing ther voices and seeing their faces on the net is a great comfort but to come and contact with so as to feel is the one I am missing so much. Although I was not totally grown up in this culture but I was born there so it really qualifies it. Thanks Senhora and I can relate and understand from what you had written here regarding your family. For whatever it is, if we human have the power to forgive, totally forgive like our Dear Lord does, there would be no sentiments and hates at all. We just usually Ignore what someone did and move on.. please correct me here if I am wrong. Take care now and have a nice weekend.
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• Pamplona, Spain
30 Oct 10
Hiya kumar, Wow I am finding it difficult to keep up with this. I never usually take this long to answer but these past few weeks have been hectic too. Yes I can forgive them but it´s hard to forget what they did but I am getting there. Do you tell them that you are Homesick or is that you don´t want them to worry too much about you? I would tell them. Maybe you can get a few weeks off for Christmas and fly over to Granada and India. There are some very cheap flights now and you should be able to manage it I think anyway. No you are not wrong what you say at the end either. But going back to you yourself I would think that now you have a better position you could ask just that one time and take the time out to go and see them. Sometimes we forget to remember all the time. I would think that they probably miss you very much as well by the sound of it. So go on get your Case ready for December and have a great time in those two places what a lucky guy. They will be so pleased to see you again.
@zandi458 (27952)
• Malaysia
1 Oct 10
There is really no place like home. Being away from people close to your heart makes you more homesick which find no cure but to be with them always. No matter how well off you might be in your adopted country, it will not find you the real happiness in life without the people that mean so much to you. I can well understand your inner feelings of being detached from your roots. Hopefully you will be united with everyone at home soon.
• Spain
7 Oct 10
that's true. i miss their company, the things that we do together; a sense of belonging. i miss the pace of life where we siblings adopted from our first hometown. they really know how to relax, there is a good balance between works and leisures.
@shia88 (4582)
• Malaysia
1 Oct 10
HI, I have been away from my homeland for more than 15 years and for sure I miss my family alot. I always go back to my homeland once a year. All my siblings,my parents and relatives are there and I was alone here in another country. Of course, I have my own family here. No matter what, I still miss my home alot. How worse it is, my home is still the best in my heart.
• Spain
1 Oct 10
Hi Shia, you are still luckier than me as when you went home all your loved ones are there at one place waiting for you. but for me, they scattered around the globe.. lol... really i miss them all..
• Philippines
1 Oct 10
Hi! I think you are so homesick. Why not try to visit them ones or twice a year, that way you can all have a family reunion. That will be so much fun. I hope you feel better soon.
• Spain
1 Oct 10
Hello Marichris, yes i have my annual vacation every december but the only ones who i come home to are my loving parents and my youngest siblings and sometimes Paulina if she went home from baza. she's studying in granada and she love the place. all my elder siblings migrated to different countries already...
@Hatley (164450)
• Garden Grove, California
1 Oct 10
kumar I so miss my son and me not living in our apartment as when he lost his job and we ran out of money the manager immediately evicted us. we were homeless and I ended up here in this tiresome retirement center and he in a gov.sponsored apt with three outher men but he has at last got a job and perhaps in the future when we get enough money together Again we can once more share an apartment and have a real home again.I am not in your situation but i can feelfor you as I do not want to be here at all and it was supposed t o be an emergency thing and wouild only be here a few months but it turned into one year and a half now.Hedoes come to seem every weekend so Iam still better off than you., b ut I feel sad for you.
• Spain
1 Oct 10
Ms. Hatley! can you imagine almost 11 years that I havn't see my siblings personally. Although we often chat, everyday chatting, cam to cam, it is not complete as I want to hug them... my eldest brother Miguel Prakash offered me to join him in Vancouver, BC Canada but I don't know yet. in time, a good decision between me and my GF will be made.. I just don't know who among Paulina and Sadie would want to stay either my Mom's or Dad's Homeland as so far none of us did.