The phone rings and it will never be him again

@shaggin (32726)
United States
April 8, 2011 7:28pm CST
Before my husband died it was like never fail he would call me right after I got the kids in bed. My son would hear it through the floor and yell until I went up. I would always tell him not to call after the kids went to bed but he always would. I havent gotten a call this time of night since he died. My sister just called me and I thought who in the world could that be. I knew it wouldnt be him and that was such a sad thought. It was just my sister asking directions to a place for her friend. During the day when my cell phone would ring to tell me I had a text it would always be my husband or my sister. Usually my husband. My cell phone has been so quiet lately without him texting me. What I wouldnt give to hear from him again. I'm sure plenty of you will know how it feels to lose someone and never hear from them again. There isnt a day or an hour that goes by that I dont think of Jim. He should have lived to see our children having kids but he died to young. Tomorrow for the first time I get the social security payment for this month for the kids and myself. I wish he was here so I could share it with him. I'm taking the kids to do craft things at acmoore and michaels and lowes then taking them to dinner at pizza hut and to watch the movie hop. Their dad loved taking them to the movies.
5 responses
@bounce58 (17524)
• Canada
12 Apr 11
It's really sad. You really don't realize what somebody means to you until they are gone. I wish your kids had fun that day. And I hope that the little fun you had helped in a way in letting them and you forget the heartache that you're all going through. Even for just a few hours.
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@jennyze (7048)
• Indonesia
11 Apr 11
I understand the feeling. It will be sometimes until you would not expect it from your late husband. To get busy with the kids are the best ting to heal, both for the kids and yourself.
@shaggin (32726)
• United States
12 Apr 11
My kids definitly keep my busy but its this time of night when they go to sleep that I cry for hours while they are sleeping. I just cant stand it sometimes how horrible I feel. It is still like a bad nightmare. Sometimes I just cant believe hes gone. It would have been different if he was an old man but he hadent even made it to his 30th birthday it breaks my heart. I wish he had had a better life.
• Philippines
9 Apr 11
Remembering your husband in a loving way makes you feel he is still with you despite his physical absence. I hope you won't feel too sad. It is alright to miss him but I believe he would not want you to be sad.
@shaggin (32726)
• United States
12 Apr 11
No I know you are right he would not want me to be sad. He would want me to just go on as I had been before and take care of the kids and be the best mother I can be. After he and I split up he told me something he had never told me before he told me that I was a really good mother.
• Indonesia
9 Apr 11
please have my condolences. i hope you can be strong to run this world with your beloved son
@Janey1966 (24127)
• Carlisle, England
9 Apr 11
Oh God I don't know what to say. I feel so sorry for your loss, I really do.