Do you ever want to disappear?

United States
April 13, 2011 3:24am CST
Occasionally I want to disappear. I see everything around me and I don't really care much for living up to the world's expectations. I want to do what I like. I want to live each day surfing, even though I've only had one lesson. I wish I was born on a bech with waves. Instead I was born on the east coast of the US in an area without waves. When I was little I wanted to go to the beach every day. I was nearly black from the tan. I've been angry for a while, but now I want to disappear.
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13 responses
@fedeborgo (104)
• Argentina
13 Apr 11
sometimes i want to see the world an they cant see me... that would be awesome.
• United States
14 Apr 11
Yes, that way they can't make stupid judgments or get the wrong idea.
@DaDukeee (75)
• Romania
13 Apr 11
I think every one get this from time to time.The urge of disappearing and going to a place where I know no one seems a more reliable solution to my problems than ever.When I don't no what to do anymore when my head is pulsing so hard and I think it will explode i want to disappear.
• United States
14 Apr 11
Yes, you have described my thoughts exactly. No one can do anything to help except for myself. Some times you can only rely on yourself.
• United States
13 Apr 11
I can understand because there are many times I need the me/alone time. Life is stressful sometimes and not having some peace and quiet to think things clearly sometimes can be added stress. I have intentionally not wanted to do anything with anyone so that I could be left alone. I feel that from time to time I need this.
• United States
14 Apr 11
Yeah, somem alone time is healthy because being around a lot of people can crowd one's mind sometimes. It doesn't help to have people complaining to you or demanding your attention when you have your own problems to solve.
@jaiho2009 (39019)
• Philippines
13 Apr 11
I really wish to disappear when i am too mad and angry with my kids. When they started fighting for nothing...and they're not listening to me...i really wish i could disappear in that moment. Kids are big headache when they're adults..ugh...so much headache
• United States
14 Apr 11
It's one or the other. Do you want them to have the headache instead? Lol.
@whengcat (1458)
• Philippines
13 Apr 11
Sometimes I want to do that, get away from it all. Specially in the midst of hardships, sometimes I want to run away from a place where I can have a peace of mind. But then again, I have to bring back my senses to face reality....
• United States
14 Apr 11
Yeah, it's really hard sometimes, but you do what you gotta do.
@Jackalyn (6655)
• Oxford, England
27 Aug 15
I am so sorry life made you angry and I can really identify with that feeling of wanting to disappear as there was a time in my life I seriously thought of doing so. All I can tell you is to hang in there, but maybe try to get away for a few days and actually be by a beach or something. These feelings are transient and they do pass and life usually has a better time around the corner.
@lyamsitiy (104)
• Philippines
20 Apr 11
I would want to be invincible but not to disappear completely. I just like the thought of observing other people with out giving the impression of being rude just because I'm staring. Maybe you need a break from the stresses you are in right now. Relax and hit the beach so you would not be that angry.
@JenInTN (27565)
• United States
15 Apr 11
There are alot of times that I long to the things that I love. There are times when I am just over everything and want to runaway. Unfortunatley, I have obligations too. I have worked very hard to be where I am so there is a price to pay for that. I get the chance to do things I love now but not near as much as I would like. Stay strong and set yourself up so you can do the things you love sometimes. I think there needs to be a happy medium.
14 Apr 11
This kind of stuff usually happens to me. If the other people are not going to disappear, then I wish I will instead. The world can blow up for all I care. If it won't allow me to live the way I want, then I will just spend all of my time trying to FORCE it to be like how I wanted it or just get rid of it.
@sswallace21 (1824)
• United States
14 Apr 11
I don't know what your financial situation is. But it really sounds like you need to pack up and moved to the coast. I know there are college on the coast. Maybe you should check into this. You need to do what is going to make you happy. Best Wishes!
• China
14 Apr 11
Yeah, i feel like running away and disappearing all the time .i have been through a lot of depressing moments in my life.i feel like forrest gump and want to just keep running until i reach the coast then turn around and run the other way. it's sure a good exercise and a break from reality. but then i live in reality so i would have to stop when my running away feeling has passed and i have to go back reality.
@jemilane (176)
• Philippines
14 Apr 11
Just when I thought that the world around me were so cruel and felt that I am nobody in here, that was when I wanted to just disappear. I wished that I could just snap my fingers and go wherever I wanna be. But it's just so hard 'coz you know that this is far from reality. You just can't make yourself disappear that easily. Now I'm learning to face what's in front of me and thus makes me feel brave enough to go on and on. But there's still a part of me that want to disappear or plainly wanna dwell in some different place and live. :)
@toniganzon (49889)
• Philippines
14 Apr 11
There are times when we just want to disappear for some reason. I had it several times and recently i had wanted that as well. I just wanted to evaporate so that no one can see me or hurt me in anyway. Like you i love the beach and i'm lucky to be living in a country which is an archipelago with more than 7000 islands. I hope you can get over whatever it is you are going through and then maybe you can work your way to living near the beach. Let it be your motivation.