Keep the faith...it will be your last and only weapon

i have survived - and hope to survive some more in the future for I chose to have faith in Him
Philippines
May 22, 2011 9:50pm CST
I have never been so religious, like I have to go to church every Sunday or read the bible on a regular basis.If I pray to Him, it was just so brief but I try to talk to Him like He is in front of me and I don't have a script , I just say what and how I feel about things. He must have heard my prayers for when I was confronted with the greatest battle of my life, I know for sure my faith has help me won the war in a way. There was a time when I asked Him to take my life away for I don't have the reason to live anymore.But He didn't gave me my wish.He let me face hell and feel all the stinging pain I have never imagined I can ever feel in my life. I cannot understand why He won't give me my wish to dissapear from this earth.There are lots of questions unanswered. Still to this day, alot of questions remains a puzzle for me. But one thing for sure, I know He didn't forsake me while I was heading for hell's gate.For I am here, with the strong belief , that Somebody up there really loves me and His ways are beyond my wisdom but for sure , all He ever wanted was goodness for me. For He is the origin of love.
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@rokudaime (339)
• Australia
23 May 11
Hello Lipstick! I truly agree that faith is the best weapon that we have in sustaining our existence in this seemingly miserable life. As long as we are here on earth, trials and problems do come and go. But, just as they say, these are just spices of life that would help us become a better person. To be someone with a strong faith, it must have been God's grace that lead you to become inspired to stay close to Him. Just continue clinging to Him and He will never leave you. God bless!
• Philippines
12 Jul 11
you're right rokudaime! Thumbs up! :) GODBLESS
@jdex_143 (1093)
• Philippines
12 Jul 11
Hi, there! :) I'm happy to read your posting. I admire your faith to Him. All I can say is that, continue being faithful to Him for He will bless you. Maybe He wants you to do something that's why He didn't took your life when you wanted to just disappear in this world and I think, it's for you to find out what it is. God speed. :D
@laydee (12798)
• Philippines
23 May 11
Know what, just relax. I know that life could be tough and there are things that really pressure us a lot, but I don't think God would like us to suffer, perhaps He just wanted us to see what he wants us to see in these sufferings. Further, I have realize that He truly is with us every single time, but I think we must also do our share by having more faith. We complain a lot and like you I have also prayed that He end my life, but I think doing that is actually saying that I don't have enough faith in Him. So relax, don't think too much. I have noticed that when I try to relax and just thank Him for everything and to just things pass for now, I find myself thinking of a solution better. Keep strong and don't forget to thank Him for everything.
@jaiho2009 (39142)
• Philippines
23 May 11
Sometimes we questioned God for all the things that happening to us. It's fine,we're just trying to get some answers right. God answered prayers in many ways,directly or indirect. Even with bad moments or in our lowest moment we never knew that HE was there with us. The courage and determination to survived comes from within,from God who give us all the strength. Don't worry,there is a right time for everything. If you keep up the faith...there is time to reap and sow,time to cry and smile... We must always remember that,behind the clouds the sun is still shining. And after each storm...the sun will surely rise and lighten up the world. have a good day
@chuyins123 (2112)
• Philippines
23 May 11
Hi Lipstick, Love will never give up on you. I have been to some tragic events this first quarter of the year, and it seems that second quarter is another tough one to fight. There are times that I got to Him, and says, can you just slay me. These things I am facing now are just so killing me. It hurts, it's painful and the hardest thing is, I just can't move on. But God, like what He did to you, refused to kill me. Instead, He let me continue living. I was even wishing that the judgment day was real, (though I personally don't believe in the prophecy). But then, again, God didn't let this world end without me realizing that His love is more overwhelming than the storms I have in my life. Just today, I got one prayer answered. I was just so amazed of GOD's working in my life. He's never tired of loving me despite the fact that I am such a stubborn, ungrateful, spoiled, mad brat... Today, I realize that God's love is not dependent on our love for Him. His faithfulness and generosity is never dependent on our faith. He reached out to us first. He gave us the idea of love. And He promised everything He started, He will finish. Most often in life we will end up with so much questions than answers. And most often too GOD doesn't really makes sense. These questions are real, it's what we see in our environment, it's evident in life, that we've come to formulate them. But God just doesn't make sense really. Because He neither answers a lot of our questions nor directly answer us when we ask them. But the thing is, we know he's never answered all, but we believe and knew that He will always carry us through. I was devastated in the past few days. to the point of killing myself. I was praying then, but I guess GOD was just too slow to answer, but He didn't let me die. He made me sleep. And today, He said YES to one of my prayers. Up to now, I still have a lot of questions in life, but I stand still and strongly hold on to my faith in HIM. That every thing works out for good to those who love Him. Your post just reminded me of His goodness and greatness. And all the things He's done in my life. Which I often ignored in times of shaking and troubles. Truly, our faith is our last and only weapon, in this great battle field we shall call "LIFE"... God bless you more lipstick. chuyins
@nurseclare (2209)
• Philippines
12 Jul 11
I appreciate you for having that kind of faith, that's really good! And GO wants you to leave foe HE loves you so much.You must not think of that for it will just worsen your problem. Thank GOD you're enlightened now and keep fighting for what you believe. God loves you
@edsss17 (4394)
• Philippines
23 May 11
Hi lipstick... AMEN to that! Just like you,, I don't also go to church every Sunday.. but I always talk to Him.. Confessing what I feel and my emotions everyday!! It feels really good.. As if you're talking to your best friend. YES! God can be our best friend!! God is love~!