Some Love Never Dies

I have been divorced for 30 years plus, my ex was mean to me, drank like a fish, ran around, would stay gone for days, lose his job etc. guess u get the picture, lol.He died a couple of weeks ago from cancer.I didn't bawl & squall [much] when his sister let me know he was close to death.I was sad tho & still think about him alot. Have u ever loved someone but couldn't live w/them?