Something's Wrong With Me!

@edsss17 (4398)
Philippines
September 29, 2011 10:16am CST
There's one thing my brother told me the other night that keeps me awake. He told me that I changed so much and I am not the Ate he knew. I easily get mad, that they couldn't reach me for any reasons. I am always busy that I couldn't assist them with their assignment. He also said that he want the old me back. I was speechless, BIG TIME! Maybe its all because I was too busy working and studying at the same time that I didn't give too much attention to my younger siblings. I'm too busy trying to be productive for them not knowing I am transforming into a monster. That thought makes me cry. I don't have time for them because I was too busy working to give them a better tomorrow. I really need to get their Ate back as soon as possible. I sure do miss the old me too!
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5 responses
@verolop29 (1096)
• United States
17 May 12
yea that tends to happen when u work too hard and are always busy. but family is the most important in ur life..in all our lives our family is number one, no matter their age or anything. however if they try to kill u then by all means stay away from them!! by all means bring the old Ate back! im sure that'll make his day!
@edsss17 (4398)
• Philippines
22 May 12
Yes, very true. So far me and my siblings are in good terms no. I've learned to manage my time. :)
@sanofer (525)
• India
12 Oct 11
i think your siblings are missing you badly.so only they said like that.little ones always try to get attention from their elder brothers and sisters.eventhough you are busy try to spend atleast half an hour with them.tell them that you are working for them and promise them that you will bring up them to a good position in the society.just spend little time with them.you will notice the change in them.
@edsss17 (4398)
• Philippines
12 Oct 11
That's what really am trying right now. Trying to cover the days I wasn't able to bond with them.
@chiyosan (29389)
• Philippines
12 Oct 11
how old is your brother who said this to you? I believe we do not really change, i believe we people just have "grown" up or matured and the others have not coped up with the lifestyle. you are not a monster when you are too busy making ends meet. your brother should need to understand that you too need to do these, and to work and study at the same time and instead the time you used to give them is spent to other things like earning to help them too. you need to stop at some point too, and well alot an hour or tow everyday and seat with them and just ask how they are. you must have been too stressed, or too occupied chasing after your work and study that you hardly noticed that your siblings are there assessing your every move. :D hehe best of luck to you!
@edsss17 (4398)
• Philippines
12 Oct 11
Maybe! All they ask is a little time to bond with me and I feel bad that I couldn't give them that! He's 13 years old, anyway! :)
@jugsjugs (13046)
1 Oct 11
I do think that people do change mainly when they are tired, ill, stressed or have other problems that are on their mind.I do not spend much time with my family, other than my husband and my children, but my family do understand and know why.All my family the same as your know that they can pick the phone up and chat to me anytime that they like.However my nan had got worried about me, as she had been ringing here every day for over a week, as she had not heard from me, when she did get an answer at my house, it was my husband who spoke to her and he explained to her that i had been rushed to hospital from the drs, to have an op done, as well as that i had to go to the hospital and the drs to get treatment done, and that is why there was no answer.She decided to call at the weekend, when she thought it would be a good time, but rather than saying can i call you back, i spoke to her while the district nurse was here with me, my nan worries more now that she has got older, so i thought that i would not say i can not chat while the nurse was here.Tell your family, brother what you are trying to do,as i find telling them is easier, as well as how you feel.
@edsss17 (4398)
• Philippines
1 Oct 11
I did tell 'em! Its just that, the little kids doesn't understand so well. My parents do understand me.
@jaiho2009 (39084)
• Philippines
29 Sep 11
my lady, Oh, guess you really need to give time to your siblings then. I know the feeling..yes, they can always feel and see the changes in us easily,so, take time to be with your brother and be the same "eds" as you are
@edsss17 (4398)
• Philippines
30 Sep 11
my lady, I feel bad for not giving enough attention to them. I been busy with work and school stuffs and didn't even notice that they thought I'm changing, A LOT! :( I'm trying to make it up to them this coming weekend.