April 21, 2012 12:15pm CST
In high school, I used to like this guy whom I thought was hot stuff. I obsessed over him for the whole 3 years I went to high school - but nothing came of it - not even friendship. We were in a lot of honors classes together, but we never truly got to know each other. He wasn't popular, though he was on the basketball team . . . he was kind of quiet and now that I think of it he didn't have much of a personality. So why did I like this guy? Looking back I don't know what I was thinking. But certainly I had a major crush on him !! High school for me was over 25 years ago. Even though now I'm happily married to the love of my life and we have 2 kids together, I STILL dream of this crush. It's always about me trying to impress this guy (like I used to) in indirect ways, scheming to cross his path, but like in real life it doesn't get anywhere. And I dream about him in this way often. So what is the point of all this? Why after all these years, I'm still dreaming about some dude who could care less about me?