My Beautiful mother passed away

United States
September 15, 2012 7:52pm CST
July 17th she died. She had lung cancer and none of us knew it had spread so fast. She went into the hospital to the ER complaining of pain. They found blood clots in her legs and her lungs. Well they couldn't do anything about the ones in her lungs, but they did a surgery to stop the ones in her legs. The surgery went fine. But a few hours later she was complaining of headaches and went out from the pain meds. Maybe she went into a coma I don't know. But they did a cat scan in the middle of the night there and it showed the cancer spread into her brain and it was hemridging. I just started balling at that point. I knew we had to say goodbye to her there in the hosptial, in the middle of the night. My son said his goodbyes and so did I. My older brother was there with his wife. The doctor didn't know how long she had. My younger brother had power of attorney and he made the decision to turn off everything in the morning and at 11 am on july 17th she was gone. My younger brother did not live here at the time and was on his way back. He didn't even get to say bye to her until at the funeral home. Since then we have had to have an auction to sell everything in her house. That was heartbreaking. I grew up with everything in that house. I didn't go to the auction. Now they are getting ready to sell the house. The house where mom and dad lived. I lost my dad in 2005. Now I feel like an orphan. I miss them both so much. I talked to mom everyday, ran errands for her, went over to visit, ect .. all this while being sick myself. Is it normal to want to join my parents in heaven?? I just don't know how to go on. I wish I could have gone in her place. Its not fair. Anyway thats it. Now I am so alone. Thanks for listening.
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@kris3rdE (156)
• Philippines
16 Sep 12
I'm sorry to hear what happened. Losing people we care the most is very hard. I understand that you miss your parents and but always remember that you're a parent as well. Now you know that it'll going to be hard for your son if you leave soon. You're not alone, you have your son,brother and friends that loves you. Spend some time with them or do new things for your self. Moving on doesn't mean that you don't love your Mom, Moving on doesn't mean you're forgetting her. Moving on means you value the life that God and your Parents given to you.
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@AmbiePam (84647)
• United States
20 Sep 12
Oh, I am so sorry. My heart just breaks for you. For it to be so sudden with so little time to prepare...I think it's normal to want to go to Heaven as well. If anything happened to my dad I don't know what I would do. My mom is so far in dementia that it would almost be a blessing if she passed on. She's just being tormented on earth as it is. But if I lost my dad too...I'd be feeling the same as you. I hope your pain diminishes with time. I just wish I could say something to make you feel better.
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@AmbiePam (84647)
• United States
20 Sep 12
Oh yes, it's bad enough when you are of a regular mind set. But when you suffer from depression (I'm bipolar), it's even worse. Try to imagine your mom and dad reunited. When my mom finally passes on (and even though she is only 53 I imagine she won't be here another ten years), I'm going to think about her finally getting to see her dad again. She misses him terribly.
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• Philippines
16 Sep 12
I am sorry to hear about your loss. In time, you will be able to accept that we are all bound to heaven. Just be happy because your mom is now with your dad in heaven. Pray and be strong.
• United States
16 Sep 12
I know that I am bound to heaven. I just wish it would be sooner than later. Only because I have been sick with digestive diseases for 7 years. My mom saw me suffering and can probably still see me. I hope anyway. I know she is in heaven with dad now and happy. I just can't wait for the day that I can be. Thankyou
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