Changing paths, have you ever changed yours?

@writersedge (22579)
United States
October 18, 2012 11:29am CST
I won't be going to Healing Circle until I feel moved to be on that path again. I am drawn less and less to groups of people and more to doing my own thing. There are always conflicts with groups of people. I like one to one or one to a small number of people. The Healing Circle has gone from a few close people to a lot of people. Now it includes someone I can't stand. I've tried, but every word out of her mouth makes me want to throw up. I've been thinking for a long time that I want to do something different. I like research, dance, and other neat things. I think I'll start with a detox. That way I'll know the poison from my enemy is gone. The leader of the group new we were enemies. I heard people were joking, "Well no one has killed anyone yet." Yet she invited her to the group. I told her I can't continue to go. I was called to Dance Shamanism before Reiki. It is still my first love. I will dance away everything I can. "I am a rock; I am an island." So have you changed from one path to another?
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@celticeagle (120480)
• Boise, Idaho
20 Oct 12
Because of my mood disorder I have tried many paths. I do well with large groups of people due to my social anxiety so I don't go to group meetings. Its hard to be around a group that includes one you cant stand. I used to be very into the spiritual and even went to a new age group for a time. It was interesting and I can't remember why i quit going. But when I get real depressed my entire life changes.
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@writersedge (22579)
• United States
20 Oct 12
I hope you will be able to follow a path some day. Some people will do one on one and tailor a path specifically to the person. May you find peace and love.
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@celticeagle (120480)
• Boise, Idaho
20 Oct 12
I have found peace and love within my family but spiritually not so much. Thank you for your wishes.
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@writersedge (22579)
• United States
21 Oct 12
2/3, we'll hope for the third one then. You're welcome.
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@dfollin (12770)
• United States
19 Oct 12
Hi writersedge, I don't blame you,there is no reason why you should be around people that you don't like being around.And the people that knew you didn't like her had no right to invite her and then joke about it.It sounds like they were looking for trouble!That makes them just as bad as she is. You should go find something that you enjoy.I have changed paths many times in my life.Some change is always good for you to experiment and find out your passions.I have thought I liked something,then when I got involved in it I didn't think it was so hot after all. That reminds me of this girl that I knew in church.She went to college and got her degree in education.She became a kindergarten teacher for a year then found out she didn't really like it so much.So,then she went an took a correspondence course on travel and became an airline stewardess. Good luck with wherever these paths take you.
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@writersedge (22579)
• United States
20 Oct 12
Wonderful words of encouragment. Thank you very much. She didn't know I was going to be there either. They told neither of us, so when she walked thru the door and saw me as well as I saw her, we both almost walked out. I should have. Yes, I think some people went to see if "fur would fly," not very nice of them. More walks in the woods, more individual prayers, more finding new people to hang out with. More time for research and dancing! I hope all your paths are good ones and thanks for the words of encouragement.
@GardenGerty (104114)
• United States
18 Oct 12
Not exactly in the sense you are speaking of. I have given up something in the past because of "bad vibes" or something. Just a bad spirit within the situation kept me from being blessed in the way I needed to. I can understand. Oh, and I love to dance as well.
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@writersedge (22579)
• United States
18 Oct 12
Yes, a negative energy can be bad and make you give something up. I thought you might be a dancer. Dancing can really cheer someone up, can't it?
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@GardenGerty (104114)
• United States
18 Oct 12
I have the want to of dancing but really have not done much of it in years. Thought of you when I went to a nearby town for a Car Show and festival. They had some Native American dancers doing some demonstrations and telling some history. Included was an Ojibway girl in a jingle dress which they say is a healing dance and dress. Have you had any experience with that?
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@writersedge (22579)
• United States
20 Oct 12
I love the pow wow dresses and the jimgle dress is one that is often seen at pow wows. They're neat. I have not heard Ojibway stories. Mohawk and Abenaki, I have. Mohawk Social Dances, I've seen. Abenaki enactments I've also seen. Just put some music on at your house and dance.
@hvedra (1623)
26 Nov 12
It can be very difficult if a group that might otherwise be okay has a member you cannot get along with. Not so long back I left a group because a member who had been okay to start with, gradually began doing things I don't agree with to the point where I couldn't even think about working with her spiritually. It might be hard for some folks to understand, especially if they think it's all "Love and Light" or that because someone claims to share your beliefs doesn't mean they actually do. To me actions speak louder than words and this person's behaviour in general made it impossible for me to stand with her in any kind of spiritual way. Perhaps I should have stayed and tried to get her kicked out but she was one of those "professional victims" and very manipulative. Easier, I thought, to step back. I also figured if other folks couldn't twig what she was really like and see what she was doing was just WRONG then maybe they weren't worth mixing my Wyrd with either. So now I'm back to doing stuff either by myself or with my husband and occasionally with a few pagan friends on an informal basis.
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@writersedge (22579)
• United States
26 Nov 12
Professional victim is sooo accurate a description. I tried to stay and the mroe I pointed out her flaws, the more people pointed out mine and the old, "don't try to take the whatever out of someone else's eye until you take the long out of your own." You were smarter than me. I should have left earlier. I wanted to shut up and let them figure it out for themselves, but the only way I could do that was to just not be there. It seems I can't shut up. Once they see that she manipulates for her own gain, she'll probably be the one who is out, but if they can't see that, then they're really dence. If I'm wrong, they'll figure it out, but if I'm right, they'll figure it out, too. I pretty much am doing my own thing right now. I think that will change once I get into a different group of friends. Nice to see you again.
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@writersedge (22579)
• United States
26 Nov 12
sorry, that was supposed to be log, not long.
• Carolina, Puerto Rico
11 Nov 12
Yes I have. Changed from Catholic, to Satanist, to Pagan, to Wicca, and now to eclectic Wicca. I love to explore new spiritualities and faiths. Right now I feel more comfortable with an eclectic path. I would also love to explore Druidry and shamanism.
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@jaiho2009 (39001)
• Philippines
18 Oct 12
In different aspect of life- Yes I did. I've changed my faith where I feel my soul find rest.
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@writersedge (22579)
• United States
20 Oct 12
Sometimes that's what a person needs to do. Thanks and take care.